If I Just Keep Acting Delusional And Telling Myself That Shits Going Great Then I've Convinced Myself

A fellow crowhearted!!!!

I'd love to know about your hearthomes!! :3 /nf

Aaa! Hello!

I'm usually pretty bad about writing about them, but I can try XD

The first one has to do with my dog theriotype. It's very post-apocalyptic. There aren't many humans left. It's lush and green, and most cities are flooded. The water usually isn't safe, though, and generally prompts a feeling of great unease. It's usually very hot and sunny. When it does rain, it's something worth celebrating. The TVs always play static, and strange creatures make their way out of the water regularly. There's something wrong with me here, too. It's where the whole radioactive dog part comes in. I've got this weird green tint, and I'm always parched. I look almost humanoid. Like a dog slowly morphing into a person. Usually, I'm walking through cities, either making dens or searching for something. There's also usually music everywhere, I constantly found different CDs or cassette mixtapes I'd listen to. For all its dangers, this world is also very beautiful. I usually see this world in memories or very familiar feelings

Fallout 4, particularly Far Harbor, is another one! I'm not sure what it is about the stinking island that gets me feeling such a deep longing, but it does. I have personal beef with any beast that makes it's way out of the fog, but still, home is home. It physically pained me to finish the dlc, I miss running around my home :/

Then there's Minecraft!

Specifically, it's the version that I and some friends have created over the span of 4 years now. It's got a really cool God system starting with the Multiverse who made the Goddess of life Melifera, as well as her counterpart, the God of death, Trigona. Then, it trickles down to things like the young Gods (such as Twine, God of architecture, and trade). And then there's even demigods, which are usually just celestial objects (the moon, the sun, a meteorite). There's also the deep history of all the inhabitants that make up the world. The sugargliders slowly dying out, the Nether hierarchy (and how it was destroyed), the skeleton hordes, the sniffers, etc.

While we made the server(s) as a place to just make a story, the entire world is based around a feeling of home and security. The overall realm is called Para Sanar, and there are two separate worlds that tell its history in different parts of time. There's also a bunch of other worlds we've made that also connect to it, though, in their own unique web.

Anyways, it's just become a very big second home to me in how much of a role it's played in my life. Anytime I play a new world, I find myself connecting it to Para Sanar, whether intentionally or not.

Alright, I'm done yapping. Hopefully, any of this made sense 😭

Do your tics affect phantom limbs (if applicable)? /gen q. I get tics when I'm adapting to a new schedule (I do not have tourettes), and if my shoulders or back gets them, my wings also get them.

Hmmm I haven't ever thought to connect them before but looking back? Kinda? A majority of my tics are motor tics and sometimes when I do a full body shudder it feels like I'm shaking out my fur. Or sometimes when I move my head a lot while experiencing a phantom shift I can feel my ears move.

My tail or ears might twitch but I never thought of it as my tics more as just my body reacting to my environment. Could be a blend of both though!

I will say my vocal tics ARE affected when I'm shifted. I get all chittery and twitch a lot more. I usually try to suppress a lot of my vocal tics, so I think it's nice that when I'm shifted, I feel comfortable enough to just let my voice do whatever. Some of it is my own voluntary vocals, and some of it is just my tics doing what they do.

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Love when my friends passively refer to me as a dog but still respect me. Like yeah, this is our friend. They bite and bark n shit. They're cool.

Also, a picture of me, drawn by one of my friends 😌

Home :(

view from Acadia - roaming around the Commonwealth Far Harbor 41/?

You know, if winter grieves me, fall and spring look at me with love and welcoming because they too understand the fact that we all change. No matter how different I am or how conflicted I feel, I'm still me, and that's all that matters.

This. Me desperately trying to figure out what a normal person looks like in a public setting

Do you ever feel like you are trapped in this body and your disguise has reached its limits and is becoming faulty and at any moment you're just gonna go *crack* and your body will shatter into pieces and melt away to reveal your true form

okay so i finished checking if we were friends in every universe and, uh, it turns out we're only friends in 6 of them. but look, i need you to understand these universes vary like crazy, okay? like 6 is actually insanely high, like way higher than most. and one of those is the universe where i accidentally killed the actor who played Dipsy from Teletubbies when i was 7 and my life went completely differently as a result. and we still ended up friends! also you were a girl in that universe for some reason. what? oh, uh, yeah, you were cute as hell. like really cute. did you just fucking giggle

I've been obsessed with Long Dark for years very excited to look into this.

Oh yeah the Long Dark and Lord Huron goes so well together. Hand in hand.

Like Mackenzie's whole journey is looking for his ex wife after they're stranded in the wilderness, he has far too many brushes with death and gets caught up with a bunch of convicts, making very dangerous enemies while helping whoever he can. Also he killed a bulletproof bear with a fucking spear. That's some Lord Huron shit if I've ever seen it.

And just the General Vibes of the both of them. The Long Dark handles a lot of the same topics. It's hard to describe.

Also "there was no one in sight, just the endless frozen pines" and "when you follow the strange trails it'll take you to who knows where" match the Long Dark way too well [most likely many more I'm just listening to Frozen Pines and Way Out There while typing this]

Tourettes are so silly until you're watching me spasm on the bed because the muscles in my right arm are screaming at me for laying down on it. Now I have to stretch. STRETCH! GET UP! STRETCH! APPLY PRESSURE! I DONT CARE IF THE ARM IS SORE BECAUSE WE'VE ALREADY APPLIED PRESSURE! MORE!

And I have a sore arm so I can't rest now.

Or like when I was a kid, and one of my tics was that, whenever I tried to lay down, my body would force itself to sit up and stretch out my torso as much as possible making it really hard to sleep.

Oh. Or when I can't stop rolling my stomach even to the point where I start cramping from it and can't do anything but lay in my mom's lap and whine because it fucking hurts.

Oh yeah! Or when I can't stop rolling my shoulders and they begin to ache but again I can't fuckin stop.

These are some of my more extreme tics, but it... Genuinely baffles me how many people treat Tourettes as a joke because all they see is someone making random noises or movements.

Even on that note, do you think that's okay? To laugh at someone who's already embarrassed about something they can't control? Do you think I like snapping my neck to the side as hard as possible? Or clearing my throat over and over again, or having my entire face start ticking for a minute? I have had multiple people (yes multiple!) tell me, to my face, that they want Tourettes. Why??? So you can say curse words randomly and not get in trouble for it? Did you know only about 10% of people with Tourettes have Coprolalia? Or maybe it's so you can just feel different? Okay. Would you tell someone in a wheelchair you wish you couldn't walk? Because that's pretty shitty.

Anyways. I didn't mean to turn this into a whole rant. My arm just hurts right now, and I'm tired of trying to find some comradery from my community only to be met with some random dude laughing at a girl having a tic attack. Be nice to those who are different from you.