People who think that Hawks for all those years liked just an idealized fantasy of Endeavor he built in his head really missed how that guy was always leaning towards "gray" types in general. He "never was a fan" of without fear and reproach All Might, while the people he openly admired included Twice (a criminal), Nagant (also a criminal) and obviously Endeavor (a guy who even without all the family fiasco was famous to be difficult and unapproachable). Maybe the idealization thing could be true when he was a child, but growing up he became more self aware and evidently decided he had a "type", lol. It's pretty clear Hawks deep down thinks himself "dirty" and he feels sympathy for characters who are flawed but refused their fate and fought against it.
this is why hawks' misison fails
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Twice saying he had to trust Hawks because it would be too sad not to, just on the risk that Hawks was telling the truth and really needed their help to be free, FUCKS me up. Because that's like the core of so many fanfictions. Where the League takes a risk to help Hawks and in turn Hawks wants to protect and help them too. But this isn't fanfiction.
Just, the thought that canon Hawks has never had someone do that for him before. To make such a risk and sacrifice just to maybe help. Twice was the first person too, and that meant so much to Hawks. That he begged Twice to let him help him rehab, that he begged him to not fight back, that when Hawks said "I can't let sentiment trip me up and someone has to die in these situations" and pinned Twice down, sword to his head, he still didn't do it and listened to Twice talk. And it was because of that hesitation that Dabi could get there to fight him too where Hawks was out in such a position that he couldn't put it off for a single second more.
Twice was the first person to try to help Hawks for no personal gain, and Hawks had to manipulate him and kill him. All the while repeating that Twice was a good man and he can help him. If the Commission just had a little less of a grip on Hawks' moral upbringing and sense of mission......
Don't talk to me I'm FUCKED UPPP
an attachment formed during childhood could've saved them maybe
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