From Gaza To Ireland: Out Of The Fire Of War To The Fire Of Soul-Crushing Survival Guilt And Fear For

From Gaza to Ireland: Out of the Fire of War to the Fire of Soul-Crushing Survival Guilt and Fear for my Family

Note: My main account (@mahmoudkhalafff) was unfortunately terminated by Tumblr for no reason. This is my back up account. Please continue to boost my campaign. We are too close!

At times of peace, having to be away from your family for months and years is a high price you pay for obtaining an academic degree or securing a better job. Imagine while you are away, they were trapped in a besieged strip of land and thousands of missiles rained down on that besieged area of 360 kmΒ² around the clock for almost 11 months. That would crush every cell of your mind and drive you crazy, wouldn't it?!

Imagine suddenly getting addicted to watching the news and the gory videos and pictures all the freaking time. You follow relevant social media pages that only show images, videos, and stories of entire families that were wiped out in an instant in an airstrike and deemed as collateral insignificant damage. While plunging deeper and deeper into an unprecedented state of acute depression, I wondered: how come all my suffering from displacement, fear, and hunger in Gaza for 5 months during the war before being evacuated to Ireland is nothing but a drop compared to my ocean of suffering now?

The constant thinking of my family in Gaza during the genocide and all the potential scenarios is consuming my sanity and mental health at a time in my life and a place where I am required to be 199% focused and productive. To give you a glimpse of my horrible psychological suffering these days: I fear going to sleep because I know horrible horrible nightmares are waiting for me on the other side. Some have to do with the horrors of wars I witnessed in Gaza myself and others relate to the horrible potential scenarios I keep thinking about.

Seeing the images and pictures of Gaza makes you think a thousand earthquakes hit every neighborhood of the Gaza Strip! Nothing and no one has been spared. The horrific war has turned the place into a hell on earth, unfortunately. How can young people have any hope for a better future seeing the mass destruction and the relentless Israeli efforts to stifle Gaza and squeeze hope out of its people as a form of collective punishment. How monstrous and heartless!!!

Amid all this chaos and madness, my number one priority and focus is evacuating my family to Egypt as a first step and hopefully reuniting with them in Ireland at a later stage.

Please do consider helping me save my family by donating, reblogging, and sharing.

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A Final Plea from the Heart of Hell: Save Us Before Hope Dies πŸ’”πŸ”₯

Hi, I'm Hani πŸ€—

A Final Plea From The Heart Of Hell: Save Us Before Hope Dies πŸ’”πŸ”₯

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I am Hani, a 26-year-old young man from Gaza. I no longer have anything but words, written by a trembling hand ✍️. The war didn’t just destroy our lives; it took everything from us. Our home, the refuge that once sheltered us, is now a pile of rubble 🏚️. My car, my only source of livelihood, was destroyed in a sudden strike πŸš—, and the work that once sustained us is now a distant memory πŸ’Ό.

A Final Plea From The Heart Of Hell: Save Us Before Hope Dies πŸ’”πŸ”₯

Today, I live in an unending nightmare. Under a sun that burns everything in its path 🌞πŸ”₯, my family and I sit in a worn-out tent, a tent that neither shields us from the summer heat nor the winter cold ❄️. Insects 🦟 invade the place, diseases consume our bodies 🩺, and my younger siblings cry from hunger and thirst πŸžπŸ’§. We have no clean water, nor a crumb of bread to ease our hunger. Each passing day deepens the weight of this hell we live in.

A Final Plea From The Heart Of Hell: Save Us Before Hope Dies πŸ’”πŸ”₯

My Little Brother is Dying of Fear 😨

My little brother, seven years old, is dying of fear. His eyes never stop crying 😒. Every morning, with a voice choked by tears, he asks me: "When will we go back to our home?" But I have no answer. Every look in his eyes πŸ‘οΈ, every tear that falls from them πŸ’§, crushes my heart πŸ’”. How can I explain to him that the hope which once was our lifeline has now turned into nothing but a mirage?

A Final Plea From The Heart Of Hell: Save Us Before Hope Dies πŸ’”πŸ”₯

The Night Only Adds to Our Pain πŸŒ™

The night doesn’t bring us rest, it only adds to our pain. We sleep on hard ground, feeling the in every bone of our bodies πŸ₯Ά, with nothing but pieces of cardboard πŸ“¦ to cover us. My older sister cries in silence πŸ₯Ί as she watches the future fade before her eyes. My sick mother, in desperate need of medical care πŸ©ΊπŸ’Š, suffers in complete silence. My father, who was once the pillar of our family πŸ‘¨β€πŸ‘§β€πŸ‘¦, is now confined by his own weakness, unable to move or work.

A Final Plea From The Heart Of Hell: Save Us Before Hope Dies πŸ’”πŸ”₯

We Are Nearing the End ⚰️

Every day we live brings us one step closer to the end. Death surrounds us from every side: if not from hunger 🍽️, then from illness 🦠. And if not from illness, then from the despair that devours our souls.

A Final Plea From The Heart Of Hell: Save Us Before Hope Dies πŸ’”πŸ”₯

Where is Humanity? Where is the World? πŸŒπŸ’”

Where are the people of compassion? Are you waiting for us to vanish into the depths of this suffering? Are you waiting until death takes us before you act? We are drowning, and we don’t have enough strength to scream for help πŸ†˜. Will you let this cry go unanswered? 😭

Your donation today is our last thread of hope. Thanks to a few people, I was able to buy a simple phone πŸ“± to reach out to you, but the bitter truth is that what I and my family need is much greater. We are not asking for much; just enough to save our lives from this hell πŸ”₯. Every donation, no matter how small, could be the difference between life and death for us πŸ‘.

Don’t Let Us Disappear in the Darkness of Suffering πŸŒ‘

Don’t let our story end here. Be the light that guides us to salvation πŸ•―οΈβœ¨.

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With every tear, with every pain, I write this final plea to you,Β 

Hani

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Zain Sami @zainsami - Not vetted yet. - €525 / €35,000 (1.5%)

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Mohi @mohiy-gaza2 - Vetted by 90-ghost - $27,057 / $31,000 (87.28%)

Hamdi Ayyad @hamdiali112233 - Not vetted yet. - €677 / €25,000 (2.7%)

Rehab Shamia @rehabsh98 - Vetted by association - $35,251 / $40,000 USD (88.12%)

Tahseen Alkhazendar @tahseenkhazen - Vetted by 90-ghost - $11,855 / $25,000 USD (47.42%)

Islam Al-Najjar @islamgazaaccount3 - Vetted by northgazaupdates - €2,050 / €30,000 (6.83%)

Shima @shimo20 - Vetted by gaza-evacuation-funds - $325 / $30,000 CAD (1.08%)

Dina @dina179 - On el-shab-hussein and nabulsi's spreadsheet, entry #245 - $12,027 / $50,000 CAD (24.05%)

Abdullah @abdala1 - Vetted by association - $3,600 / $75,000 AUD (4.8%)

Kareman Dohan @karemandohan1999 - Vetted by 90-ghost - $7,587 / $50,000 USD (15.17%)

Intisar Abushammaleh @bshaeromars-blog - Vetted by nabulsi - $17,212 / $40,000 USD (43.03%)

Ahmed Al Zaeem @malkzaim - On el-shab-hussein and nabulsi's spreadsheet, entry #129 - $25,386 / $50,000 CAD (50.77%}

Rewaa Omari @rewaa99 - Not vetted yet - $620 / $50,000 USD (1.24%)

Ahmed Jehad @ahmad-syam-blog - On Bees and Watermelon spreadsheet, entry #171 - $3,638 / $40,000 CAD (9.09%)

Ahmed Zindah @ahmednser - Not vetted yet. - €115 / €100,000 (0.11%)

Basel Ayyad @basel1995s - On el-shab-hussein and nabulsi's spreadsheet, entry #214 - CHF8,138 / CHF60,000 (13.56%)

Farah Areef @areej1982 - Not vetted yet. - €172 / €8,000 (2.15%)

Ali Miqdad @alimeq92 - Not vetted yet. - €792 / €70,000 (1.13%)

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Sama Ayyad @samaayyad15 - Vetted by association - €17,924 / €45,000 (39.83%)

Mohammed Al-Deeb @mohammedaldeeb - On el-shab-hussein and nabulsi's spreadsheet, entry 212, €40,250 / €55,000 (73.18%)

Reham Al-Anqar @rehamalanqar - Not vetted yet. - €2,048 / €20,000 (10.24%)

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