Since When Did I Start Going To Bed At 5 And Waking Up At 3?

forget freak. who's gonna match my cringe.

--- Designer/Manufacturer: CeciliaCoppolaShop [X] Region: Italy Time period: 2020s

actually, growing up is feeling like i turned sixteen two days ago. i’ve been eighteen for years. fifteen year olds seem so young. wasn’t i fifteen just a few weeks ago? all my friends and i are still twelve. i’m closer to thirty than to being a baby. i never got to be a kid. i never grew past eight. i can’t talk to my mom. i want to sit in her lap forever. i want to decide everything for myself. i need someone to tell me exactly what to do. the week is going by so slow. an entire year has passed.

Regen

Lauer Regen, Sommerregen Rauscht von Büschen, rauscht von Bäumen. O wie gut und voller Segen, Einmal wieder satt zu träumen! War so lang im Hellen draussen, Ungewohnt ist mir dies Wogen: In der eignen Seele hausen, Nirgends fremdwärts hingezogen. Nichts begehr ich, nichts verlang ich, Summe leise Kindertöne, Und verwundert heim gelang ich In der Träume warme Schöne. Herz, wie bist du wund gerissen Und wie selig, blind zu wühlen, Nichts zu denken, nichts zu wissen, Nur zu atmen und zu fühlen!

– Hermann Hesse

Budapest, Hungary

i need 40yo me come from the future right fucking now and say don't worry wait a little longer it's gonna be okay you'll find your place