I Don’t Know What It’s Called When Someone Means So Much To You, When They’re One Of The Most Important

i don’t know what it’s called when someone means so much to you, when they’re one of the most important people in your life that you’d want to spend every moment with but then there’s just this heavy feeling in your chest and you have to always be careful of every word coming out of your mouth, when you have to control yourself and your reactions so you don’t bother or annoy them, when you have to be so careful of your choice of words with them because you could say something they don’t like or they don’t agree with and you’d lose them. so you do anything to keep them. so you just shut up, you don’t laugh as loud as you normally would, only so that they don’t leave. i don’t know what it’s called but i find it a bit terrifying…