Hard To Argue With That Logic.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  

do ya future self a favor and work hard now

06.06.16 | it’s crunch time! i tried a commemorative spread to celebrate finals season, lol

It’s not “uncool” to be smart and prepared and passionate and dedicated. Ignore people who say otherwise.

Currently reading, A tale of two cities.

My semester starts from tomorrow *sigh*. Three more months of working & working & working.

i think one of the biggest problems i have with getting stuff done is i assume it’s easy for other people. like “she gets up at six every morning because she’s a morning person” or “yeah, he can run five miles every day but he likes running” or “she knows five languages, her brains just wired differently than mine” when in reality it’s all about discipline for everyone. like yeah, some people have natural aptitudes for some things but anyone that’s accomplishing anything is putting in the work. achievements don’t come easy, and i think if i start acknowledging that it’s like that for everyone i can stop making excuses

Please tell me it's okay that I just failed a class. I came this far, then bombed a big project and it's an automatic fail. I had to drop the class.

FUCK YES. ITS OKAY TO FAIL.

Sometimes we try and try and try but in the end we still fail. I honestly have been there so many times.

I did an assignment for cognition last year. I started on the first day and spend A LOT of time on it. Guess what? I got 10%.

I did a stats test before and I spend a shit load of time studying and doing past papers. Guess what? I got 0. A big fucking zero.

I spent 4 years swimming and going to every single training session. Guess what? At every race I got LAST PLACE. 

I spend 2 years doing table tennis. Every session we had competitions against my team mates who were 4 years younger then me. Guess what? I lost every session, every competition to EVERYONE.

When I fail, I literally sob my eyes out because it fucking hurts. It hurts because I have tried so hard and got nothing. It hurts because everyone who tried less seemed to have done much better then me. So then I start asking myself “why do I even bother trying?!”

And then slowly these things will start creeping up on me:

If I didn’t try then I might have failed worse

There is literally no where to go but up now

Now I know where I went wrong. Now I can try TWICE as hard.

Fuck this piece of paper. In the end its just a piece of paper. I am alive and well and I am not going to let a piece of paper to defeat me. 

Whatever it takes. Even if I fail again, I am going to crawl back up on my hands and knees.

Does it work? Honestly, sometimes. Failure still hurts but I am crawling up. I am crying but I am still going. Tomorrow, I will wake up having failed but it will hurt less. Tomorrow I will try and try and try again. 

For those of you starting college soon:

- everyone is scared - I’m scared of college and it’s my 3rd year - but I know it will be okay once I get into the routine - people don’t care what you do - people sleep in weird places - and wear pajamas to lots of places - and you make friends in unlikely places and times - friends will come and go - you might change your mind on majors - but you will be okay - you are going to do so great 💕

I wasn’t asked to a single dance in high school and didn’t have a serious romantic relationship until I was 22. And like, yeah that shit hurt when I was younger. I had a lot of fears that I was unlovable and that I didn’t deserve to be happy. And every time I would try to talk to anyone about it, the conversation became, “you’ll find someone”, when it should have been, “you don’t need a relationship or a date, you’re lovable & complete & beautiful on your own”.

So yeah, please normalize young people not dating, and please stop shaming them for it. There’s more to life than romance, despite what the media wants us to think.