What If, I'm Always Gonna Stay This Way? Afraid Of Being Someone's Person

ur early 20s are about being obsessed with kindness and mary oliver and seasonal fruits and recreating comfort foods you ate as a child and learning how to love and crying because you have no choice but to live the life before you and finding god on the bus back from the grocery store

On some days, I feel this deep longing

For someone.

To be held, to feel my heartbeat

To feel the warmth of my body

Against someone.

On some nights, I sleep listening

To slow love songs.

Pretend that its raining outside

And wrap myself around

The warmth of a comforter and

Fall asleep

Pretending that I'm being loved by someone.

I don't know what is this urge of a human

To be loved so deeply,

That everything else seems insignificant.

🧿

good things will happen 💫

things that are meant to be will fall into place 💫

I mean, I do have this placement but let's see. Manifesting✨️💅

Moon darakarka (in female chart)

Future spouse ( green flag)

Caring

Emotional

Loyal

Emotional supportive

Nurturing

Deep eyes

Sensitive

Protective

Good cook

I'm trying my best

Jenny Hval, from Girls Against God

Angela Carter, from The Bloody Chamber and Other Stories; "The Courtship of Mr Lyon,"

Its so offensive to see other live the life you've prayed for. That feeling is so raw, like I see that there might be some god up there and he definitely has some favorites.

i suck your blood.