Bfi网站上竟然有programme Notes存档 好棒

说真的19年的事我还能理解一些人无法跨越思维局限，如今这事让我意识到其实他们是真又蠢又坏

非要每天只能喝甜味的热水 快疯了每天渴死都睡不着觉 非要喝便宜宾馆的壶煮的热水 但是却觉得洗衣机不干净

给翻看旧帖的自己：千万不要再回国。记得这次回国回家的遭遇有多难受。身体+精神+work受到多少影响。

wait 99西游记注册的商标英文就是monkey kid

作为一个歌词迷 我确实被打动了......

没收我喜欢的衣服 只有她觉得好看的衣服才是好看

在我很忙有事而且腹泻的时候非要美其名曰给我买衣服实际上是去她喜欢的一家小店非要买 店主姗姗来迟带着一只不拴绳汪汪叫的小狗

给翻看旧帖的自己：千万不要再回国。记得这次回国回家的遭遇有多难受。身体+精神+work受到多少影响。

5点多 阳光仍然灿烂光明 大朵大朵白云 偶然飘落羽绒一样的雪花

耳机里是《侯斯顿之恋》：

观赏你寄居这个美丽地球玲珑剔透

离侯斯顿 山长与水远

其实有差距没有

即使我如今一个漫游

都想对你讲祝你快乐未来前程锦绣

LOUIS THEROUX on last day?????!!!!!!!!

Why was I not there to see it??????????

Guest star for stage/fright -

At first I was like why was I not there when Emilia Fox appeared? I would very much like to see her!

Then it’s Julian Clary, I was like what why was I not there????? ok I’ll buy tickets for his tour or maybe panto later.

Today I learned they also had Stephen Fry!!! I didn’t even realise they know each other (same with the other two but)! Also I had this weird obsession with SF but I don’t think I’ll ever specifically buy tickets to see him so missed opportunity

this is another scene that absolutely lights my brain on fire -

There's a lot going on here and imo the way Felix reacts to Annabel talking shit about Oliver is SO telling from a characterization standpoint. Like Annabel is essentially telling him "no one likes your boy bestie and the girls think he's weird." It's so interesting because Felix doesn't necessarily *defend* Oliver here, he doesn't enlighten her to his tragic backstory, doesn't tell her "actually he's really inspirational because you don't know what he's gone through to be here." He instead just gently chastises her for being harsh and snobby and then....the next scene is literally Felix fucking her while Oliver watches. THIS IS INSANE LOL. So much to unpack.

First of all, it's definitely worth mentioning that Felix DOES hype Oliver up to the people who truly matter to him (his parents, his sister, etc). Like Elspeth is fully aware of Oliver's tragic and triumphant backstory before Oliver even arrives. She's also been told that Oliver is intelligent and handsome ("I told you he wasn't a minger" said looking so pleased with himself for bringing a handsome boy home LOL). Venetia has also clearly heard all about how much Felix likes Oliver ("oh I see why Felix likes you so much.") These statements put what happens here with Annabel in a very unique context. It's almost like...Felix doesn't want to share these amazing things about Oliver with his peer group at school. We talk all the time about Oliver gatekeeping Felix but not enough about how Felix is kinda gatekeeping Oliver, especially from the girls at Oxford. Felix doesn't want irrelevant people at Oxford knowing how amazing Oliver is because Felix wants Oliver and his inspirational achievements all to himself. Hm it's almost like Felix and Oliver BOTH struggle with boundaries bc they're both terminally obsessed with each other lol.

What happens after this scene is enough to make me clinically insane LOL. The cutaway is literally Oliver bricked up about to cum untouched while crying and watching as Felix fucks the girl who was just talking shit about him!! The rituals are SO intricate here hahah. In my mind - it's almost like Felix is getting off to the fact that this girl doesn't know about his little secrets with Oliver. She's only allowed to see the most surface levels of him and Felix is literally turned on by the fact that other people don't have access to Oliver the way he does. He'll leave the blinds open while he fucks her in plain sight BUT he won't share even the most basic details about his close relationship with Oliver. He keeps Oliver all for himself but lets the world see him fucking Annabel. It's an insane metaphor honestly and so telling as to what is sacred vs. what's meaningless to Felix. Felix doesn't want to share Oliver just as much as Oliver doesn't want to share Felix. Two sides of the same coin imo, just expressed differently!

carsick中，于是自己给自己唱《顺路》（串流平台都没有这歌，youtube网不好），之后想到《夜游杜拜》，“风沙中想起你 哀伤多么赤裸”有点“天地不仁 以万物为刍狗”的意思

我有觉得edward像的时刻也有觉得james像的时刻

Edward Fox演过Edward VIII

James Fox演过爹 Laurence Fox演过弟弟