Fav Halloween Meme: Disco Sapphics Edition

THERE ARE NO MISTAKES.

so this was originally in a post i made that was kind of negative but i decided NO, actually, that is not a productive or helpful or necessary thing to say, so i want to air out some thoughts about serirei and how it might work in my mind, bc it's good actually:

serizawa says himself that he's never been interested in any girls growing up. He doesn't know anything about romance and hasn't really cared to know for most of his life, evidently. There's a lot of interpretations you can pull from that (is he gay? is he ace/aro? was he just isolated from society for so long that he just never has had that kind of interaction with anyone?), but i guess the point is, if serizawa found himself having those feelings, there'd be this huge learning curve for him about what to do about them and how to navigate such a relationship (relatable, serizawa)

reigen on the other hand....he doesn't really say at all whether or not he personally has been interested in anyone, but he DOES say that he would probably do some kind of ridiculous bullshit if he were in mob's position (i would personally LOVE to see how that would play out, the idea of him getting flustered and acting really stupid and overconfident to impress his crush sounds adorable). I assume that he ALSO doesn't really know what to do in a romantic context, though knowing reigen, he'd certainly try to act like he does (he does pull straight from the internet on his phone to give advice when mob asks him what to do)

Considering all that, though.... neither of them know what tf they're doing, they respond to this lack of experience in very different ways, but they gotta figure it out somehow. Like, I'm thinking reigen makes a lot of the first moves, seeming super confident and experienced at first blush, but a perceptive person would be able to tell that he has no clue what he's doing; serizawa has absolutely NO IDEA how to respond to his advances. he's flustered and frozen in place and so, SO nervous and he's like "oh my god what am i feeling right now?? is this what people were talking about this whole time?? wtf do i do???"

the last disco

one thing i feel like (disappointingly) wasn't elaborated on enough in mp100 is reigen's own loneliness.

sure, we got that whole episode with the separation arc, but that never really resolves reigen's loneliness. that doesn't change the fact that even down to the end, he has only one adult friend and the rest of them are a gaggle of teenagers that like to hang out around him. and sure, that's not inherently a bad thing necessarily, it's probably the most friends he's had his entire life and that's why he cries when they get him a birthday cake.

but i feel like he's the kind of guy who does actually want adult friends to talk about adult things with. someone at the same stages of life that he's at, or even older.

reigen is so used to helping other people and giving other people advice that i feel like HE needs someone to be there for him, to give HIM advice. someone to scratch HIS back for once.

but another thing is that i feel like part of him thinks he doesn't deserve it, because of all the lying he does.

there is not a doubt in my mind that reigen has so much guilt stockpiled inside himself about all the lying, and (in my own personal headcannon) part of the reason he can so easily jump into danger at times is because he quietly hopes that maybe if he punishes himself enough with enough injury, or even with death, that'll somehow make up for it.

obviously that's not how it works, and reigen is a good person because regardless of the lying, he is still on some level helping people with their very normal problems by giving them very normal solutions, and is just attributing everything to spirits and exorcisms. not to mention everything he has done for mob (despite initially using him for his buisiness). he's a lot more of a grey person than he thinks he is.

i think he really needs some good adult friends, but he just can't really get ahold of any because deep down, as much as he gets on mob for being socially awkward, i think he's just as socially awkward, deep down.

i mean, the guy had to google how to ask someone out to help mob figure out how to talk to tsubomi. i don't think he's as great with people in a social context as he thinks he is. in a business context, sure, he knows exactly what to say because he has all the scripts and all the excuses in the world, but in a personal, social context, i think he can be quite clueless.

he doesn't really know how to talk to people or where to find friends as an adult, so his only friends are any coworkers he potentially has, and half the time he didn't even want to be friends with his coworkers (hence no mention of friends in his previous office job). it's different at spirits and such though, because he has mob, and later, serizawa.

i think for a long time, he considers mob "enough" of a friend, even though he still understands his role as the adult in the relationship and thus can't *actually* discuss adult things with him or treat him like an adult friend, as it would probably be inappropriate. he considers mob a friend even though he's more his student, because mob is one of the only people he sees on a regular basis until serizawa starts working there, and that's when things get a little different.

he realizes that he doesn't have to treat serizawa the same way that he treats mob, because serizawa is an adult, even if he's an extremely, openly awkward one who doesn't know how to socialize very well. but that's okay, because reigen can work with that, he's also very awkward deep down, even if he won't admit it. not to mention that mob, reigen's other friend, is also socially awkward, and reigen successfully navigates conversations with him all the time.

i think once reigen realizes that he doesn't have to hold back as much as he normally does around mob, he finally understands that his best friends can't all just be a million still developing teenagers who aren't on his level with life, and it gives him a kind of emotional release to finally have an adult friend.

serizawa also feels the same way, having only had exactly one friend in the past like fifteen years, and it was his previous boss, who was evil, and told him to attack and kill people. now he has a boss that is his friend, and has him helping people, and frankly i think it gives him much more peace of mind.

anyway i think they're besties.

shes not gay greg

TF2 Disco Elysium crossover let’s go

me after combining two of my current fixations:

I…I DID IT GUYS!!!!!!!!!!! I MADE CANONICAL NYLON KIM JACKET REAL!!!!!

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I don't have enough free time to finish the main comic I have for them, so I'm doing unrelated single pages to get some sense of completion...