From Our Very First Conversation, I Felt Something Different—and I’ve Been In Love With You Ever

"I think in the end all I really wanted was for you to see how much I could have loved you."

— excerpt from the collection dyingful by akhira

And I've learned the hardest; forever doesn't last.

And in the silence I suddenly understood the many ways a person can die but still be alive.

Carmen Rodrigues; 34 Pieces Of You

Drawing dump of some stuff I’ve done over the past few weeks lol

“Chuuya.”

“He’s here, Ane-san,” he broke down, his face distraught and his hands on his chest, clutching the fabric of his shirt as if he could rip his heart out. Ane-san stopped smiling. “I let him in, damn it, and I don’t know how to get him out or what to do. I’m desperate.”

“Chuuya, dear.”

Chuuya staggered and fell back into his seat, burying his face in his hands as he fought back the tears. He jumped when Ane-san ran her fingers through his hair. He sniffled. She gently untied his hair and began to comb through his curls.

“I’m sorry,” he whimpered, wiping away tears with the heel of his hand.

“Feelings are complicated.”

“No, Dazai is complicated as hell,” he mumbled.

Kouyou smiled sweetly.

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─ Violet Trefusis

An eye for an eye, a life for a life

Happy 16th Anniversary 🌸 I’ll always love Hakuouki!

maybe in another life