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I like the aspect of Mizi and Sua's dynamic that delves a lot into miscommunication and some parts of jealousy, because Sua's also a bit of a baby about communicating her feelings, Mizi almost fully relies on her to let her know because she's indifferent to her environment and doesn't seem to notice why Sua's upset, and that's because Sua's gripes are entirely a product of her own jealousy and irritation/ or rather exasperation at Mizi not being able to figure it out on her own, even though she's not not meeting her halfway. She doesn't want Mizi to think the worst of her. Even though she confides in Mizi, that's why I don't think she tells Mizi about those feelings as openly, but in general, she doesn't want to ruin that cloud of obliviousness with anything. But alas, Sua can get very petty. Mizi's still the meanie for allowing Till to play with them, not realizing how he looks at her like Sua does, and she's still a dummy for being so dense, even though she's earnestly trying to see what Sua's so upset about...

Sua's common instances of jealousy come from her possessive and obsessive instinct, and importantly, her mistrust of the boys, mostly stemming from how she doesn't want to lose Mizi to anything- at heart, she wants Mizi to be with just her to ensure that Mizi is unchanged and always safe. They can change her if she's influenced by them too much, but Mizi is all too trusting and too kind, especially of Ivan and Till, who are kind to her

I also think Sua doesn't communicate because she's sensitive and can't put it into words, she also can't because she fears it blowing up in her face if she appears unreasonable or something of the sort, she fears feeling hurt or feeling like something will wedge a noticeable gap between her and Mizi that she can't control, her protectiveness over Mizi's dreams and naivety keeps their emotional vulnerability limited from being fully open to each other already, but conflict, albeit inevitable because Sua is delicate, it would hurt her. (in that sense, it's strangely counterintuitive of her. but I can also see it as her being immature, sometimes it just can't be helped ) so she's practically the embodiment of clenching her fist from behind a tree where you can't see her with tears in her eyes because she wants to explode you with her mind, but is too non-confrontational/ stonewalling

in hysterics at the difference in tone between sua’s va (c!nah) responding to compliments from ivan’s va (park byeonghoon) and mizi’s va (rubyeye) on this tweet

[translations]

park byeonghoon: i will listen to your voice with a thankful heart. (referencing the phrasing of c!nah’s original tweet)

c!nah: ㅋㅋㅋㅋ i too am thankful for byeonghoon nim’s voice 🙇‍♀️🙏🖤

versus:

rubyeye: it was the best (cutely)🫶🩵🫰💕

c!nah: eeeeng eonni (cutely) ...... 🥹💦💦🫂🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 to me eonni’s voice is the best (cutely)... 💘💘💘

several more emojis and 100% more aegyo. the resemblance to ivan, sua and mizi is uncanny. perhaps their vas are beginning to get magically absorbed into their characters

Trying to manifest a gf by drawing mizisua 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

kyuuuu!!💗✨✨

Alien stage would have gotten 1000k views if they allowed the girls to marry

There's a uniqueness about the production of Heart, because it's intentionally carefully meant to sound impersonal (at least compared to Take My Hand), and more like delicate pop-y mainstream music. (Just like Sweet Dream in that sense.)

Because Sua is like a mass-produced porcelain doll, she conforms to these expectations, and everything she is to the media establishes her as a product for advertisement. So I can imagine it like this, she's drawn up by strings and she starts up like a wind-up doll sings for you in her beautiful dress behind the screen, stagnant, her ghostly image forever immortalized as that, a beautiful face with a beautiful voice. But behind the facade, her bleeding heart and her profound emotions are just under the surface. It's a perfect encapsulation of her as a character

The reality behind her and Mizi's inevitable tragedy is like that too, a show to the aliens, eventually the curtains were to close on them, and the (poison glass will be in my mouth) (possibly an allusion for blood) means she knows she will die, and their story would conclude on that dreadful note, and Sua knew this all along as they would grow up together. The bitter-sweetness of their memories, and Mizi's love, knowing time is limited and the cruel truth looming, but still choosing to love despite it, even though it's selfish to wish for a paradise at the expense of someone else, she wants to be saved from the fate of dying with hurt and loneliness and fear just like her sister thought she would've alongside all those other unfortunate children in Anakt, because she was just pitiful. But she wasn't, and she wanted live differently than that when she met Mizi who changed everything for her

It's pitiful that she practically criticizes herself in this song for trying to find even momentary hope in a hopeless situation, the guilt of knowing how selfish this is and then thinking of herself as a coward for being afraid and running away, she had to keep the facade of perfection, she couldn't tell Mizi about the true complexity of what feelings she had, and she died with most of this sealed away in her heart

These feelings of hers are knowingly cruel, that's why "hurt" and "heart" sometimes blend within the lyrics, rather than wandering life aimlessly, she wants to feel belonging, to belong to someone's heart and memory, she wants to feel, and she doesn't want to fear living. Her sister's words impacted her so much, and Heart here expands on those feelings. Sua wants to fit into the comfort of their little world, in Mizi's heart. She wants Mizi to remember her even in the hurt because that's where her heart lies. This cycle would continue, Sua would leave a traumatic, irreversible impact on Mizi, the same way her sister did on her

And so comes the person under the mask, the twisted and selfish and desperate person Sua is behind her warm smiles or her model face that she doesn't want the cameras to pry into her and see or for Mizi to find out, she doesn't wish for the delicate and kind Mizi to know how she truly is with her twisted nature, doesn't want Mizi to one day see the worst of her and leave her or ever change because Mizi thought the world of her, didn't suspect a thing, always admired Sua's clean and kind nature.

(Maybe on that stage, she didn't want Mizi to look into her eyes with such love before she was going to do something unforgivable and heartbreaking, even though she felt truly free in that moment, no fear, true elation at being able to live out their dream, but then the facade broke)

Sua genuinely believes her heart is twisted, and that her heart would be "The worst blessing in your life." Because she was desperate to obsessively find comfort in Mizi's naivety. And then she would leave Mizi in disarray when, eventually, she knew it would all be over- they were each other's blessings, but the trauma and hurt she would leave Mizi with in the end would be cursed poison .

mizi the woman you are…🧎🏽‍♀️

I want to see you in my dreams but then forget

We're meant to be but not yet

ivantill dynamic…

saw a post that made me think of them

Alien stage beach life guard au >:]

I have a couple odea for this but im not sure ill have the actual time to keep going EOTHER WAY this was fun

ugh, dammit. [turns ivan into a giant hamster]

my friends really activated my brain, and we ended up here😭😭

gyaru saki ! 🪷

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Ten of Cups - friendships, trust, camaraderie | strife, betrayal, conflict

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This was also a part of my work with @malevolent-tarotzine @malevolenttarotzine, which I was so happy to be a part of. Thank you for having me!

oh my yuri...

The Resurrection of Stanley Pines 🪦🩸

Mrs. Mystery and The owl man

Also damn y’all REALLY liked him huh

You walk around with your hands clasped behind your back to look smart

I walk around with my hands clasped behind my back because I'm holding hands with the voice that lives in my head

We are not the same

some sort of love poem

and you call it madnessss ahh but i caall it looveee

Faroe's Song