Gotta keep moving or the other part will catch me...
High-functioning anxiety sounds like…
You’re not good enough. You’re a bad friend. You’re not good at your job. You’re wasting time. You’re a waste of time. Your boyfriend doesn’t love you. You’re so needy. What are you doing with yourself? Why would you say that? What if they hate it? Why can’t you have your shit together? You’re going to get anxious and because you’re going to get anxious, you’re going to mess everything up. You’re a fraud. Just good at faking it. You’re letting everybody down. No one here likes you.
All the while, it appears perfectly calm.
It’s always looking for the next outlet, something to channel the never-ending energy. Writing. Running. List-making. Mindless tasks (whatever keeps you busy). Doing jumping jacks in the kitchen. Dancing in the living room, pretending it’s for fun, when really it’s a choreographed routine of desperation, trying to tire out the thoughts stuck in your head.
...and a lack of thoughtfulness
Yeah, I'm looking at you, anti-vaxxers, bigots, and everyone else who uses fairytales as a basis for "righteously" spreading hate.
The Earth is not over populated. Its over greeded. We suffer from lack of values for a human being.
Sometimes I just want
To be broken and rest there
I'm so friggin' tired
This caption will be long but important.
First of all, to remind (or tell) you who I am and where I’m from.
I am Ukrainian, and I lived in Ukraine, Odessa my whole life. Until early March or 2022 when I had to flee my home because of war.
Since then my life has been a whirlwind. To sum it all up briefly – me, my mother, my grandma who is 82, and our dog fled to Romania, moved multiple times traveling through the country with the help of the kindest locals, and after another month and making good good friends on the way who helped us on the level I'm still struggling to comprehend I was finally sure the situation for my family is stable.
The hospitality of Romanian people is also the reason for this post to have exactly this one art piece.
And because Romania is beautiful too.
Should I tell you I dreamt about seeing mountains? It came to life. But I hate the circumstances of this dream coming true. I can only wish to come back to Romanian Carpathians while not running from war.
Why “to come back” would you ask? Because after that month I moved further, but on my own. To France.
Yet worry not, I’m not alone here! (Though I’d still appreciate help from locals in terms of information and such. Please feel free to message me if you can spare a minute or two to talk about daily life 🙏)
What am I up to now? Looking for an on-site job in Paris as a game artist. Taking in freelance offers in the meantime (giving preference to commercial). If by chance you can help with my job search – you know what to do 🙌🏻 my DMs are open.
If you want to support me – my pa🌳on and other ways to help/donate are linked in bio. I have to warn I can’t promise any constant updates of my content though.
I of course want to thank the people who helped me through all the way♥️ Both with advice and donations they (you all, when you read this!) supported me immensely, literally keeping me going. You are the most amazing human beings, I’m grateful to you eternally, and I’m still astonished by how many you are.
I could have said much more, but for now it is what it is. Thank you for sparing a minute to read.
Small addition – I now have a life profile with pictures on Instagram – @joycetakespics. If you want, you can stop by and look at my yet-to-be magnificent collection of flower pics.
Another important part.
You might think I’ve come through a lot, but I'm in fact incredibly lucky compared to way too many other people in Ukraine.
⁉️What you can do to help not only me, but my people⁉️
First of all: Spread the information you see about war. Keep talking about it.
Both luckily and unfortunately we live at the times when awareness in social media is the greatest weapon, and the lack of it – even more so. It’s the part where you choose sides.
Secondly, donate.
There are hundreds of ways, destinations and options. Don’t ignore it if you have a coin to spare. There are reasons people ask for help, there always are.
If you won’t mind a hand at figuring out where to donate, I’ll try to share smaller Odessa volunteer accounts on insta stories (or twitter) when I can.
I would pretend to be a flat-earther just for the chance to take that trip!
Someone should create a reality TV format where leading thinkers of the flat earth society are taken to space and have them explain what they see
Bucket list, 'cuz I have a few choice words for The Aged Man
So I’m in Serbia now, and decided to visit a place called the “Devil’s Town”
Guys, i know where the Aged Man is living nowadays
This is so creepy
Fictober19: Day 2 Prompt: “Just follow me, I know the area.” But I had to diverge a little because the one story I could think of for this exact prompt was fluff that relied in large part on work by @daedric-prince-of-pasta and others who contributed to the “is it a date? If not, make it one!” posts, but I didn’t have time to ask them about using it… so no fun fluff this time. Warnings: well, it’s about the seductiveness of depression, the liar, so maybe…
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I know this place...this never ends well for me...
Just follow me, it whispers gently... a lover's beckoning call. It pulls coyly at the hips; fingers trailing down the spine.
But, I know this place, and this never ends well...
Just follow me, it sighs wistfully... a delusion's longing coo. It claws hungrily at the thighs; breath caressing familiar curves.
... I know this place, and this never ends well…
Just follow me, it cries beseechingly... a liar's pleading press. Waves crashing on the shore, mesmerizing, metered steps to the abyss...
I do know this place, and it never ends... Until I end it. Wake up!
when u get this u have to put 5 songs 🎵 u actually listen to, publicly. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (if you'd like to; positivity is cool)✨
Received this ask from @jhara-ivez and @iamaweretoad. Just gonna pick the last 5 songs I listened to. Thanks for the ask!
Ekko, the Boy Who Shattered Time | Login Screen - League of Legends
Insane - Black Gryph0n ft Baasik
PUSH - J Scott Rakozy
Welcome to Paradise (Aether 1) - Emile van Krieken
One Million Voices - Thomas Bergersen
@chennnington @doublebadger @essythewolf @cosmic-geologist @pinacoladamatata @daedric-prince-of-pasta @arkt-zeraph
OMG the picture... I loved the text when it came out so long ago, but the picture just makes it amazing! (Nice watercolor work, too!)
enderal: the beach episode.
theres no threat to the imminent end of the fucking humanity looming over these peoples heads
red maddness?? idk her
high ones?? left town.
just…everyone relaxing for a day.
literally.
everyone.
like:
you bet your fucking ass my girl calia and my guy jespar are having a fuckin BLAST wo being judgemental lil asses they can be.
lishari takes a well deserved BREAK. DONT RUIN IT FOR HER. SHE WONT HESITATE, BITCH.
aerentheal chilling w some lime green crocks and a havana shirt on bc hes a fucking heathen and a secret dad in disguise.
prophet SLEEPS and has fun in the sun with no fear of water and drowning. its great.
ryneus n his dad along w thorus being a nice happy family w a dog and enjoying the sun and the beach.
there seems to be a mysterious woman laying down on the sand and enjoying this with them. proph recognizes her and just leaves her be, as she, too, is in need of a little break.
enderal vibes.