Snoot

i like this drawing

it’s a lot better than a few i’ve done recently

i probably should have drawn some more of the stuff on the table though

my brain has decided it’s time to remind me every 5 minutes that i’m not performing gender roles enough and like

yeah?

that’s kinda how i gender?

but it still insists on telling me that i’m not gendering enough?

I really want to get back into making youtube videos but i just have no idea what to do

what do i make

how do i get people to actually find my channel

i’m getting frustrated about this at this point and i just want to make things again

also this hospital’s phones use the same ringtone as the phones in my highschool

which is kind of a weird thing to run into

my girlfriend had to go to the ER and im keeping her company and im finally reaching That Point in being awake for way too long where it’s been 22 hours and my stomach is suggesting the idea of flopping around like a dying fish

the fucking thing where a lot of trans women can't. get our lives started for a long time. until we transition and then so often it's like. suddenly you know things about yourself like there's a being inhabiting this body. you start thinking about things you want to do, ways to go out and finally live. and then. the whole damn world is like, no go fucking back in the hole. and it's so hard to live now that you . actually want to

this and also robots

Monster fucker this, monster fucker that. What if I want a monster RELATIONSHIP huh?! Monster HAND HOLDING, monster INTIMATE CONVERSATIONS, monster COMFORTABLE SILENCE??

it’s really difficult getting into my characters’ heads and actually writing their voices correctly. I’m too focused on trying to figure out the conversation as it is.

maybe i just need to go back over it again once ive got all the context together

i just realized that if i’m hungry i can just eat food

and if i run out i can buy more

holy shit this is revolutionary

NEVER KILL YOURSELF

I am down absolutely atrocious for some headpats rn

It's not enough to get called a good wolf I need someone running their hands through my hackles while I slowly let go of every stressor I have.