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i like this drawing

it’s a lot better than a few i’ve done recently

i probably should have drawn some more of the stuff on the table though

i can’t wait to have a working computer again

my apartment might just be the worst sleeping situation i’ve ever had. my mattress is a box spring that should’ve been replaced years ago. it’s fucking concave. i sleep on my front usually but that’s not really possible unless i want to be sleeping bent backwards. also the outside of the mattress is so fucked that with just a fitted sheet over it the springs are still digging into me. i had a box spring mattress last year it was so much better than this (not good but still way better) and the only way this mattress is remotely ok is if i put my thickest blanket on top of the mattress and sleep on that

so it takes me a while to fall asleep

but then there’s a construction site across the street from me that starts work at FIVE THIRTY IN THE FUCKING MORNING and is EXTREMELY LOUD

i’m going to go insane

wow gifs kinda suck

I’ve started working on some (not finished) art for the first area as well as starting to work on lighting

i may have found yet another thing that i need to exist that just doesn't

breakcore metal

back into finals week(s) again

time to be unbelievably stressed about they 5 different projects i need to finish while also applying to jobs

Being raised culturally christian protestant atheist is funny, actually. I was never taught that Hell is literally real or that I should believe in it, or that you go there for being gay. I was told that I'm free to do whatever I want with my life, for as long as I'm doing something constructive and working hard to achieve it. Wanting to suck dick isn't a sin, but wanting to do fuck all sure is one.

I never had to cope with some traumatic realisation that homosexuality is an inherent part of who I am that no amount of repression, prayer or conversion therapy could make it go away. I'm just sitting here contemplating the idea that maybe I never have been and never will be a hardworking, career-driven, passionate and ambituous Dedicated To Their Life's Work kind of a person.

I don't believe in Hell but I'm still convinced I'll go there if all I want to do with my life is to stare at walls.

Honestly, the older I get the more I think you need to be a total freak to survive as yourself. Even if it's only for a little while every couple of weeks you need to let yourself be unapologetically yourself or you smother the part of you that's important.

nvm figured it out lol

I really want to get back into making youtube videos but i just have no idea what to do

what do i make

how do i get people to actually find my channel

i’m getting frustrated about this at this point and i just want to make things again

well

looks like i finally hit the gifted kid wall where things aren’t easy anymore

fuck

i knew it would happen eventually