There's People For Whom "we're Leaving In The Morning" Means "we Ride At Dawn Motherfuckers, You Can

No no you don't understand! I want to watch this show/movie, read this book, listen to this podcast, etc.! But I must be in the right mindset and the exact head space to begin, or I just can't!

“Mom…Dad…I’m…” “Gay? We know sweetheart. And we still love yo—-“ “No I’m—“ “Trans too? Oh don’t worry dear we always kind of knew…” “No for the love of god I’ve been turned into a vampire!!”

The panic in his eyes when he says “Not without you”

Bucky: Gotta be a rope or something! Steve: Just go! Get out of here! Bucky: No! Not without you!

CHRIS EVANS and SEBASTIAN STAN in CAPTAIN AMERICA: THE FIRST AVENGER, (2011). Dir. by Joe Johnston.

After more than two years of total silence, here I'm again.

It has been a very tough time for my mental health and I almost completely stopped drawing. This is one of the few pieces I was able to do in the last years and... it's quite indicative of the state of mind I was in xD

Thankfully it's so much better now and I'm starting to enjoy drawing again <3

(Pss… If you want to follow me also on patreon you will find many - happier and spicy - new drawings!)

Bucky Barnes and Sam Wilson as text messages

A commission that I’ve worked on a while back.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

This was the second image in the series of illustrations featuring Bucky Barnes as The Winter Soldier during the four seasons. Here he is in winter, cuddled up with some animals.

These paintings were super fun to work on and made me step out of my comfort zone a bit, because I don’t draw characters a lot.

I remember a while ago there were several metas talking about Bucky being right-handed (which he then confirms in TFATWS) while the Winter Soldier is left-handed, usually using this scene as proof:

And maybe even this:

But recently I saw several gif sets of Bucky on the train right before the fall (one of which I’ll reblog after this) and look:

He’s moving the gun between his left hand and right hand interchangeably, even when the right arm is not injured. In a later scene, he takes down the trooper with a single shot with left-handed aim — so he’s no slouch on that side. He then goes back to using his right hand when he picks up the shield.

On the converse, the Winter Soldier also uses his right hand and left hand interchangeably, notably in that scene:

In fact I think if you do an overall tally of how both Bucky and the Winter Soldier reach for their weapons — whether that’s a rocket launcher or a gun or knives — you’ll find that the majority of the time it’s in their right hand (just a quick GIF search would prove this). But the times they do use it in their left hand, they are still dangerously competent with it.

So I think Bucky (and the Winter Soldier) is right-hand dominant as he says, but he’s learned to use his left hand competently as a shooter before became the Winter Soldier. He’s then turned it into a useful skill to throw off his opponents.

Up until this point he’s been trying to stab Steve with his right hand, but Steve keeps blocking it with his shield. When Bucky drops the knife into his left hand, Steve’s attention follows the knife and Bucky instead uses his right hand to punch Steve in the head.

I think another part of the “Winter Soldier is left-handed” thought comes from the fact he often uses the left arm for brute force tasks - like ripping off doors from cars and helicopters, and punching into cement.

For most of us, our dominant hand is both the stronger and more dextrous hand, but for Bucky his right hand is more dextrous while his left arm is stronger (we’ll just accept the science of that for now…). So I feel like this is something that Bucky has learned to adapt — he uses that left arm for tasks that require the mechanical strength or as a metal shield, while the right is still his instinctive go-to for fine coordination tasks.

How, why, and when Bucky learned to be ambidextrous not just for firearms but also for hand to hand combat is a delicious source of angst worth exploring.

Neurotypical after a successful social interaction: That was fun, it was great to see them again!

Me after a successful social interaction: I made such a normal amount of eye contact. I deserve some cheese.