Mcu Brought The Definition Of Self-care Into A Whole New Level And I Appreciate That 💖

something about marc going to every length to protect steven from the knowledge of his role as moon knight, including resetting all of the sleepwalking alarms, buying a new goldfish, and fronting long enough to convince him the incident in the alps was a dream, all presumably to offer them a chance at a normal life. then, when the knowledge can no longer be avoided, patiently calming steven down enough to take care of the monster in the museum… it just made me very emotional idk about y’all

thinking about how Marc constantly heard “it’s all your fault” from his mother to the point that that phrase is probably a constant refrain in his head, that he thinks that everything that does go wrong is inevitably his fault, that every move he makes will be wrong, that it’s always eventually going to come back to hurt him, but he still tries anyway.

thinking about how he must feel about Layla’s dad, about being unable to save him, and that it’s his fault, and that Layla will see it that way too and hate him for it just like his mother hated him for his brother’s death. That he thinks knows she’ll transform into a violent, vengeful person who will, metaphorically or literally, stalk him to the ends of the earth and hurt him for the rest of his life. And he’ll deserve it. Because it was his fault.

thinking about how hard he tried to protect Steven, only for Steven to blame him for everything that has gone wrong in his life once Marc makes himself known to Steven. How in the Duat, Steven says that if the world above ends because Marc won’t show him the truth, it’ll be all his fault.

Everything, all his fault, all the time, forever.

And then Steven, the one and probably only person to finally know everything, the full depth and breadth of Marc’s story, the avalanche of mistakes he’s made and the mountain of fault he carries, says what he’s always needed to hear:

You were just a child. It wasn’t your fault.

thinking about how, in two small sentences, a huge weight that’s been crushing him for a lifetime lightened. Because this other person saw him, all of him, all of the things he’s most ashamed of or hurt by, and didn’t see a monster, but a child. Didn’t see fault, but a mistake, one that would have always weighed on him but should have been forgiven a long time ago. That after knowing everything he’s done wrong, someone could love him and forgive him just like that: instantly, easily, and compassionately.

that’s fucking beautiful, man.

and then he had to watch that person DIE, helpless to save them. The moment Steven, who Marc always tried to protect, finally started to follow his lead by fighting instead of running, was in the next moment swept away from him. in a total accident, the person Marc was closest to died. AGAIN. this time to protect him. when he feels like Steven was the one he should have been protecting.

fuck you Marvel, fuck you Disney. y’all better fucking fix this.

Hey alexa, play ‘hippopotamus’ by Oscar Isaac

How to go on a successful first date with John Watson, by Sherlock Holmes

I am looking absolutely disrespectfully. I don't even have enough brain cells to make a generic witty comment. No thoughts. Void. Null.

i want to read i crave to read i yearn to take a whole month off any responsibility i have ever and to throw my phone into the ocean and just surround myself with books and entrench myself in them and forget that anything outside of their worn but comforting pages exists

#meet my friend.

attractive men in complete despair has gotta be one of my favorite genres of man.

“I am a fool with a heart but no brains, and you are a fool with brains but no heart; and we’re both unhappy, and we both suffer.”

— Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Idiot