Summary: He was yours, emphasis on was. One day, you were in love, at least you were. The next, He was gone, and you felt as if your whole world had gone in shambles.
Relationship: Romantic?
Character: Loid Forger
Warnings: Angst, Long lost love, fem reader, but it's not a huge part of the storyline, Spy x Family VOL. 10 spoilers!!!!
Note: I hate to have put "blank" when talking about loid but considering the storyline circumstances and volume 10 we still don't know his name, like it was literally bleeped out in the volume itself.
Peace.
It's what the both of you wanted. It's what everybody wanted.
You had known him since you were kids, and you always knew it had been a passion of his to move forward with the war to gain the peace of every townsperson deserved. He wanted more with his life, and that was what he chose.
Out of everyone in the little group you had, you were the closest with him. He had always been so nice to you and never failed to make you feel included.
You weren't a big fan of playing war games with him and the other boys, but you remember one instance where they had told you to just go home because they didn't want you moping around why they were playing their army games.
All of the boys agreed except him.
He suggested you be a nurse. What would happen if they got hurt, and nobody was there to help? You happily took on this role. He always found a way to make you feel special.
When you talked about all of these interactions with your mother, she told you upfront that you had a crush on him. At the time, you were too young to think about having a crush.
However, as you got older and really thought about how much you talked about him and how he made you feel, it was, in fact, a crush.
After the bombing in Westalis, you hadn't seen him in years. You had always assumed that he was caught in the ruble of it all. You know that was thinking the worst, but it was completely possible.
You had decided to volunteer as a nurse for the war, the role you felt you were meant to be in. It just felt right to help out. Plus, if he was alive, you'd knew for a fact he'd be fighting in the war, underage or not. One day, you could see him again.
At the moment, you weren't placed in the hospital wing. You'd instead been sent to go provide food for all the soldiers, the ones in care, and the ones walking around freely.
"Wait... Is that you advisor?"
You overhear someone ask over the ruckus of the townspeople and soldiers, your mind immediately went straight to the first face you had locked with that name, but you knew it couldn't be, there was no possible way.
Even though you had been waiting all these years to hear that name and see that face, it just all still felt so unreal, you just couldn't bear to face the reality of it.
"Genral? Corporal? Major?"
"It is him!"
"It's advisor!"
"No way! It can't be!"
You weren't trying to eavesdrop, but it was very hard not to. They went on and on about how they attempted to search for "advisor" and how much he had grown.
This time, you couldn't help but look back, and they were right. It was him, and he did look the same. It took every strength in you not to walk over and talk to them, they were your friends, but it had been so long, and they were closer to one another, you didn't want to ruin their moment.
"Now all we need now is our nurse, and the whole gang will officially be back together again!" One of the men chimed in, if only they knew you were standing just a few feet away from them. "Yeah, I've been trying to look for her just as much everyone else, she's probably been on my mind the most."
The guys all hooted at this, you pretended it also didn't get a rise out of you while you still acted as if you were more interested in the fruits in front of you instead of the conversation happening behind you.
"Are you free this weekend? There's a great restaurant in the next town over!" The advisor proposed, trying to distract him from what he had previously said. They all explained what they would be up to but how they'd keep in touch.
You had turned back around by this point, but you could tell he was smiling as he they put together their plans.
You listened to them all walk away, then you're mind started racing,
"Should I have gone to talk to them?"
"No, it's okay, they wouldn't have remembered me."
"But I'd be with him."
You jolted back around, just to find none of them there, damn.
-
The war had long since been from over. It had probably been one of the worst moments in your life aside from the bombing you'd experienced as a child.
And after seeing all of your old friends names, all except for him, in the charts marked as deceased you knew wouldn't be able to stand another minute witnessing such torture. So now all you could think about was the fact that you could've spoken to them that one day, before they all passed, but you just couldn't muster up the courage.
But now you were starting a new life in a new area, and maybe he would finally leave your mind and just be a fuzzy memory that you joke about with your future children.
At the thought you hear a child start to laugh, you avert your eyes to the direction. She's a young girl, no more than 6 or 7 years old, and she has pink hair that reaches her shoulders, you smile at her excitement.
Moments like these make your mind wander into a field of imagination of the family you could've built by now. But you were fine with not being settled down just yet, because you knew with how much time you had been working as a war aid there wouldn't been not time for love.
And there was no time for love while your mind was still on him.
You glance down back at your book, reading the paragraph over that you were interrupted from.
"Papa! Look! Look at all of the cows!"
"Yes, I see them." He chuckled in response.
Your eyes widen, head jolting back up to the familes direction, that voice.
"Genral? Corporal? Major?"
"...She's been on my mind the most."
"Are you free this weekend?"
It was him, it had to be, there was no doubt about it.
You wanted to walk up and say hi, but you didn't know how weird that would be, considering you had once had your chance for a reunion but blew it. But maybe it was time, even if he had a child next to him, and she called him 'Papa.'
Yet at the same time, you didn't want to regret it for the rest of your life by not going up to speak and reminisce with him like last time.
You would have given anything for him to look at you again.
In that moment, you had decided that it was time, and you would see and talk to him again.
You put your bookmark in, saving your page and closing it, and just as you were about to stand and make your way over, a woman came walking out of the bathroom area of the train.
"Sorry I was gone so long!"
"Mama!"
Your smile dropped, and you felt your world collapse once more. You couldn't feel your face.
She was breathtakingly gorgeous. She had her silky jet black hair that was styled up and beautiful ruby eyes.
She's what he needed, what he deserved.
This made you feel sick to your stomach, but also ashamed, you had been fawning over this man for years. It was embarrassing.
You checked the clock above the door of the train, you didn't know how much more of this you could take, luckily there was only about 15 minutes left of your traveling.
All you could do now was fidget with your clothes and hands. You couldn't even bother to open up your book back up, you know you wouldn't be able to focus on anything that you were reading.
Once the train had come to a complete stop you felt a sense of relief wash over you, you couldn't stand to hear all of them be so happy together, not knowing that that could've been you.
You got up from your seat, beginning to grab your bags on the shelf above your seat. You had about 2 or 3.
As you struggled with the bags you didn't know that he had noticed,
"You two wait for me outside, I won't be long."
The two girls walk outside and sit on a nearby bench and wait for him while he helps you, you're still oblivious to everything happening around you.
"Miss?"
You're shocked to hear his voice, you drop your bag, almost tumbling backward but catch yourself on the seat.
He chuckles, "Mind if I help?"
"No, not at all."
You finally spoke to him, you look up at him, locking eyes, it had been everything you dreamed of.
His eyes go so wide, you swear they took the shape of a perfectly round circle.
"Y/n?"
You smile and nod.
He wants to hug you, he wants to hug you for centuries, he doesn't know what to do, this feeling that has just suddenly overcome him is making him feel like he no longer has any control.
There was no other way to explain it, he had thought about you so many nights.
Those nights when he was fighting for peace, he was thinking about you, thinking about how you when you were both still children and you would describe to him your future and the peace that would surround you.
"I-"
He's interrupted by a loud voice outside of the train,
"Passengers need to be making their way out of the carriages , the train will be loading more people soon!"
He rushes to grab your bags and help you off, he stops you outside of the train, a good few steps away from his 'family.'
He knows he shouldn't be doing this, it's reckless, it could ruin everything, but seeing you just opened up something within him and he can't stop himself, he just keeps talking.
"I thought you," he pauses.
"Died?" You finish his sentence, smiling at him still, you couldn't believe this was happening.
"Yeah, that."
"I could say the same for you, blank."
Hearing his real name makes his heart drop a little, he hasn't heard many people speak it since he served in the military.
He was glad you were the one to say it.
He sighs, a small smile of his face, "I've missed you, alot.
Tears start to threaten to spill out, "I've missed you too, alot."
"I love you, blank." You say without thinking, he doesn't flinch at this the way he did at hearing his own name, which you don't question.
He stands completely still, looking you right in your eyes, not being able to get enough of this moment.
The next words that come out of your mouth surprise you, "But it's too late," You glance over at his 'family', making eye contact with the little girl, who looks almost as shattered as you do right now.
You grab your bags from him and walk towards the exit, feeling tears roll down your cheeks.
He couldn't feel his face, he felt more numb than he had ever felt before. He hears footsteps come up from behind him.
"Who was that Loid?" Yor asks, Anya clutched by her side, with a sad look on her face, like she had heard the whole conversation, Anya blocked out anything her parents were saying to scan around for the you.
"An old friend," He replies, still looking straight ahead, thoughts racing with what could've been.
my mind has been racing with this concept, sorry for the damage i have caused
Deacon would fall for sole first but would never actually admit it, I mean of course he would fall for sole, how could he not? They embody everything he stands for, they rose from the ground frozen and broken and still fought for him when he didn't think he deserved it
It would eat him up inside, the constant fear that something would happen to sole. The thought that if he was to tell them how he felt, it would be more real and easier to take away.
Sole would have to act first, and only after years of being around each other so that deacon could accept that nothing would be able to remove them from his life without a fight
BUSTED
the aftermath from this gift daiya got
All of these photos are from the Danganronpa 4コマ KINGS series. I do not own any of the drawings, but these photos are mine. All credit goes to Spike Chunsoft for the characters and the books themselves.
The wait is over! It's time for Mondo spam :D
He's always so angry lol
Though, I guess it's not always...
Ya'know how Mondo wanted to be a carpenter? He tried fixing a chair once. It went very well, as you can see.....
Make way for the toughest guy in town!
Mondo loves all small animals :)
HE'S KINDA CUTE WHEN HE'S FLUSTERED AWW
Happi boi
What's with Mondo and getting essploded?
Oh, I guess this is why. Just freely handing bombs to people LOL
LMAO imagine watching your bro get executed. Can't relate.
[Not a spoiler, in case anyone is worried]
My tracksuit isn't blue :)
Saj :(
Oh boy, I sure do wonder why his handbook stopped working...
[It's still in his pocket]
He gives zero "effs"
Mondo misses riding his bike :(
He eepy
THE UNDERSIDE OF HIS HAIR LOOKS LIKE A DIVING BOARD I'M SORRY--
I'm sorry, which manga am I reading again?
[Btw, funny note, Monokuma-bot is basically saying "I WILL make you wear white underwear!!"]
HAHA what
Alright, that's all for now! Go, my trusty steed!!
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I had a lot to say about this guy, if you couldn't tell :)
GOD HE'S SO COOL
A lot of his appearances were actually just him interacting with either Chihiro or Taka, actually. Though, that said, after character pictures are done, I'm totally willing to post pairing pictures if you guys want! Just lmk who you want to see in a picture together and I'll post them :)
Also, lmk who you want to see after Kyoko! I've only got 6/16 students lined up so far, so there's plenty more room lol
I really like posting these photos for everyone! It's been really fun so far!
[Btw, use these photos for whatever you like. Credit is always nice, though!]
Next up: Aoi Asahina!
Contents || <-Previous : Next->
OVA: it's about Nagito and what's essentially an Izuru adjacent AI. ...oh also Fuyuhiko is th-
Me: OH BOY CONTENT
Danganronpa 2 Monokuma: alright here the motiv for today but there a twist. Usually you allow to kill whoever you like. But this time there a target and if you kill someone other than the target the kill won't count and you will be Executor immediately. And the target is s/o. What the cast reaction to there s/o being the target.
Ooo very interesting :3
When Monokuma called everyone to Jabberwock Park, everyone knew it wasn't anything good. It had been a bit since the last murder, thanks to you, and Monokuma hadn't been bothering anyone, so everything seemed to be going well.
Until he summoned the entire class to the park out of nowhere.
No one was willing to disobey him, so you all made your way there, where the bear was waiting.
"Gooood morning, my beautiful students! Now, let's get down to business! You know how this game's been going so far; you're usually allowed to kill whoever you want, however you want to do it, right? Well, I have something different planned."
You didn't like the way he said that. You exchange an anxious look with your significant other before turning back to Monokuma.
"This time, the motive I selected has a teeny-tiny bit of a twist. This time, there's a target!"
This had everyone on edge. The target could have been anyone. You and your significant other tightly take hold of each other's hands, waiting for Monokuma to reveal the target.
"And that target... is (Name)!" He shouted, pointing his left paw at you.
All color drained from your face, and your blood turned to ice. The air was filled with an agonizing silence as all heads turned to you. The others gave you looks of sympathy, and looks of fear. Your significant other was horrified.
"(Name) is the target of this brand new motive! They are the only person you are allowed to kill. If you kill anyone else, you will be immediately executed, and there won't be a class trial."
Hajime Hinata
"What?! You can't! You can't make them the target!"
"Sure can, lover boy! It's non-negotiable!"
Hajime was absolutely horrified
Why would he choose you?
Just because you were trying to keep the peace didn't mean you had to die!
But apparently, Monokuma thought otherwise
There is no way Hajime will allow this
He will never let anybody touch you ever again
He becomes a bit more aggressive towards the others and way more protective over you
He doesn't even want you to go near them
It's kind of irritating honestly
But you know that he's doing it out of love, so you suppose you can put up with it for a while
Nagito Komaeda
"Wh-What? Why (Name)? They don't deserve to die..."
Unfortunately, Monokuma didn't think so
You were the one preventing the kills, so he had to get rid of you
Instead of being hyper-focused on keeping you away from the others like Hajime, Nagito is more focused on comforting you
Being the chosen target must be terrifying, of course
So when you're out together, he holds your hand and keeps you close
When you're alone, he holds you close to his chest while he whispers gentle words into your ear
He wants you to feel safe
He feels anxious about you being around the others, but he'll let you hang out with them as long as he's with you
But he watches them like a hawk
Nagito hates seeing you scared, and he'll do whatever it takes to prevent you from dying
Kazuichi Soda
"What?! That's crazy!! Why them?!"
He's more anxious then you are, honestly
The thought of losing you has him near the edge
But he'll pull himself together and try to act strong for you
You're the one being targeted, after all
He acts like a big manly bodyguard and walks all serious and stiff while he follows you around
He's not very threatening, but it did make you laugh
Not exactly what he was going for, but he's glad that he at least helped you take your mind off the situation
Real talk though, if anyone got too close to you, he'll probably throw a wrench at their head
He doesn't want anyone to come near you
There will be some nights where he'll need you to comfort him
He hates living every day in fear of you getting killed
And he'll be there for you to lean on him too
Just be prepared for a very clingy Kazuichi
Fuyuhiko Kuzuryu
"What the hell?! You bastard! You can't do that!!"
Very VERY pissed
How dare that damn bear target you?!
But he breathes in and forces himself to calm down
This is about you, not him
He and Peko both follow you everywhere, giving anyone who looks at you a hard glare
He will never leave you by yourself again
One of them will always be with you
He will not hesitate to threaten someone with a gun when they approach you
Maybe it's not entirely necessary, but there is no changing his mind
Underneath all this though, Fuyuhiko is scared shitless
He hates the thought of you dying
He doesn't want to show it, since again, this is about you, not him
But he'll have to spill his guts eventually, and he'll begrudgingly accept comfort from you once he does
It actually helps him quite a bit
But for the most part, all his focus is on you
Gundham Tanaka
"You fiend! How dare you appoint my beloved companion as the next target of your twisted game?!"
Stressed out and angry at the same time
Whenever you roam around the island, he brings a bear with him
He'll do the most to keep you safe
Like Nagito, he will comfort you when you need it when you're alone
And when you're out?
BEAR.
And the Dark Devas of Destruction hiss at anyone who comes too close
And Gundham will threaten to curse them
Like Kazuichi, he will need some comforting sometimes
From the overall stress of the situation
But he and his bears will protect you, no matter what
Teruteru Hanamura
"Hey now, this is just complete nonsense! Why would you pick (Name) as your next target?!"
Another one who is very stressed and might need some comforting
If you have to go out, he'll stick to you like glue
But most of the time, he'll want the two of you to stay in either of your cottages
He doesn't have any fighting skills, so he just wants to keep you away from everyone as best as he can
He really doesn't want you to leave, but he can't force you
Once again, he'll need some comforting
Even if he doesn't have any fighting skills, he'll go to hell and back for you
Nekomaru Nidai
"WHAT?! WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS?! I HATE YOU!"
He's loud and passionate on the outside, but on the inside, he's terrified
He hates the idea of losing you
He's around you 24/7, inside or outside
When you're outside, he sticks close to you like a bodyguard
And when you're not outside, he's cuddling with you while you're in one of your cottages
He's not a violent person, but if anyone had any idea of hurting you, he'll bash their skull in
Nekomaru will do anything for you
Even stand between you and Monokuma while he's attacking you
But that's only a worst case scenario
The Impostor
"Absolutely despicable. How dare you choose (Name) as your target? Truly disgusting."
Underneath his snobby, salty exterior, he is incredibly anxious
But he won't let it show
Instead, he'll act as your bodyguard and protect you
He ends up hardening himself and becoming more distant because of the sheer anxiety he's feeling
Soon, he'll break down and spill his feelings
He doesn't feel strong enough to protect you
But a gentle handholding followed by a hug is enough to make these thoughts dissolve
He's still never letting you out of his sight though
The others can eat shit and die, but you're not allowed to leave him
Your leader commands it
Izuru Kamakura
"You disgust me."
His expression darkens and he glares daggers into Monokuma
Honestly, you were more worried about him than you were about your situation
After that, he's quickly dragging you to your cottage
At first, he sort of stands in front of the door, not doing or saying anything
Then he sits down on the bed and pulls you into his lap without saying a word
His silence speaks volumes, though
The way he holds you close to him tells you that he will slaughter anyone who gets too close
He has the talents, and he will get it done
Ain't no way he's letting you out of his sight
If you ask to leave, he'll stand in front of your door and stare you down with no expression
But eventually, he'll begrudgingly let you leave as long as he's with you
He holds your hand and glares at anyone who's nearby as he does so, though
He detests Junko for this, and he'll take care of her once he gets the chance
Chiaki Nanami
"What? Why?"
She's a little shocked
Imagine the surprised pikachu face here
She has no idea what she can do
She expected for Monokuma to choose her as the target, not you
She doesn't have any fighting skills whatsoever, so all she can do is cling onto you while you walk outside together
But whenever she can, she stays in with you and plays video games with you
Another one who will need some comforting
Sometimes she'll cling onto your arm and bury her face into your shoulder, lightly shaking
And you'll pull her into your side and hug her while she grips your shirt
Another thing she worries about is the secret about who she was
It feels like a knot in her stomach
She knows she has to tell you eventually
And she dreads it
Mikan Tsumuki
"Wh-What?! Why?! (Name) d-doesn't d-d-deserve to d-die!!"
She starts bawling right there on the spot
You'll have to lead her back to your cottage and calm her down
Once again, prepare for a clingy gf
Inside or out, she'll cling onto your arm while you walk together
Like several others on this list, she'll need you to comfort her
She tries to be there for you as best as she can, but she really is terrified
She would rather hang out inside with you, but she'll go outside with you if you so desire
Mikan doesn't want to let you go, and she will do whatever she has to in order to keep you with her
Even things she... Might not be proud of
Akane Owari
"That's bullshit! You can't just pick (Name) for no reason!"
"Actually, there is a reason, genius! Your precious little (Name) has been gettin' in my way!"
"SO WHAT?!"
Yeah, she's pissed
After calming her down, she'll start following you everywhere, glaring at anyone who looks at you the wrong way
If anyone dares to approach you, she'll punch their lights out
You'll have to calm her down a lot, and pull her away from a lot of fights
She has an even shorter fuse this time around, and she's more than ready to throw hands
As aggressive as she is, she really is worried about you
And she really doesn't want anything to happen to you
She'll also comfort you when you need it
Alongside glaring at anyone nearby, she holds your hand while she walks with you
Give it a squeeze, and she quickly calms down once she gets angry
She may also enlist Nekomaru's help in keeping you safe, but for the most part, she wants to do the job on her own
The only ones she can truly trust are you and herself
Hiyoko Saionji
"Hey! You jerk! You can't make them the target! You just can't!!"
Then she starts angry-bawling right there on the spot
From then on, she has to be by your side 24/7
She'll cling to you and she'll never let you go
Sometimes she'll make you pick her up and carry her around
She spouts insults at your other classmates, and you have to leave before she says something that might get you killed for real
Under the surface, she's terrified, and will also need to be comforted sometimes
But she'll do the same for you
She never really knows what to say to comfort you, but she shares her candy with you while she clutches onto you, hoping that's enough
Inside or out, she's stuck to you
She's horrified at the thought of losing you
Mahiru Koizumi
"What the hell?! Why would you make them the target?!"
She goes off on Monokuma, but quickly realizes that yelling will get her nowhere
She wants to spend most of her time inside with you, and will try and convince you to stay inside with her
It's safer for you, after all
But when you're out, she holds your hand and gives a dirty look to anyone who might be a threat
Which is pretty much everyone, particularly the guys
She gives comfort to you as well, and it's the only thing she really knows how to do
You can catch her looking down at the ground, sweating a little bit
She is very anxious
Give her hand a squeeze and she'll give you a small smile and calm down a bit
It helps, but she has no idea what she's gonna do about the situation
In the end, however, she'll do whatever she can to keep you safe
Ibuki Mioda
"Huh?! That's bonkers! You can't just go and randomly pick (Name)!"
Oh, it wasn't random
Monokuma deliberately wanted you gone
Her bright and energetic demeanor changes, and she tends to be much quieter and more distant
She tries to keep up her energy for you, but it feels way too forced
She mostly tries to distract herself from the situation, and comes up with fun things for you to do together
She also clings onto you while you're out together, and even more when you're inside
She really doesn't want you to leave the inside, and she clings onto you like a koala while trying to convince you to stay
"Don't go, (Name)! We can have fun here!"
But if you need to get some fresh air or stretch your legs, she'll let you leave as long as she can join you
She's terrified of the future, but she tries not to think about it too much
Sonia Nevermind
"What?! Why (Name)?! Oh... God damn you, bear!"
She's angry at first, but it doesn't last long
Her anger is replaced by complete and utter fear
When you go back to your cottage, she jumps on you and hugs you
She starts having a panic attack right there
You calm her down and assure her you'll be all right
Then you lead her inside the cottage and cuddle with her
Now whenever you go outside together, she'll link arms with you and keep an eye on anyone nearby
Kazuichi's probably gonna be the one to kill you-
She is very anxious about the situation, and she dreads what might happen in the future
She doesn't want to doubt her friends, but she may not have a choice
Peko Pekoyama
"Truly despicable. How dare you paint a target on my young master's back?"
She's angry and anxious, but she doesn't want to show it
She wants to be strong for you
Any time you guys are out, she keeps one hand on her sword
She is fully prepared to slice someone's head open
She prefers to stay inside your cottage with you though
Whenever you need some support, she'll give you some cuddles
And she might need some too
She doesn't want to appear weak, so she doesn't talk about her worries at first
But once she does, she'll accept comfort from you
She might be a little stiff sometimes, but it's only because she's concerned about you
She'll do anything to protect her young master, even if it means committing a murder herself
My favourite idea in modern fantasy is potion candy.
For example in Bayonetta, alchemical recipes are turned into lollipops. They’re tastier, easier to carry around than bottles, and modern crafting techniques means they’re more potent than traditional potions.
I cannot express in words the sheer joy that this brings me. Literally Gundam is trying so hard to be all evil and godly and insane and scary and yet lo and behold fuckin Hajime Hinata is just standing there right next to him like
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