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08/February/2025 (Saturday) [👩🏻‍🎤]

Productivity Stars: 0/5 ⭐

📝🌲: 2 hours

🎧: Sailor Song - Gigi Perez

💌: Despite barely studying anything today, I feel relieved. The reason is that my sister and I sang a lot to karaoke. My throat hurts from all the high notes I tried to hit, but voice cracks were the only thing that blessed my parents' ears. 😹

✦ 6. 2. 25 ✦📓✦ Thursday ✦

I missed school (Physics and art especially!!) :) A friend told me that they like the exam phase better, because you have free days inbetween, but I honestly will take anything but that. I don´t care if I´m overloaded with work (that I can manage lmao) it´s chill. Anyway.

I´m doing (and will finish) my polish homework rn, so I guess that´s one of the things I did today. More are:

I ordered flowers to pick up for a bday party

Sketchbook page

Organised school to do´s

And I have now 5 "events" planned with different friends and it feels amazing. Finally time for that again!!

i went to the local library to pick up some books today :) i'm literally so dumb because i was in the wrong row for the nonfiction section (looking for spacefarers) and i did not even stop to question why all the books around me were on the culinary arts.

i heard the master of djinn is a really good book and would be good for people that liked arcane. IF I MAKE IT THROUGH THE BOOK, maybe i'll write a review. hopefully i can because it looks really interesting...

i have a lot of random stuff to do these next two days since i wasn't productive for the first three days of break :(

study for computer science midterm

calculus unit 4 problem sets

magnetostatics FRQ

read literature for research project

update astrophysics notes

work on cosmology simulation

Vela Supernova Remnant taken on February 6 2021 by jeff2011 on Astrobin

The supernova remnant resides within the Vela constellation, having exploded over ten thousand years ago. It is the closes supernova remnant to Earth. Observational data from this remnant provided proof that supernova’s can produce neutron stars.

Supernovas occur at the end of a star’s life. Stars with mass over eight solar masses finish burning the hydrogen in their core and become a red supergiant. Successive fusion then occurs until the core contains iron. Fusion can no longer occur at iron since it is not energetically favorable. Gravity then takes over leading to a supernova explosion— expelling a huge amount of stellar material.

Neutron stars can form as a result of this, as protons and electrons collide to combine into neutrons. The neutron stars are stable by neutron degeneracy pressure. This pressure is caused the Pauli Exclusion principal which prevents neutrons from having the same positions.

28/jan/2025, tuesday

tiring day as usual but i pushed through!!

woke up at 6 (maybe i should try not falling asleep for hours after skl if that results with me waking up early without any alarm despite going to bed past 1 a.m.)

light stretching + exercise

did ok on the eng group presentation in school today but at least it's done

searched for poetry contest

physics lab record

duolingo lesson

practiced playing keyboard

pretty colors~

i LOVE doing titration labs. i used methyl orange since my lab station was in charge of finding the first equivalence point of a diprotic acid. it was kind of hard to tell if the acid was red, orange, or yellow at times though... but the data is good!

I know this is a long read but I believe this might help if you’re going through a burnout.

Last week I was so drained I couldn’t do anything. Let alone studying 11 hours a day as I planned, some days I couldn’t even pick up my pen and solve just one question.

Each day I said to myself “It will be better tomorrow. I will wake up and finish the things I need to do.” but every day proved to be worse than the other. My tutor was out of the city for a conference so I was on my own and needed to finish everything before he arrived. (I am a person who scolds herself if I don’t finish my tasks on time, even if sometimes my teachers don’t care, I do.) But I couldn’t finish most of them. Today is literally my last chance. I had to wake up at 5am and rarely take any breaks if I wanted to complete everything.

But I couldn’t. I woke up at 9, and just getting out of bed took all my energy. I went into the living room and fell asleep on the couch. For three hours, no matter how many times my mum tried to annoy me into waking up, I laid there without even once uttering a word.

And by my 1682597th dream, I had an epiphany.

This is my journey. This is me, working towards my own dream. People around me obviously care and feel for me, that’s why they worry when I fall behind. But if they had to give in the energy I give in each day, they couldn’t do it.

Because I wake up every day to my goals. Every morning I choose to keep going. Every second I am choosing to not give up on my dreams of becoming a successful person. I could easily change my mind any minute, choose another major, and I wouldn’t have to study as hard.

But I am not.

For 454 straight days, I woke up with this dream and there wasn’t a single day I didn’t want it. Not a single day where I said “Oh you know what, fuck it. I don’t want this.”

I had my days where I cried, screamed, even hit myself. I had my days where I was so exhausted that I kept looking at other majors I could get into but I never felt the same connection so I just stood up and kept working.

I am the one who might lose what I want, not others. I am the only one who is putting in the effort to make it happen because nobody else’s effort could make it possible for me.

So if I say “I did not have the energy for this.” they have to believe me.

If I am honestly EXHAUSTED, to a point where I don’t want to see my favorite pencil, it’s okay for me to fall behind a few weeks.

Now I will just get up. Once again. And do what I can. No rush, I have 145 days to go, and it’s better to actually learn the material than to have to come back to it later.

Keep trying. Even if it’s reading one sentence a day. Your dreams are yours for a reason.

6/feb/2025, thursday

wasted most my time after school

subsequently had a lil mental breakdown & then pulled myself out of spiraling in a lowk mature way

washed my hair

prepared for psychology practical/viva

💤 3-4 hrs - maybe this is the reason my mental health has been a bit shit. looking forward to sleeping properly & FINISHING MY PORTIONS BEFOREHAND SO THAT I DON'T HAVE TO STAY UP LATE STRESSING

Saturday, 25th January 2025

I’ve had a pretty productive day – finishing it by reviewing this week’s plasma lectures :)

🎵Watershed Album – Opeth (finally moved on from my binge of the song Bleak like 10 times in a row, lol)

Every page you read is a step closer to your dreams