For The Ask Game!

BPD awareness month apparently.

the diagnosis felt damning at first, not gonna lie… but it’s just a part of who I am. it’s also been helpful, to have a key to help me understand why - why do I always feel so empty and hollow ; why does the simple idea of rejection and abandonment makes me spiral into frenzied panic ; why I can’t seem to love like normal people ; why does cutting red lines in my skin so often feels like the only solution ; why I always seem to see people as my best friends, all the while knowing I am not their best friend - and why that hurts so much. what was helpful was also to see that all of these feelings, they exist within everyone. they are part of the human experience. bpd is just that - human feelings and experiences, with the volume and intensity pushed to the maximum.

it’s painful. stigmatized, too. but in the end, it’s only human.

… it’s hard to be human. but even if it often doesn’t feel like it, I exist. we exist. we are not monsters. we are only human.

answered on Reddit already but still reblogging this great initiative ! loved taking a trip down memory lane <3

Interest in hobbyist archival research into *Artemis Fowl* online fan communities (2000-2012)

I'm working on a post about online AF fan communities in the early 2000s, and I am curious to hear whether anyone on here participated in or was aware of some of these groups (FWIW, I cross-posted this on Reddit and have a few notes regarding the francophone fansphere!).

Criminality (Fanlore Wiki link) was a fanfiction archive (2003-2016) where community members would share recommendations, create fanfiction prompt challenges, host fanfiction exchanges/events, and discuss the AF fan community (e.g., Mary Sues. Personally, I couldn't care less about the "quality" of people's OCs, as if I don't like a work, I simply stop reading it, easy-as, but fandom culture at the time was... fractious, to put it lightly, when it came to Mary Sues).

It's no longer possible to access the Criminality webpage; I can't even find much online about "breakthepressure", which was presumably the content management system (CMS) for Criminality.

Around the time Criminality came into existence, the Orion Awards collection was created on Fanfiction Net (~2001). Each year, fans would nominate fanfictions that they particularly enjoyed to be archived in the Orion Awards collection. Although I was too young to participate in fandom/use the internet at the time, my understanding of events (based on what I can find on the Wayback Machine) is that the Fanfiction Net Orion Awards community predated the Orion Awards webpage. The Fanfiction Net Orion Awards collection houses some, but not all, of the Orion Awards winners.

For the Orion Awards, fanfictions would be nominated and awarded across particular categories. Using the Wayback Machine to access the now-defunct breakthepressure Orion Awards webpage, I found the categories for the awards, which I have attached in screenshot form below.

Around 2007, the community on Criminality moved to the breakthepressure site for the Orion Awards.

What I have shared in based in research rather than personal experience with any of these communities, so I would be curious to hear about whether any fans remember what it was like to be a fan online between 2000-2012, as well as whether there are any other fan sites/communities beyond Criminality and the Orion Awards that you remember!

Another ask, and this one is pretty specific :3 Who is gonna help Artemis chose the clothes for the heist not-Fairy-Thief-heist? Or he will do that himself? Because TOD presents him already into the heist, but wouldn't it be funny to see him planning one AND having decide how to dress/somebody helping him to? Early 2000s fashion was... something XD

Well, since he’s not exactly on speaking terms with Juliet after Artemis Experiments Weird, he can’t ask for her input and she is the only one that could have actively helped him there. So instead, he does "a ton of research" (aka he watched Mean Girls on 2x speed and took screenshots and notes) and then raids Angeline's and Juliet’s closets to compose an outfit that seems fitting ^^"

I want the heist scene in Pareidolia Agent to really be a parallel to TOD, so the plan is that the scene starts in media res like in the book :)

Rino Matsuike: Lux Aeterna » 2024 Skate Canada

Spring 1991. Happier times ✨

I wanted to draw something that felt warmer and more wholesome after my previous attempt at a ‘’big’’ piece. Not very happy with this one, I think I was a bit too ambitious for my skill level lol. I definitely could have worked on it more but I decided to call it quits anyways ^^’ Edit to add - one thing I'm very proud about - I drew the piano without any reference picture o/ For no other reason that I couldn't be bothered ahem, and the proportions are a mess compared to Angeline, but still ! *pat-pats on my own back*

👑 young short-haired Angeline 👑

I hope the cut of her dress is okay ; I adore low-cut necklines, all my favourite dresses have one.

I'm pretty happy with the colours on this one, I was worried I would be trash again at Procreate after such a long hiatus but so far, so good ^^"

Here’s Butler. Not convinced yet by the design, but i’m very happy with his color palette. I love him dearly… He should fear me.

Just a quick sketch of Holly wrecking havoc on humankind and having way too much fun whilst doing so, like the little menace she is.

‘A good tragedy is always both preventable and inevitable’ is one of my main hills to die on. It’s literally so important to me. I’m fucking correct