When Can I See You Again? I've Been Waiting Out Here For So Long And I Don't Seem To Find The Resolve

Smol Artemis sketches 🤍

Been experimenting with new brushes, now it looks much closer to my actual trad art style. That’s nice 😊

BPD Awarness Month

On top of May being mental health awareness month, it’s also BPD (Borderline personality disorder) awareness month. I don’t even have enough words to describe what it feels like living with BPD. It has been my tool to survival and will eventually be my demise. Life with BPD is the hardest. You are emotionally fucked. You are toxic to everyone you come into contact with. Everyday is a struggle. Every hour is a caution tape. Living with it is like living in a gas chamber that is slowly leaking toxic fumes. Your breath is always caught. Your tears are always flowing. Even with therapy and medication for the symptoms, there is so much left to deal with. It never really goes away. At a moment's notice you can change feelings from “I love you” to “I hate you”. Having someone love you feels fake. Like you are never going to be loveable. That no one could ever love you. You’re too much of a burden. Too damaged to be loved. BPD is from trauma. And well, I have generations of it. No matter how much I try, no matter how much I grow it never feels enough. Emotions feel like suicide. Thoughts scream too loud. Demons control you like a puppet unable to run away. Hallucinations come and go. You really never know when they'll come or go. Sometimes the episodes will be minutes, others months. Distance or slightest voice change feels like abandonment. Happiness or peace feels like an illusion. Losing someone is like the world is the knives across your skin. Anger feels like jumping off a cliff. Every time someone tries to comfort or love you feels like a trick. You either feel alone or feel like a god. Living with BPD is the hardest thing to live with. It's comparable to giving my children up for adoption. Either you’re high on top of the galaxy or you’re at rock bottom over and over in a vicious cycle. We are so stigmatized. People think we are “ticking time bombs”. Hell I’ve even had therapists leave or deny me because of it. For all of my borderlines out there, you deserve love. You deserve happiness. You can’t just cope, you have to heal. It will take every ounce of self control and inner power to get through each episode. But I promise you when you find peace, true peace you’ll know what I’m talking about. Your trauma does not make you. You are not your trauma. You are not crazy. You are not a burden. Just hang tight, we’ve got this. 

Oughhhh its so incredibly hard not to sound like a broken record everytime i see your art! It is genuinely so charming and beautiful and gorgeous, I adore the way you color and just your whole style! It suits Artemis Fowl especially well, it has such a whimsical and fantastical feel to it that works so well with AF!!! All this to say I am so glad you are in this fandom keeping us fed.

🥹 Thank you so much, you are just the sweetest. I’ve been having a very rough past few days, and these lovely words give me the comfort I need right now 💜 Merci tout plein !!!

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Let me reciprocate!

Your headcanons about Minerva, and your favorite headcanons about Angeline!

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Minerva, Minerva... The Minerva of my dreams is vastly different from the canon one. I always thought she would be a much more interesting foil to Artemis if she came from a different sociocultural background - what if the rich Irish boy faced a poor French girl from the Seine-Saint-Denis suburbs ? I think it would give her a different kind of grit, and also her motives for turning to crime wouldn't just be a Nobel Prize, but just... financial stability. For her and her family. I could develop more but I want to keep some surprises for my next fics :3 As for my darling Angeline, oh my. I tried to come up with a top 3 to keep myself in check ^^" 1) She's a fierce redhead 🔥 2) She had a musical career as the lead pianist of the jazz quartet The Silky Silfaka Lemurs 🐵 After she had Artemis she stopped playing in the band but she kept composing music. 3) Her favorite beverage is jasmine tea 🌸

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Literally everything you just said Same ^^"

As someone who’s literally never read Alex Rider (and no offense to the Alex Rider fandom I probably never will) Alexmis is so funny to me because everytime I see it because it’s such a popular ship I just sit there like

GoOd GoD ThEy’rE GaY 🫣

Good for them, good for them 😌💅💅🔥✨✨

Oooh, Pareidolia Agent is such a nice title! What is it about?

Wee, it took me some time to find it but I'm really happy with it 😃 It's the sequel to Artemis Experiments Weird 😉 In which you will find, among many other things : - the Fairy Thief heist remastered in France, with Artemis posing as a teenage... girl (because he is my non-binary icon) - a human cult who uses the Wired through singing 🎶 - Root hugging Holly 🥰 - my take on a Banshee 👻 - Tim collaborating with the gang 👀 - Juliet being one of the main characters 💚

Thanks @laeliana for tagging me !

Rules: In a new post, list the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it! And then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

Artemis Fowl WIPs : - Fragments of Artemis Fowl - Pareidolia Agent (titre temp) - Experiments Weird III (trouve un titre merde) - Oiseaux moqueurs

Film WIPs : - Insubmersible - P(e)aupière - Carnation - Ctrl+Z - Couilles de chat (yes, I keep my fanfic WIPs in the same folder as my work WIPs. as one should)

I'm tagging @bittersuite-iv ! :3

Tag nine people you want to get to know better

thank you @ionlymadethissoicouldleaveanask for the tag ! :D

Favorite color: Purple 💜 All nuances of purple, but especially one that hinges towards turquoise blue ✨

Currently reading: 'House of Many Ways' by Diana Wynne Jones and 'House of Leaves' by Mark Danielewski (it looks like a pattern but I swear it's a coincidence lol)

Last song: Black Widow by Susanne Sundfør

Last movie: 'Les Amants du Pont-Neuf' by Leos Carax

Last series: re-binge watching 'Daria' for the 999 999 999th time 😅 my childhood idol and role model

Sweet, Savory, Salty: team salty !

Craving: ✨mac'n'cheese à la française✨ a.k.a a nice warm plate of coquillettes pasta with Saint-Nectaire fermier cheese 🧀

Tea/Coffee: Jasmine tea if I must, but I prefer hot chocolate :3

Currently working on: a 90 chapters Artemis Fowl fanfic 🤓 and also a short docu-fiction film about a depressed girl who cannot cry and her home becomes filled with sea water 💧

Thanks again for the tags, this is fun ! I'm tagging @amaristheowlcat, @laeliana, @artifex-rambles, @orangerosebush, @kayden-i-guess, @kai-atlantis, @jelli-art-blog, @shortace, @bittersuite-iv (no pressure if you don't wanna, just funsies !)