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It’s not that big of a deal and I know that I’m pretty cringy for having a moment like this, this late in life but, I had my first kiss on a Ferris wheel yesterday :)

It’s not that big of a deal and I know that I’m pretty cringy for having a moment like this, this late in life but, I had my first kiss on a Ferris wheel yesterday :)

this over that: building edition

rules: so this post will have only one (1) this over that item with one of them highlighted. the one below this will have the one on this with one of them highlighted + another one, the one below that will have 2+1, and so on

black pens > blue pens

tags: @ebony-reine-vibes @foursixtwonineoh-pieces-of-lego @quotidian-oblivion @paloma-ascends-into-hellfire @justaboymadeofhoneyandglass @gracefulchristiangirl @illneverforget365 @innereverblaze @book-girl4evaaa and anyone who's interested!!

My pookie just sent me this for my birthday <33

Going to see Coraline in 3D today <333

Happy birthday to Aled and Carys Last

Happy birthday to Kizzy Edgell

Happy birthday to Con O’Neill

Happy birthday to billzo

And lastly happy birthday to…me :)

I gotta write my nightmare I just had down before I forget it

So it’s basically like, my mom is six months pregnant and we are having a baby shower. I’m sitting down with my brother but in the corner of my eye I see another version of him, at first I think I’m hallucinating but he just won’t go away, he’s wearing different clothes than my brother but when he walks past this mirror, his reflection shows my real version of my brother. So I turn to my brother (Steven) and I go “do you see that” while staring at the sort of “spirit” head on and he’s really confused because he can’t see it and so I try to explain to each of my family members about what I’m seeing and I don’t remember their reactions but they basically tell me to get over it. My dad’s is by far the worse, the moment he notices me do something or say something throughout this entire experience he tells at me to stop ruining it and that I’m making it up and being a bitch. Anyways that ghost slowly gets closer and starts talking to me and saying “I just want a kiss sissy” from when we were little and it starts to strangle me and when ever I talked about this to a family member they would brush it off. I would hide from the ghost in groups of people and behind Steven and every now and then there was moments I forgot about the ghost and it went away but by the end of the night we were getting something from the vending machines and I was looking at this (Yknow those like koolaid burst bottles that kinda look like a melted version of those Japanese ice cream convenience store bottle pops) << that’s what I was looking at in my dream, I wasn’t wanting it or anything I was just confused as to what it was and then my dad started exploding on me “YOU HAVE BEEN A BITCH ALL NIGHT MAKING UP THINGS, YOU DONT NEED THAT WE HAVE THOSE AT HOME. LETS GO BACK HOME” I started to cry and then my brother who’s eleven just says “yeah you’ve been a bitch” and that just ticks my dad off more. By the time I get home I lay in bed and start scrolling on my phone in my nightmare?? But more of the things that pop up in my phone are about weight or they are fake memories of my mom. Like her at a rally for rights when she was a teenager. And that’s basically where it ended.

Now I wanna clear some stuff up.

Only very few stuff in this nightmare is real. I have a brother, mom and dad. My mom is not pregnant and does not plan on getting pregnant. This is an exaggeration of how my dad actually is. I’ve never seen a ghost of my brother. My mom would probably listen if I said any of this stuff.

Now for the stuff that did make this nightmare/dream stand out.

When I was younger my brother almost drowned me (which explains the strangling) and even now, I do not give him very much affection, we hang out but we don’t hug or kiss, I have a problem with him and affection and I have since I was like 8-9. He’s always been really clingy and asking for affection which is why I think he said “I just want a kiss sissy” (and he used to call me sissy when we were little) now the thing that stood out the most to me was surprisingly, the phone scrolling at the end of my dream, in every single one of my dreams except THIS ONE I can’t see phone screens or TV screen because they just show up as a blinding white light.

Anyways if you read this whole thing, you’re awesome have a cookie. 🍪Sorry for making it so long, o threw you a party. 🎉 🥳🎈🧍🧍🎊🎁🍾

Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit Holy shit

I uhm. I finally told my therapist about my anorexia.

sometimes i Think

ATTENTION IWTV FANDOM, ITS COMING TO NETFLIX ON AUGUST 19TH WOOOOO

Make sure to close your curtains during the month of August (iykyk)

DEADPOOL AND WOLVERINE MOVIE SPOILERS AHEAD

I wasn’t warned about The homoerotic tension that would break the multiverse

LMAO I GOT A GIFT FROM MY FRIEND’S MOM AFTER MY SHOW (I’m gender fluid so it doesn’t matter but like it’s really funny to me)

I'm curious. Reblog this if you know how to cook

I don’t even care if it’s macaroni, ramen or those little bowls you stick in the microwave. Please, I need reassurance that most of the population on tumblr WOULDN’T STARVE TO DEATH if their parents couldn’t fix them food or they couldn’t go out to eat. 

I used to do this a lot on ever skies, sooo

Pick a playlist and I’ll give you a random song!

Creepy songs to sing in a stairwell

(For that one stairwell siren on TikTok)

Multiple day therapy

(All my playlists mixed together)

I DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW I CANT STUDY THINKING ABOUT YOU

(My lovey dovey playlist)

“Then again, there wasn’t exactly a word for Boris and me”

(Boreo playlist)

Hahahahahah

(Asexual playlist)

Mmmmmmmm

(Songs that make me feel like I’m drowning)

LEAVE ME ALONE THEY SLAP

(Video game inspired songs)

I’m in my mentally ill alternative bestie vibes only era

(Should speak for itself)

Musicalssss

(Should also speak for itself)

POV:you think like tori spring

(Solitaire playlist)

Little gay pirates

(Our Flag Means Death playlist)

Old songs that make me want to cry tears of happiness

(Really good old songs)

NEIL GAIMAN YOU ARE A TERRIBLE PERSON

(Good omens playlist)

The song of Achilles

(TSOA playlist)

Love you

(Self love playlist)

Mitaki is a god

(She is)

Songs to scream to in the car

(Screamable songs)

The noble house of black

(Marauders✌️)

TV girl is so

(TV girl)

✨💫Starchaser⭐️🔭

(Marauders again lol)

Why does no one like classical music :(

(Classical)

🌙Wolfstar⭐️

(Marauders AGAIN)

You think you have the right?

(Feminine rage)

Glee🎶🎼🎵🎤

(Glee covers)

Conan gray⭐️💋

(Literally all Conan songs)

🥀RoseKiller <3

(Marauderererers lol)

Girl in red for the Queers

(Girl in red)

Fan songs

(Dsmp fan songs, they have a lot of drama right now but CG5 and derivakat will save me)

⬇️

(Depression in playlist form)

ANARCHY

(Anarcho punk)

🌹dorlene 🥀

(Oh god more marauders)

Not English :)

(None of these songs are In English lol)

Yummy burnout

(It’s giving gifted kid burnout)

AHHHHHHHH

(Rock/punk/screamo)

i love the word meow i love how it fits in my mouth and how it sounds and how it looks

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Does anyone else’s parents do that thing where when a teenager in a film/show is being an (as I quote from my dad) “asshole” and then they shoot you a glance. Or they say TO YOU while it’s happening “don’t be an asshole” or a “bitch” or a “dick” They just love to generalize all teenagers into this category, that we’re dicks for no reason when in reality I’m starving myself so maybe there’s a reason dad????

repost if you like girls and/or youre secretly a goose

AH MY OPENING/CLOSING NIGHT IS SATURDAY 🫣🫣🫣

What if the the cut, the burn, the break????? Was never in my brain??? Or in my blood??? But in my soul???

What if the the cut, the burn, the break????? Was never in my brain??? Or in my blood??? But in my soul???

Pixilart

Pixilart

FOUND THESE WHEN GOING THROUGH MY STUFF??? JACK POT??? HELLO?

i’ve never actually talked to 95% of my mutuals but that doesn’t stop me from automatically thinking “friend!!” whenever their icons pop up in my feed

CHEEEECKMAAAATE…!!!

i love them sm

The smells are smelling (distraction)