I Feel So Ill ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

That was me, actually

Don’t feel bad if you’re sensitive to negative feedback because apparently after one particular bad review Hans Christian Andersen was found just sobbing while lying face down in the dirt

Yessss, I'll forever be a Mesmer Jr. glazer

i’ve always been a mesmer jr defender and I think her anecdote would convert even her staunchest hater into one as well. getting a more in depth glimpse into her psyche and seeing in detail the amount of trauma and pressure that was forced upon her by the adults in her life from such a young age and seeing how much of her current cold detachment from emotion is just a defense mechanism from this upbringing…💔💔💔

mesmer jr my girl one day u WILL live life for urself and be freed from ur shackles. I’ll sneak into bluepoch’s writing room and write it myself if I have to

every alien stage couple finally gets a duet together

sorry for the really shitty quality

even if the two of us are ever torn apart

Take I haven't seen in the fandom yet:

Luka doesn't want to be freed.

"Now, MirrorCatCreditcard," you may say, "that's nonsense. Any human would want freedom from that system."

If you're thinking I'm gonna convince you that Luka doesn't know he wants freedom yet, you're wrong. I'm here to talk about indoctrination/conditioning, grooming/emotional manipulation, my own experience with those topics, and how all of the above connects with Luka as a character. If a deep dive like this is too much for you, please tap out for your own sake.

Luka's life was planned before he even existed. There has never ever been an alternative option. There is no life for Luka as anything but what Herperu chose. Everything in his life has been planned to have him be the perfect pet human idol. That is what he must be.

Fandom, I don't think most of you actually understand this and have dissected what this means (shout-out to the Luka stans who are getting there/have guessed similar things). These words we know have alternatives and are not set in stone are Luka's "gravity makes rain fall to the earth" and "water makes things wet." They are facts so deeply ingrained within him that even if shown the contrary he remarks that the person showing them is just disillusioned.

Take his commentary on Mizi and Hyun-A in the art book. He looks down on Mizi for not being able to control any of her emotions. How does he talk about Hyun-A? He has her at 70% affection yet shows a patronizing attitude—she's the one in denial at reality.

Now, how did we get here? How is a human so "delusional" and set in the control?

He's been conditioned.

Some of you don't know what I mean by this from experience and/or research, and count yourself fortunate that you don't. I pray you never experience such things firsthand. Don't worry about ignorance. Familiar or not, I will explain.

When you are surrounded by only one truth and reality, that is the way you interpret life. If a parent tells a child "the moon goes to sleep during the day," until the child learns otherwise, that's what they believe. Now take that child-like belief and add some toxic environments to the mix. With time, any other kid would learn that the earth rotates from their peers or adults around them. But if the creatures around them all say and believe the same thing "the moon goes to sleep during the day," then that is what the child continues to believe. Years of that same thing being the only truth make that false knowledge into a fact in the person's head, and everything that supports that fact is taken as truth or on the right path to truth.

"This is kinda silly though," you guys are no doubt murmuring, "All of this is a hypothetical. Give us something that makes sense or that someone could actually see happen in our society."

I'll give you my own experience then. My parents taught me that God is real. My parents taught me that I will be damned I do not follow the commandments of the scriptures. I didn't need to worry though. As long as I was obedient to the God who loved me and wanted what was best, I would be saved despite being born an awful sinful human. I was homeschooled, only interacted with people of similar beliefs, and taught that people too different from me in ideology or with radical beliefs against my own were trying to harm me and my family. I believed the people who raised me because why would people who love me lie to me? My task was simple. I needed to obey God and love everyone, especially them. Love meant giving up my entire being and living only as servant and sacrifice. After all, being selfless to the utmost was the greatest form of love.

Let's go back to Luka. His guardian, Herperu, when questioned about any surprises while training Luka, stated not only that he was the one who endured the "tough moments" but also that "(Luka) owes his success to me, and naturally, he should be grateful." This sentiment is echoed by Luka in his interview (shown on Patreon). My god, it's giving parents with disabled kids who brag on social media about how much trouble their kid is and how much they do for them. Sickening. This shows exactly what environment Luka has lived in though.

When you are manipulated into having something as your reality, everything else is fiction and delusion.

Let's review what exactly is Luka's reality.

Heperu is the one suffering if Luka has any difficulties being obedient.

Gratitude is what Herperu is owed because he goes through so much trouble to make Luka a star.

Love/care is shown by owning another's autonomy.

Emotions and bodily reactions exist, sure, but someone should be able to control them; and if they can't, someone should control those reactions for them.

Segyein are superior and the good ones for dealing with humans. Humans must be disciplined and shaped to how an segyein wants it to act to be considered deserving of this goodness.

(Luka)'s perfection is defined by his guardian.

Luka's life is directly connected to being the perfect performer. His guardian praises his abilities with the statement that no other pet human will ever be as perfect as him yet leaves an underlying threat saying that it will be no good if a pet is not trained properly. This has probably been mentally (if not physically) beaten into Luka's mind: his greatness doesn't stop him from being able to be disposed of. The human instinct to want to live has been explained to him as Heperu's wish for him to live and that has been further distorted as a duty to live for the stage he has been placed on.

Luka believes fully that there is a debt in play here. In his interview, he mentions repaying love. He thinks the relationship between fan and idol is completely normal, encouraged, and healthy. Performance is the most important thing. Being where he is is a privilege.

There's a chain here:

Heperu indoctrinated Luka into believing what he says is all true.

The guardian manipulated him easily to do what he wanted with his body and mind.

The years have been spent constantly conditioning Luka to be the god who encapsulated fantasies for the audience.

He is continually being groomed to exist for the entertainment and enjoyment of segyein.

Circle back to my first point of this post. Luka does not want to be freed. He doesn't know what freedom actually is. He sees freedom as either foolish denials of reality (and doesn't consider that actual freedom) or as controlling the song and stage when he performs (something he learned from Hyuna). He cannot want something he cannot understand. He cannot want freedom in the sense the fandom keeps speaking about.

It's funny. From the moment Luka was revealed to be hated by the fandom, I wanted to know why. Instead of digging and finding horrific deeds, I instead found a character who portrayed my own traumas and experiences. I instantly attached and delved deeply into learning about this thirty year old singer. Why does he express himself in a certain way? Where do we first see mention of him? Who does he have emotions towards? How was he trained? What makes Luka himself? I have past essays/replies to other's theories if you're interested, but in this one I got personal and didn't sugarcoat the facts. If the fandom can't handle deep thought, we shouldn't be discussing this incredibly profound and depth-filled web series.

As always, thank you for your time, and I hope my thoughts allowed you to open your mind to new things. Mostly, I hope you enjoyed them 🫶

that artblcok is insane guys idk if I live...

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𝙷𝚒, 𝙸'𝚖 𝙴𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚢 𝙱𝚊𝚐𝚎𝚕, 𝚊.𝚔.𝚊. 𝚂𝚑𝚞𝚞𝚔𝚘

𝙸'𝚟𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚘𝚗 𝚃𝚞𝚖𝚋𝚕𝚛 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚊 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝙸 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚍𝚞𝚌𝚎 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏, 𝚜𝚘 𝚗𝚘𝚠'𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎

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𝚆𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝙸 𝚍𝚘 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚐: 𝙸'𝚕𝚕 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚖𝚢 𝚍𝚛𝚊𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜, 𝚙𝚊𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚌𝚛𝚊𝚏𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜, 𝚋𝚘𝚝𝚑 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚕𝚍; 𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚊 𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚋𝚒𝚝 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚖𝚢 𝚏𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜, 𝚖𝚊𝚢𝚋𝚎 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚏𝚊𝚗𝚏𝚒𝚌𝚜

𝙻𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚞𝚊𝚐𝚎𝚜: 𝙴𝚗𝚐𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚑, 𝙿𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚑, 𝚊 𝚋𝚒𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝙹𝚊𝚙𝚊𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚎

𝙵𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚘𝚖𝚜: 𝙷𝚎𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚊, 𝙰𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚗 𝚂𝚝𝚊𝚐𝚎, 𝚅𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚘𝚜 𝚒𝚗 𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚕, 𝚂𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚊𝚕 𝙴𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚜 𝙻𝚊𝚒𝚗, 𝙷𝚘𝚞𝚜𝚎𝚔𝚒 𝚗𝚘 𝙺𝚞𝚗𝚒, 𝙽𝚎𝚘𝚗 𝙶𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚜 𝙴𝚟𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚘𝚗, 𝚁𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚎: 𝟷𝟿𝟿𝟿, 𝙱𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚘𝚞 𝚂𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚢 𝙳𝚘𝚐𝚜, 𝚁𝚎𝚟𝚘𝚕𝚞𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝙶𝚒𝚛𝚕 𝚄𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚊, 𝚂𝚠𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠𝚝𝚊𝚒𝚕 (𝚍𝚘𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚑𝚠𝚊 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊 𝚏𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚘𝚖?), 𝙳𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚊𝚗𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚙𝚊, (𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚜𝚎 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚖𝚢 𝚏𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚜)

𝙼𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚌: 𝙼𝙰𝚁𝙴𝚃𝚄, 𝚆𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚆𝚘𝚘𝚍, 𝙰𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚗 𝚂𝚝𝚊𝚐𝚎, 𝙼𝚢𝚜𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚒𝚝𝚣, 𝙷𝚎𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚒𝚍, 𝚅𝚘𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚒𝚍, 𝚄𝚝𝚊𝚞, 𝙲𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚘𝚛 𝙽𝚘𝚒𝚛, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎

𝙵𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚜: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚄𝚗𝚋𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝙻𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝙱𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝙰𝚕𝚕 𝚃𝚘𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚜, 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙲𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚍𝚛𝚊𝚕, 𝙶𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝙿𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚜𝚎, 𝙲𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚊𝚖𝚘𝚗 𝚂𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚜, 𝚆𝚞𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙷𝚎𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝, 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙶𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝 𝙰𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚎

𝙵𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚙𝚜: 𝙼𝚒𝚣𝚒𝚂𝚞𝚊, 𝙰𝚗𝚝𝚑𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚄𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚊, 𝙿𝚛𝚞𝚜𝙿𝚘𝚕

𝙵𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜: 𝚊𝚙𝚑 𝙿𝚘𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚍, 𝚊𝚙𝚑 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚊𝚛𝚢, 𝚊𝚙𝚑 𝙲𝚣𝚎𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚊, 𝚊𝚕𝚗𝚜𝚝 𝚂𝚞𝚊, 𝚛𝚐𝚞 𝙰𝚗𝚝𝚑𝚢, 𝚋𝚜𝚍 𝙵𝚢𝚘𝚍𝚘𝚛 (𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎, 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚏𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚖𝚢 𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚋𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚐𝚗), 𝚑𝚗𝚔 𝚈𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚖𝚘𝚗𝚍

𝙾𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚘𝚌𝚒𝚊𝚕𝚜: 𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚃𝚞𝚋𝚎

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𝙰𝚗𝚢𝚠𝚊𝚢, 𝙸 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚋𝚎 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚗𝚘𝚠!

Being hit with "I love the look in your eyes when I hurt you" toxic yuri immediately after an ep where one of the characters slowly transforms into a cow due to her obsession with luxury brands is. An experience.

haven't seen one show ignaz semmelweis yet so I had to