Happy Valentine’s Day 😁

*currently writing a 25k word fic detailing how a threesome would have INDEED fixed them*

A threesome would have fixed them

I enjoy your freak

ooooooh as someone writing a smutty Lost fanfic this goes straight through my heart

Im just discovering it but im also loving the freakiness of tumblr regarding Jack and Sawyer, my freaky babies 😏😏

What's in a language?

The floral scent of Kate’s hair brings him back to earth. How sweet it is to lay in her arms. Their relationship had grown even stronger since his release from hospital three months earlier. The impulse to share his desires with her had seemed at times selfish, at others completely ludicrous. Why risk wrecking their perfect balance for a whim?

This is a snippet from my WIP, a part I'm so happy about.

I've been writing fanfiction for two months, and I'm still amazed at how incredibly hard it is to convey things in a language that's initially not my own.

I've been studying (partly) in English for years, did my Master's degree in English, I've been consuming content in that language for almost half my life and yet...

Actually writing out something that's well crafted, that flows, that engages the reader (I'm my first reader and, as a lot of other writers I suppose, my worst critic),... is so incredibly difficult to me.

In many ways, it feels like work.

But I wouldn't say that's a bad thing. It's a task I love taking on because the result, when it's done right, fills me with incredible joy.

I do resort to Deepl at times, because I'm so used to writing prose in French. But I feel like this doesn't impair the result and helps me feel less stuck on the page.

But man, I really would have never guessed before starting this how slowly it comes together.

Mad respect to all writers out there, none of it is easy. But today, I'd like to pay madder respect to non-native writers because dude, that shit is even less easy.

Seeing this song in a whole new light all of a sudden.

dedicated to @selfinflictedgunshotwound, @obsessivedaydreamer, and @heftbyjapanesebreakfast 🍏!

ID under cut

[IMAGE ID: Various screencaps of Jack Shephard and Christian Shephard from various episodes with a neon green tint and the lyrics to Apple by charli xcx followed by a LOST script from 01x11]

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SHEPHARD: Because I have what it takes.

And his father actually puts his hand on Jack's shoulder. does love his son. This is said out of that love... no matter how fucking cruel it sounds to us—Don't choose, Jack. Don't decide. Walk away from the fights. Because when you fail when you make the wrong choice? It's gonna hurt. And buddy? When that hurt comes?

(beat) You don't have what it takes.

Jack absorbs that. And more importantly, because this is his father. Because he is twelve. Because this must be true

He BELIEVES it.

A beat. And then, his father again extends two fists

SHEPHARD (CONT'D): Same rules. Double or nothing. Decide.

But Jack just looks at the extended hands. Many, many, many, beats pass before Jack finally shakes his head. No.

SHEPHARD (CONT'D): Good boy.

Jack IS babygirl. Babygirl IS Jack.

I'm not making up the rules, that's just how it is.

Hey, I'm sorry man, but I swear you help so much.

I'd never bind you tho. Except if you asked for it iykwim.

the tragedy of Jack Shepard is that he's the character obsessed with fixing everything, meanwhile you have me watching him religiously screw up his life, thinking *i could fix him*

Hihi, I have a doubt, do you have any schedule plan for when you will be releasing you fic's chapters?

No pressure, just curious!

Heyyy thanks for the ask and interest in my silly depressed story 🥰🤪

I announced (but don't remember where) a schedule of posting twice a month, and I intend to keep to it!

It's easy to say now because I have some backlog I'm reediting for chapters 2 to 6, but the last three are just outline at this point.

I'll try and keep people updated if for some reason I can't post twice a month as intended.

This also means chapter two should be dropping end of next week 🎉

It'll focus on Kate and James' POV and will move us closer to the actual smut I'm promising 😇

Can't wait to keep sharing. Thanks for asking !

What I wrote ten weeks ago in a post, here about how Sawyer felt about Jack when they were on the Island:

His school girl antics with Jack in the first seasons were just the manifestation of his crush in a way he himself couldn't grasp.

What I found yesterday: A French pop song from my youth (so the early 00's lol) sung by a then middle-school girl, to which the lyrics, when translated, say:

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

For a gesture, a word from you, I'd give anything I have.

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

And I mean, there's no better way to express his way of acting with Jack. It's so on the nose it made me lol for a while when I realised the parallels.

It's giving I'll tease you, call you names, have you break up the fights I'm a part of, follow you around making dumb jokes you're not in the mood for, volunteer for every risky thing you're also a part of, kiss the girl you're obviously crushing on, get injured so you can help me, and if all fails, I'll actually ask you to play courtyard games with me for a while... anything.

Anyting but, please, please, look at me.

Please, let me fuck you. (heyyy, I have smut on the brain, can you blame me?)

Anywayyyyyyyyyyy... Case closed.

no thoughts, just hanging out with Jack and putting make-up on him 🥰