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Sissy Fantasies

I don’t remember specific days, but I do remember what I did which is the subject of this post.

It was an innocent curiosity that led me to pick up my mother’s underwear from the pile of washed clothes sitting in the laundry basket.  There were other items, like bras, blouses, and dresses, but none really drew my attention.

I was home alone.

No one would see and no one would judge if I took my clothes off. But I wasn’t just taking my clothes off. I was taking my clothes off because I wanted to feel what it was like to wear panties and nothing else.  I wanted to experience what it was like to be soft and sexy.

I didn’t waste much time once I made the decision to go through with it.  It was magical: the realization that I was standing there naked (exposed in the laundry area), with nothing but a pair of soft white cotton panties on.

I ran to the closest full body mirror I could find.  The first thing I noticed was the little bulge in front of the panties and I remember thinking “girls don’t look like that”.  I reached inside squatted down a little so my thighs would spread open, and I tucked my penis between my legs – much better.  I was over- weight at the time and liked to squeeze my boy boobs together and pretend they were actually female tits.  

I began to daydream about the boys that would want to have me, if I was a real girl.  I remember fantasizing about being submissive to boys, lovely, they would make demands and I would comply without complaint. I didn’t know it then, but it was a sissy fantasy.

For all intents and purposes, it was a phase that I presumed I had grown out of.  I was barely a teen at the time, now I’m in my late thirties.

Maybe there is a correlation between being a stag (i.e. watching one’s wife enjoy herself on different cocks) and having bisexual or even sissy fantasies, but I honestly thought that was not the case.

I love watching my sexy wife’s ass bouncing on another man’s thighs.  I love hearing her moan and watching her smile at me every chance she gets as she rides.  I love watching video recordings of those events with her, in bed.

Recently, I’ve been having sissy fantasies more and more frequently.  I feel an urge to put on makeup and pretty myself up.  I want to put on sexy lingerie and maybe a mini skirt. I shave between my legs and around my butthole, and I touch myself imagining how exited the right man would be to feel how soft my ass is.  I feel an urge to suck cock and to have a nice man fuck my ass – and come inside me. I fantasize about cleaning him up, afterward.

I still love my wife and find her very desirable, but I crave cock.

Some urges never die.