It’s Supposed To Be A Special Day For Him, I See That I’m Not A Part Of This, Ok I’m Learning.

So true

“I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion.”

— Jack Kerouac (via quotemadness)

I was a good friend to him, I brought him in to my home, my family, my friends. I let him cry and hurt and tried to help him through his divorce. I got close with him. I thought we were best friends, then one day just it’s like I’m this scum that he can’t be around per his X ya know, I would’ve told my X to get fucked. Then he treats me different. Don’t seem to worry about different, I could never be so cold. I hope that losing me as a friend is what he wanted cause he fucking got it!

I’ve been almost a week without him. He made it look so easy to walk away. I’m not sure if I ever meant anything to him at all, at this point I don’t want to know. I just want to forget about him. Close that chapter in my life. I’ve been through this like 3 times, the other 2 men both ended up regretting their disicissions, so not only did I have to get over them, then after I was at the point of over it and no more pain, then I had to be the one that said no when they want to try again. That whole not knowing what you have til it’s gone is bullshit. When something is special to me it doesn’t just get old. Some people want to have that moment to see someone that hurt them, hurt. I don’t want to see anyone hurt... I don’t want him to ever want me back. I’m just ready to be over this and feel better!

I think I’m over it! Not seeing him definitely helped. I feel a lot better. I feel like I’m kinda free. Not that he held me down because I made my own choices. I accept that. Fake is what it is, FAKE! I kept it 100! So my conscience is clear. I’m probably never gonna be more than a friend with benefits anyone else. He was my last hope as far as relationships go. I look back at what it was about him that I really missed and tbh, all of our time was spent with me trying to build him up and me working on his self esteem. I guess it worked. Mission accomplished! Time to move on anyways!!!

I love her

How am I ever gonna be just your friend?

Haven’t posted in a while, my life is so hectic right now. And I saw him today, 6 months of nothing then outta the blue he messaged me, I think we have a bond because we both got hurt around the same time and we held one another together. I don’t fully understand why it went the way it did….. I’m just glad to have you back in my life….. maybe we can help one another again!!!

Damn, I just want to forget about him, us, forget that I ever met him! He did the ultimate deal breaker, it’s got to be over, dude were you even my friend, cause with friends like that I damn sure don’t need any enemies.... smh

I can’t speak to him without frustrating him. I feel like he absolutely hates me at times. I really wanted this to work. I’m tired of being called a bitch, or bring told that I’m bitching, I am a very passionate person, but when someone Fucks with my heart, then I am a bitch. So if I’ve been a bitch to him at all then he’s been fuckin with my heart. It doesn’t have to be like this, but he’s about to get what he has been giving. Then he can call me a bitch……