The Father Wound

i’m gonna be free and i’m gonna be fine……..but maybe not tonight

Bundle of Sticks

Nate

anouilh's antigone / rosanna warren / antigone / i'm thinking of ending things / jun cen / harry styles' sign of the times / t.s. eliot's four quartets / unknown source / tom stoppard's rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead / richard siken's war of the foxes.

omg imagine being born and you are on a spaceship and everyone aboard is sooo so mad at you just because you burst out of some guy's chest to be born. like um sorry i've not been alive before i didn't even know that's not allowed please be nice to me um the spaceship floor is cold is no one going to knit me some little booties i am calling child protective services

“I think cows are underrated. Just look at that lil face!” 

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kendall is logan's biggest paradox. he hates and loves kendall the most. kendall is his least favorite child and his favorite child. and it's all for the same reason: he recognizes kendall's potential and admires his ambition. as a father, he is proud of that. that's why kendall was the original successor in the first place. but as a narcissist, he can't take it.

kendall's not afraid to make bold moves, and he will step out of line to do so. kendall has huge flops of course but he also has good ideas, and logan can't handle it. he can't handle, for example, that kendall was the one who solved logan's debt problem. he can't handle that vaulter was modernizing the company. he can't handle that kendall came dangerously close to voting him out of his chair.

that's why logan only reconciles with ken after shiv's wedding--when he has the ultimate trump card to force ken's obedience and love. logan is openly affectionate and admiring of kendall only when he knows he has control. he loves kendall this way and wants to be close to him, but he only respects kendall when he fights back. he wants a successor with whom he can do both at once, whom he can love and respect, but he necessarily never can. because he simultaneously despises all weakness and all dissent.

that's why kendall is the number one boy. he puts up the biggest fight but he's also the most vulnerable to logan's influence. he reaches the highest highs and the lowest lows. and that's why this show makes me absolutely unwell.

Having the time of ferret's life!

drives me up a wall living in a very very red district, like “no democrat is ever going to win any local election, let alone a real leftist” district, like “our school board members ran on who was the most anti-mask” red, like “I pass white supremacist signs on the way to buy weed” red

and being in the local leftist community and the guy who runs the anarchist book club and the lady who helps keep the warming shelters open and the people who marched on city hall when a local business was getting death threats for having a drag show are all members of a discord and we get on this discord and have frank discussions about how best to vote

the people who do the protests and the mutual aid and all the real work

going “okay, they’re both fascists, but this one lacks ambition and seems happy to just glide in the position” or “they both suck, but this one can be reasoned with if you frame it patriotically enough” like we don’t even have a democrat to vote for. we know what a vote is. we know what we hope accomplish with it. we know what it can do, and we know what it can’t.

and going from those discussions to here where people think that your vote is some kind of fucking??? enabling maneuver??? as if someone isn’t going to end up in that seat regardless of what you do???

we didn’t build this system, we just live in it. we’re just trying to survive. a vote isn’t a statement of your values, it’s not an endorsement, it’s not a marriage contract, it’s a strategic play you make to keep alive.

the biggest mistake I see leftists making is overestimating their own popularity. “well but everyone would be leftist if they just-“ no, stop, 1) you can’t possibly know that 2) everyone will not just