I'm Really Concerned Over Your Post About Your Kidney. I Haven't Been Keeping Up With You For A Couple

- 3/25/2018 So I got the app to work but since its new it got a update and now everything in the notes app (where I doodle), such as opening starting a new doodle saving to photos, looking at anything from the past etc actually takes minutes to do... and it’s the only app that’s screwed up on the new update. It almost seems like I should start using an app made for art...

- 8.28.2018 This was really fun

Potentially cute but currently cursed and exhausted

explain your gender in 10 words or less without using boring words like “male”, “female”, “nonbinary”, “masculine”, “feminine” or “androgynous”.

go!

- 4/28/2018

Ive finally decided I need to come to terms with the fact that if I want to do good colored art, I need to do line art and probably a black and white version too…

Soooooo today’s doodles (it's only day 4) so far have just been deleted at 11pm… who ever thought it was a good idea to put the redo button next to erase all needs to stay very far from me at the moment for there own good

Since I’ve decided it might not be the best idea to ramble in someone else’s discord I’m here. Fun fact when I mention that it applies to girlfriends it wasn’t a btw, I just didn’t even think of that as a possibility. This just proves I haven’t really had male friends in a long time. Though I do have bi and gay female ones so I might actually need sleep.

- 3/06/2018 Ehhh

- 1/24/2018

I don’t think healthy people every really get chronic illness.

I have a friend I know from when we were both 6. She is the only person living nearby and so she saw me go from walking through limping to wheelchair on a daily basis. I keep her updated on my health even tho we rarely hang out anymore. She was gonna come over yesterday and I had to cancel. She asked if I can’t hang out later that day. When I said i won’t feel better later, that if I feel that bad in the morning later will only get worse she got annoyed and “joked” that I’m just finding excuses. And I was surprised, she knows all about me being disabled after all? So, a bit taken aback, I told her it’s a normal thing for me.

“But you got the diagnosis now, aren’t you better?? I thought you’ll get better now”

She was honestly surprised and it made me realize a thing. They don’t get it. They don’t get that getting diagnosed only equals benefits like welfare or parking spot for us, and sometimes better pain meds but that is just like pushing luck. That it’s a forever thing. That that one day we felt good a week ago was just a bright spot and doesn’t mean we won’t need our aids anymore, cause chronic illness is not linear and will make a great comeback in next four hours, and the next good day is planned on when we’re 70. Cause when abled people are sick, they get better. And our illness is just an excuse for them. And when we say we will never get better they think we’re being dramatic and pessimistic. And I don’t think they’ll ever get it, cause to get it you need to live it. And I want my friends to stay healthy and not go through hell.

- 01/04/2019