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/rp im still never gonna be over the fact that, after tommy’s prison break-in stream, the general fandom response was “how could sam stop caring about tommy like that!?” when, if you’ve been keeping up with sam’s arc over the past few months, that stream did nothing but show how much he adores tommy

when ponk stole sam’s old keycards and even entertained the idea of breaking into prison, sam took his life, and his arm. sam gave him warnings, yes, but when ponk went through with it anyways sam showed him no mercy

compare this to tommy, who actually broke in. who got all the way to the main cell before being caught. who sam thinks is actively trying to break dream out. what does sam do to him in response? absolutely nothing. you can’t even say tommy got off with a slap on the wrist, because sam didn’t even do that much! he didn’t hit tommy a single time

and that, my friends, is one of the reasons why sam was so excruciatingly angry during this scene. he was angry at himself for not living up to his own expectations as The Warden. for not being strong enough. he was angry at tommy for even putting him in that position in the first place, and revealing his weaknesses. he repeats it over and over: “you should be dead right now. i should have killed you.” but he loves tommy too much to let him off with anything but a warning

when sam says “you should be dead” he means “the protocol states i should have killed you, but i can’t (i don’t want to) and that infuriates me”. when sam says “this is why i let you die- what am i supposed to do now?” he means “this is why i didn’t let you out of the cell. i was afraid dream would take advantage of the situation and something worse would happen”

sam says “go away. i don’t ever want to see you again”. he means “i don’t want you to die” 

Pls I need ur c!Tommy takes ur the only one I trust to like him without reducing him to someone who has no narrative agency outside of being a victim

THANK YOU <33 this post is probably messy because half of it was copied directly from Fey-posting on twt but here’s a perhaps controversial take about c!tommy + being seventeen !!

because i see a lot of people either de-ageing him (making him seem 12/13) or acting as if he’s older than 17 / as if his age doesn’t matter. i think both are interesting because in my mind ? c!tommy is the EPITOME of a mentally ill / traumatised seventeen year old. his age plays such a huge part in why he acts Like That lol.

just like c!wilbur’s age sort of ,, puts him in the mindset of governance and the naive belief that “others are corrupted by power, not me though, i’m mature / old enough to handle the responsibility well”, and just like c!dream being twenty is so representative of the twenty-year-old belief of “i can change the world MY way, it’s my responsibility, i alone can carry and change the world” — c!tommy’s worldview is SO indicative of his age.

everything about canon c!tommy reminds me of being sixteen/seventeen and struggling with unsavoury truths along with the horror of trauma — that teenager feeling of the whole world being against you, desperately looking for an older figure to look up to but being viciously independent at the same time, being destroyed when said older figure turns out not to be as good as you thought they were ,,, c!tommy idolises c!wilbur to an unhealthy amount, to the point when he realises how bad c!wilbur is for him, he still struggles to abandon him. there’s something about realising your older brother / role model / person you’ve hero-worshipped for years and wanted to be just like is Shitty that reminds me of being sixteen and realising that the older adults in your life aren’t as infallible as you thought.

being seventeen and believing that you can change the whole world while also hating the world for taking your childhood/enjoyment away from you, that black and white morality because anything else makes your life/trauma so much harder to deal with ,, maybe i just knew too many people at seventeen with this kind of trauma but c!tommy reminds me SO much of me when i was a few years younger ? same world view, same struggle between believing you can change everything and the ‘i’m just sixteen, why the fuck should i’ mentality.

that sort of struggle when everything is falling apart around you, and you want to be the one holding yourself together so you do stupid, childish things (grief, steal, just like you used to when you were happy / free to be a kid) but you also sort of resent people for making you want to be the strong one.

everything about c!tommy screams ‘seventeen’ — a young adult, becoming disillusioned to the world around him, desperately trying to avoid realising black-and-white morality isn’t so black-and-white at all, trying to shoulder the world but wishing you could rewind time to be unburdened by the changing people / world around you.

he’s definitely not a ‘kid’ (12/13), and i still wouldn’t class exile as child abuse, because the dynamic there was different, but it also doesn’t feel right to completely disregard the fact that c!tommy is still ,, seventeen. sixteen, at the time when most of his major arcs were happening. his relationship with c!wilbur, his obsession over the disks, his trauma, the way he views morality + evil, his selflessness vs self centred view of conflict ,, all of it screams ‘teenager’.

he’s just a teenager who was thrust very suddenly into a game of war + politics that escalated way out of his understanding, and he’s still trying to make sense of it all. he doesn’t have all the puzzle pieces and for the first time he’s really aware of that fact, and he’s realised the people he looks up to don’t have all the pieces either. c!tommy is loud mouthed and crude because teenagers often are — but in the same way, teenagers are often just beginning to understand how fucked-up the world can be, and i think c!tommy’s arcs with the revival + las nevadas + wilbur’s short story show him on this journey.

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my blog’s theme is me. a compilation of every single thing i love. every interest. every musing. and everything in between.

Being kind isn't actually about how much shit you can quietly take. You can be kind and still shut down people who attempt to use and manipulate you. Kindness is about treating others well whenever you can, not about how much you're willing to suffer for others. So don't confuse being kind with being a victim and a pushover. No one with your best interests at heart will claim that it's the same thing.

liking or hating c!dream is fine. liking or hating c!tommy is fine. having an emotional attachment to either of them is fine. having biased opinions or an emotional view of the story based on such attachment is fine.

both of them are characters that can be heavily related to or perceived as sympathetic. both of them are characters that are heavily flawed and have hurt people and can be strongly disliked.

no buts. this shouldn't have to be a hot take in this fandom.

this is a fictional storyline based on moral complexity and multiple perspectives. it is meant to make us have different opinions. it is supposed to make us feel things, even if they are often conflicting.

the "fiction affects real life" rule only applies if it affects the way we treat or think of others, and and as far as i can see, it's the people who think they have the moral high ground by liking the "good" characters who repeatedly hurt and harass those who do not.

those are the only people who need to step away in this situation, not the ones who have opinions the majority doesn't share.

none of this should be a hot take in this fandom.

i myself am still a kid but damn, he dream smp community sometimes feels like i'm back in kindergarten.

I’ve been seeing a lot of talk recently about how “c!Techno’s comparison to c!Tommy and Theseus doesn’t make any sense” and “he should’ve compared him to [insert other Greek myth here] during that speech instead!”

And while I see where everyone is coming from, I don’t agree with wanting him to change his comparison and here’s why:

c!Techno’s comparison of c!Tommy and Theseus wasn’t as spot on as he thought it was because c!Techno had the WRONG READ on c!Tommy.

Of course his Theseus comparison was wrong because he was talking about c!Tommy through his own twisted lens. He was so certain that c!Tommy wanted to be “hero” even though c!Tommy never wanted that title.

Because of this I personally wouldn’t want anything changed about the Theseus speech because c!Techno getting the wrong idea of c!Tommy’s motivations was entirely the reason why it happened and why he targeted c!Tommy specifically. It wouldn’t make sense if he compared c!Tommy to something that more accurate fit him during that speech because the whole point is that he has a warped view of who c!Tommy is.

Hey. Kid that I didn't even know existed? You don’t need to buy me chocolate for that. Seriously. It’s fine. It didn't even touch me. nooo. stop. Look it’s nice that you’re going to such lengths to make me feel better, but I don’t feel bad. Okay? Relax. You didn’t do anything. I didn't even know something had happened, until you came over to apologise for it.