Found This Image On My Phone. I Think I Made It But I Do Not Remember The Context And I Hope I Never

i have this problem where i get so weirdly into specific fictional characters that my intensity of emotion about them radiates out into entire franchises and next thing you know im reading entire novels based on star wars or watching the original series of doctor who

it may need to involve figuring out my various undiagnosed health problems but that sounds not fun

going to turn 20 and then have a couple of surgeries. i have not planned out my life after that, i will just Figure It Out i guess

still havent moved. halp

decided to sit down for a minute before going and taking my meds. been sitting on the floor for like two hours now. meds still not taken. mistakes have been made

hey guess what its. two more guys. help me i cannot stop making guys

i have A Lot of characters but i dont really draw or write or anything so theyre mostly used for playing video games. i keep track of them all with a google doc that i do not update enough. im going to have to spend like a week making them all on heroforge sometime.

also i REALLY want to play skyrim as my new guy or my other, slightly less new guy or even a third, only moderately new guy

i hav.. a new guy…….

i have A Lot of characters but i dont really draw or write or anything so theyre mostly used for playing video games. i keep track of them all with a google doc that i do not update enough. im going to have to spend like a week making them all on heroforge sometime.

also i REALLY want to play skyrim as my new guy or my other, slightly less new guy or even a third, only moderately new guy

look i love testosterone a lot, but Fuck do i miss not having pimples

i don,t have tit s.. this fuckin rules..!!!.!!

Doing this because it makes me happy •Ꮂ•. Im making it difficult on all of you though.

1 note- I'll go drink water

10 notes - I'll set alarms to actually care for myself

50 notes - set up a daily productivity system so I stop wasting my time doing nothing.

100 notes - ask my friends to help me buy a skirt

500 notes - get a bra & a whole bunch of other affirming clothing !!!

1k - tell my dad that my gf is also trans

2.5k - ask my dad to address me by my prefferred name & pronouns

5k - try to get therapy/psychologist

10k - girl mode at all times (start actively wearing makeup/clothing/doing voice training around people at all times)

50k - try for HRT (0% chance) (also no guarantee on this one)

Asfgg. It feels surprisingly good to have a bunch of strangers who want me to be happy

I have now set up alarms for eating, waking up, and hygene related stuff. I seriously doubt we get to 500, but this has made me significantly happier •Ꮂ•

Doing some math... 25 notes in 4 hours. 6.25 notes per hour. 8000 hours or 333 days until this hits 50k. Hrt in a year ig.

Um. Wow. Its been a day, and we're almost at 300. Everything 500 & below was supposed to be things I'd do with minimal intervention. But now, we're getting to the scarier stuff. I am very intimidated, but also excited

My gf really badly wanted to be here when I buy some of the clothing, so the skirt will be this week, the rest of the clothing will be when she comes back from vacation

Saying that you're force femming me is so not allowed. This is unfair. You have no right to make me feel the ways Im feelingggg. Stop making me happy.

Welp. I told him about my girlfriend. And things went about as poorly as expected. He said that Im parroting what other people think. Slowly taking little parts of them, and applying them to myself. Specifically, being trans. He didnt even leave it to maybes. He said with certainty that I was copying everyone else. I know 9 trans people total. Only 2 of them are my close friends. Everyone else, Im barely aquaintences with. I should have told him that regardless of whatever theories he has, this has boosted my confidence massively. Slightly less excited for 2.5k notes. At least everything after that is very positive. And at least this lets me talk about my girlfriend for ages. I dont have to say her deadname through gritted teeth. Oh context. He already knows Im trans but was ignoring it.

oops forgot to bring my earplugs upstairs with me! i sure hope nobody starts vacuuming or banging on the roof at 8 in the morning tomorrow