Just Let Me Take A Breath...

“I feel lethal, on the verge of frenzy. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip.”

— Patrick Bateman

Reminiscence

Do you remember...

When you stopped looking at the universe,

With your youthful curiosity and childlike wonder.

When you started repressing your emotions,

And your heart became heavy with burdens.

The day you stopped counting the stars

And you realised even the moon has scars

When you stopped holding people's hands

Figured out every smiling face isn't your friend.

When you started building these walls around you,

So strong, that nothing can ever seep through.

When you discovered the crowd isn't the place you belong,

You crave the moments where you find yourself alone.

Even when you hate the hovering loneliness.

You condone it as a price of the silence.

Do you remember....

The day you grew up?

Do you remember....

The last time you smiled without any care,

The last time you opened your heart to someone,

The last time you let the dreams cloud your vision,

The last time you felt restless from excitements,

The last time you held your love on open palms,

The last time you felt the rush of life in your veins

Do you remember...

The day you stopped living?

Hopes

Are like dust

I try to stay away

Not to let it fog my mind

But they still cling to me

I try to get rid of it,

Every

Last

Particle

But the next day

I end up with more of them

Sprayed in my eyes.

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What can I do for you..

What can I do for you?

Shall I put on my happy mask,

Wear a charming persona

Draw a curved line with my lips?

I can entertain you

Celebrate your day

Won't let a frown

Appear on your face.

I'll ignore the dread filling my heart

Like a shadow in the dark

I'll change the colour of my soul

So it could reflect the light of your own

I can pretend the world is pink

And I'm a person, who's living her dream

Born again

It's been two decades since I was born

With everyday asking myself 'what for?'

With everyday looking up to a stone idol

Expecting answer to the one question I can't utter...

It's been one decade since the realization struck

That all those pleas and questions I sent

Was received by a room full of nothingness

And even if some soul lingers in that darkness

He doesn't care about a girl with a cruel fate...

That whenever I looked up at the sky

With the hope in my heart to find salvation

All along it had nothing to offer

Except darkness and suffocation...

It's been some years since I came to acceptance

That a tree can't move away from its roots

It took some time to put back the pieces

To mend something that has always been broken

To stand up and walk again

I still have the scars and one fragile heart

Unanswered questions and unfulfilled wishes

But now I know, it doesn't make a difference

I can't cut my roots but I can still grow

And that was when,

I was born again.

Hate me

I won't blame you

If you shred me into pieces

I won't blame you

If you skin me alive and spit on my face

I'm a waste of space anyway

Undeserving of your love.

A sinner by birth.

A blackened heart,

That's used to the rage and hatred,

It can't build something so sacred.

So leave while you can

Before I stain you with my rust

Like everything else I touched

And turned it into meagre dust.

My heart sinks with some unknown feeling,

Whenever you look at me

for not being worth more than dirt,

not being worthy of your unswerving love,

For every beautiful moment you give me

my masochistic soul screams from inside

"Don't torture me by giving me hope,

Just hate me like I deserve."

Not Mine❤️

Maybe you weren't the one for me

Maybe we weren't meant to be

But somewhere along the way

You have become a part of me

In those fickle dreams of my teenhood

In the last pages of my notebooks

In the music collection on my first iPod

There still exists a part of you

In that briefest moment of eye contact

And the goofy smile that sped up my heart

In those infinite seconds, you gave me

The simplest form of joy life could impart

I agree, you weren't meant to be mine

But in my soul, you still left an imprint

[a better place]

I like it here

I like the tranquility

The soft glow of moon

And the hidden reality

I like the coolness of

Passing breeze on my skin

And the sound of leaves

Dancing along with it

I like the stars in this world

They don't mock me

Glancing down from their heaven

Here, they watch me

With a knowing smile

As if something good is to happen.

I like this place

I just don't know

How to hold onto it.

You showed me the sky

You showed me the stars

You showed me the boundless universe

And it's endless possibilities

You told me there is a world

Beyond everything I've known

Tales of wonder

And lands of dreams..

And when I gathered my wings

Ready to take the flight

You told me, you don't want me to fly?