Oh Jay Ferin How I Have Missed You So

he’s so beautiful fish man in my head

Dear deities, I just CAN'T get over Charlie's performance in episode 79. I could ramble on and on about how the trials and how emotionally devastating it is... But nothing, NOTHING beats Gillion's monologue.

It's the way it starts off being quiet and Gillion's voice slowly creeps up in volume. The way it builds until the first "I hate you" and then EVERYTHING comes out, like the floodgates were just opened and he physically can't stop. It's painful for him to recall his memories as a child, failing over and over again. It's so agonising for him to describe his banishment, which must be so loaded with conflicting emotions. When he asks to be failed as Gillion Tidestrider, it's DESPERATE. And the fucking closing line...

"I'm sorry I couldn't be the chosen one you wanted. I'm not even the chosen one I wanted."

It's so cathartic yet it's not triumphant. Because Gillion has finally given himself some more room to express his own emotions after episode upon episode upon EPISODE of repressing it, making this a very satisfying moment!!! But uh, yeah, when you examine everything about the scenario and Gillion's own wording it's far from being happy. And I just think that's very neat because not every story takes that kind of care with their characters - they'll just expect characters to get over their trauma in one big hurdle and that's very much not how trauma works...

So anyhow just another messy tangent about the trials because I'm a Gillion fan so of course I'm gonna obsess over the segment that's just Gillion Tidestrider mental breakdown. Love this campaign. :)) My tormented blorbo. :))))

Hi jrwi tumblr, i’m bananabel! I am multifandom but i mostly draw jrwi at the moment. Have some older art 👍

ITS SO HIM but he also made like wolf life let’s plays no one watched

based on this post by @plantwriting !!!

i imagine before he did ghost hunting his channel was all gacha life mmvs and the like. he abandoned the channel until he got his first emf reader at 15 and it all went downhill from there

(also, do we ever meet any of the other kids in the unwitness protection program?? i couldnt remember that happening so i just made up some designs)

maybe I shouldn’t be listening to jrwi out loud in the break room at work, I realize, as gillion tidestrider says “big daddy blast” in a booming voice

im a pink accent gillion truther

JUST ROLL WITH IIUTTTTTT

I talk way to much abt jrwi that when i was ranting abt it to my friend and my other friend came up to us and asked “ Are you talking about JRWI? “

sounds about right

every time I think I'm normal about riptide I see a clip or fanart and start howling like a wild animal and attack whatever thing is nearest to me

“it sears with unimaginable pain, a pain that makes it so hard to even move, you can’t breathe…you start thinking, ‘im going to die’”

happy one year since riptide!!🎉🎉 (<—she’s coping)

missing riptide so bad it is bringing me physical pain im rewatching all my favs,, including the back to zero arc :3c and ep 114 with the navy base and doppelgilly because it’s my favorite episode ever and u should rewatch it rn

would you like to help me cope and give me your favorite episodes to rewatch? meybe perhaps.. please…