Albatross Shenanigans (i Am Recovering From The Latest Episodes)

Dear deities, I just CAN'T get over Charlie's performance in episode 79. I could ramble on and on about how the trials and how emotionally devastating it is... But nothing, NOTHING beats Gillion's monologue.

It's the way it starts off being quiet and Gillion's voice slowly creeps up in volume. The way it builds until the first "I hate you" and then EVERYTHING comes out, like the floodgates were just opened and he physically can't stop. It's painful for him to recall his memories as a child, failing over and over again. It's so agonising for him to describe his banishment, which must be so loaded with conflicting emotions. When he asks to be failed as Gillion Tidestrider, it's DESPERATE. And the fucking closing line...

"I'm sorry I couldn't be the chosen one you wanted. I'm not even the chosen one I wanted."

It's so cathartic yet it's not triumphant. Because Gillion has finally given himself some more room to express his own emotions after episode upon episode upon EPISODE of repressing it, making this a very satisfying moment!!! But uh, yeah, when you examine everything about the scenario and Gillion's own wording it's far from being happy. And I just think that's very neat because not every story takes that kind of care with their characters - they'll just expect characters to get over their trauma in one big hurdle and that's very much not how trauma works...

So anyhow just another messy tangent about the trials because I'm a Gillion fan so of course I'm gonna obsess over the segment that's just Gillion Tidestrider mental breakdown. Love this campaign. :)) My tormented blorbo. :))))

on that bucky barnes brainrot except I can’t draw humans. marvel fandom forgive me

maybe I shouldn’t be listening to jrwi out loud in the break room at work, I realize, as gillion tidestrider says “big daddy blast” in a booming voice

WHAT

These are the two canonical Jay Ferin shoe references.

Why is she in heels???

WHY IS SHE IN HEELS????

Listen I get that Jay is a marksman and an archer, and very rarely fights in close quarters, and I also understand that these aren't stiletto height, and the platforms are a reasonable width, but you cannot tell me that Jay took down her father, won the paramount tournament, travelled to a different realm and broke into like... At least three military buildings, and wore heels the whole time???

It's a MASSIVE slay, of course. But surely she doesn't wear these casually?

ADDING THIS TO MY GILLY HEADCANON LIST

“Gillion has violent synesthesia and nothing makes sense”

That was a bit when Chip was reading Gill’s mind with the bracelets, but it’s such an interesting idea!!

Hi jrwi tumblr, i’m bananabel! I am multifandom but i mostly draw jrwi at the moment. Have some older art 👍

How many more times can I draw these three before they finally come home, I'm desperate

I need to get ahold of myself because I almost just impulse-bought a life-size cardboard cutout of gillion tidestrider

the parallels between jay and gillion's backstories are so important to me. being told your whole life how youre going to grow into something you dont have any control over and constantly training for it. being oppressed by a title, a name, something that determines your every action. having no choice over your future, your autonomy.

and yet when they leave, when theyre exposed to the rest of the world, they see how the environment they grew up in was flawed. what they learned was from such a severe perspective, and having the space to grow and change let them see the true beauty of the world.

anyways listen to the song fish in a birdcage