True Story

Amazing

It's amazing how you go through your life meeting people loving some friends and acquaintances. For me it was always easy everyone liked me but love wise i suck. I always have just settled for who ever was available this ended up getting me married for 14 years to a straight up bitch but I stayed till she cheated then it was over. Then ended up with a woman with two kids which I feel in love with. It was great I know had a family off drugs and settled down. But she couldn't stay clean and two weeks after we separated she overdosed. I fell off the wagon again and decided just to stay single and do what ever I wanted and who. Then a girl showed up who had been over with a friend once before. She was amazing she would come hang out in my shop and talk about everything under the sun. Then it started I was falling for her and hard but one problem she was married. Then one night it happened I was actually scared of her I knew she would break me but I couldn't resist it felt so right. Then a few days later her husband kicked her out. God I was so happy to see her and I moved her right in. This was around 19 months ago. Which have been the greatest and happiest of my life. Then around 3 months ago it started to unravel because I was pushing for her to get divorced which didn't go as I thought it would. We split up I had never felt so much pain and hurt but luckily I got her back and her divorce is in the works. I don't know what will become of us I'm still madly in love with her but I'm not so sure she still fills the same I'm hoping it's just her bring nervous about leaving that life and starting a new chapter with me. I fill in my heart she's the one and has been we where just late meeting. The one thing im 100% about is she's the one I want to grow old with and I hope and pray that she fills the same way.

Remember

I remember you racing to my house after you dropped your kids off at school know you race from our house to pick them up and take them.God I miss those days we where so in love or at least I was and I believe you where too. I'm so sorry things didn't turn out right but I figured as much nothing ever goes my way and that's why I was the way I was when we meet. See after so many years of everything going bad you just give up and stay numb. Sorry for getting you to stay even though it was the best year of my life. But I also know it caused alot of hurt for you and I'm sorry for that. I love you and always will. You was my light in a world without sun. But it's time to stop the games go home to your perfect world

Death 😓

Tell me,

What is the purpose of life? because I don’t know anymore.

Scared

Sorry but not sorry. Don't confuse your feelings and mine. I've never once doubted us or been scared of you and the boys. I'm the one who has pushed for 16 months so just because you got cold feet and still had feelings for your husband don't try to blame me. I'm not the one running or scared to move forward with y'all. So you always remember that you go back to him ok you stay ok even better but I'm not the scared one. You do what's right for you but don't you dare put me through what I just went through again at least be upfront and just say what and who you want.That choice is up to you!!!!!

Sometimes you just have to let it be what it is because stressing and getting mad doesn't help a damn thing only makes it worse. I'm figuring this out more and more everyday still doesn't make it any easier though, but it is what it is. Things suck sometimes in those times just try to find something to occupy your time. Because at the end of the day when your the only one who really cares make yourself happy 😎 Let the goodtimes roll

For you @sunandwhiskey there's nothing I wouldn't do even if you don't feel the same way

“Some people bring out the worst in you, others bring out the best, and then there are those remarkably rare, addictive ones who bring out the most. Of everything. They make you feel so alive that you’d follow them straight into hell…”

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Karen Marie Moning (via quotemadness)

And not even blink once walking through the fire…