K.C. Come Back To My House I'll Give This To You

My New Years resolution is to stop wondering if I’m good enough for other people and start wondering if they’re good enough for me.

“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.”

— Sylvia Plath

@sunandwhiskey

“I woke frightened because I had a dream of you dying and I was left with a empty bed. For awhile, I thought you were actually going to die… How naive of me to mistake the sound of death knocking at my doorsteps for you walking out the door and leaving my life.”

- excerpt from a book I’ll never write #128 // @loveactivist

Light

You where the sun in my darkness, the torch to my pipe, the oxygen to my lungs,and the one to finally make my heart beat,you did so many good things for me in a world I thought was so harsh so painful and just hell for me. You made it into heaven your the one that made my life whole, complete, the one I knew in my new found heart would be there till my last breath to love me and hold me and keep the sun shining. No one ever touched me in the heart felt way you did and made me fill so much love. Then my world turned grey and in what seemed like a second went to fully burning hell. Know when I see you the sparkle in your eye is gone and so was my light know I'm worse off then before and even though your back it's so hard. I miss you when your gone but when I'm with you I'm angry I fill as if your not my sun your my darkness holding my sun prisoner. Till I explode which causes me even more anger not because e fight but because I fight with you. My light my everything it's like a nightmare I can't wake up from I just want to wake up to the sun I had and loved so much. But I'm so afraid she's gone for eternity or she will come back only to go dark again. All I can do is pray for her to come back or pray I go on to the next life for without sun I shall not grow anymore only starve to death looking for my light. And as bad as it hurts I think my only choice is to pray for the next life for I can't handle this pain any longer my heart has has almost stopped and will be completely in the following days💔😭

Love

Such a small word and used so many times when it shouldn't be. I know this all to well because I was one of the worst at it but not deliberately I thought it was love till around 18 months ago when I met her. She lit a fire inside my heart like nothing I'd ever felt. And I thought I did her the same for around 14 months then the truth all came out and left me shattered and broken. Guess that's what happens when you fall in love with a married woman yet here we are still together since her husband didn't want her back even though she tried I became her second choice and I took it. I was thinking things would change like she had promised they would yet they didn't are once flaming love has now became a chared pile of ruble we still love each other or at least I do but there was a change a big one the girl that use to laugh and smile with those big blue eyes was now just a broken woman broken just like me her husband had cut her out just like she did me and every time I look at her I see the sadness of a failed marriage and a broken relationship I'll always love her and only time will tell if we as a couple will survive it and if not hopefully we can still be friends but then again ex's don't make good friends they only hinder you from moving on with your life and can very well cause you to miss out on something great. Girl no matter what I'll always love you and you will always be my sexy thang 😓😓😗

Amazing how everything works in life😊

“The easiest lies to tell are the ones you want to be true.”

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Holly Black

“If I date you, the goal is to marry you. Build with you. Grow with you. I’m not dating you just to pass time, I see potential in you. I don’t fear commitment. I fear wasting my time.”

-anonymous