sketch request 🦕
Reading Jean’s perspective really is an experience bc he’ll call the love of his life “the golden captain” and then call Neil Josten a malfunctioning cretin, an unfulfilled promise, an abominable cockroach and his misplaced forever partner within two pages
There’s something in my reflection
People take Andrew "clocking" Jeremy to mean Andrew instantly knew he was gay, but I don't think that's right. Because of Jeremy's scandal, it's pretty common knowledge that he is gay. Everyone already knows it. I'm sure Andrew knew that as well.
I think what Andrew clocked is that Jeremy has it bad for Jean and vice versa. He could have cut through that tension with a butter knife.
Thinking about how often Jean quotes Neil to himself to feel safe. Thinking about Jean saying to Jeremy you don’t have to trust him because I do. Thinking of how Nora said if Neil had been a raven when he was supposed to be he could have never left Jean alone even after Kevin did. Thinking about Neil and his ‘one of us has to survive this, and it’s going to be him’ mentality taking root and growing into everyone he cares about. Including Jean. Thinking about misplaced forever partners. Thinking about two kids who had no one but each other in every version of the story except for the one we got, so we see this fractured longing version instead and they’re so much better off, but there’s something missing too.