Marie Squidsisters Has No Chill

little doodle of grian :3

Everytime I look at it it gets better.

The title

The mispelled kills

Scar riding Grian.

Season 1 finale:

Season 2 finale:

Season 3 finale:

duuuude…. this is so smart

okay im entering the debate on what celestial symbol scar is. I saw someone said "Scars" and i am standing by that. I'm gonna quote them on this, they said "The sun, the moon, the stars, and mars... and yet. we're nothing without scars"

and this. is so damn accurate. Because scar has had such a hard time throughout the seasons.

in 3rd life, he stuck by grian to the end, only to be forced to fight and lose.

only having one consistent ally in LL and constantly trying to get back to grian and the southlands, which eventually caused his demise multiple times

in double life, forced to team up with grian, thinking that it'd be like the old days in 3L, only to be backstabbed and passed over for someone better.

in limited life, he's constantly chasing the title of favorite son, ignoring grian all the while, except when he's trying to hurt grian, like he's attempting to get grian to feel what he felt through all those seasons.

and then in secret life. in secret life, both him and grian were without allies 80% of the time. for scar to be forced to play the villian and actually commit to it. time and time again. in the finale, to finally trust someone, only to betray them at the very end.

it's like coming full circle. Grian and Scar fighting together in 3L and to turn on each other in the end. Grian dying by falling off a cliff. Then in Secret Life, for Scar and Pearl (pearl, who is reffered to as siblings with grian on occasion!!) to fight together in the finale, only for scar to punch her off a cliff. It's him reliving his scars and finally taking his victory and choosing, not forced to die.

he carried all his scars with him, season after season. Scar's celestial symbol just has to be Scars.

it sends me when rad fems tell me not to call myself a dyke because im a trans man. yeah tell that to my mom, sister, ex best friend's mom AND brother, countless strangers and nearly every classmate i've ever had. see if they would've listened and stopped calling me a dyke. my mom was the first person to ever call me a dyke- she used the term bulldyke, no less. i wasn't even a teenager yet when she started calling me a bulldyke and butch dyke. i think maybe, just maybe, i'm allowed to reclaim that slur. but who am i to know, i'm only the person who lived my experience and got called that slur for the first 21 years of my life. somehow i'm the problem, here, and not the decades of transphobes and lesbophobes attacking my person.

dyke then, dyke now; i'm a big fat fucking transmasc bulldyke and it's Mr. Dyke to you.

(responding to this reblog) i use platonic scarian because i like to ship scarian as a platonic/queerplatonic relationship, and not just friends (like desert duo suggests)

did anyone else get double life flashbacks… holy shit

rest in peace, jellie.

o7

I just got a wild and long ask about Character AI and my only comment is that I still hate generative AI with a burning passion. It's bad for the environment (Generative AI uses a LOT of power and water to run), trained on stolen data from artists/writers without their consent to make cheap knockoffs, and isn't as fun as bothering my best friend to roleplay some stupid characters in our DMs.

While on the subject of Character AI, I've seen people make AI bots based on me. I do NOT consent to have ANY bots made to imitate me or any of my characters. There are no exceptions to this rule, I will report these bots and get them taken down. It makes me incredibly uncomfortable that people are making bots based on me and my personality. I'm a real person. Please treat me like one.

acknowledging this- i feel so so bad for making bdubs skin light as fuck 😭 i changed it as fast as i possibly could, i was being super stupid when drawing him and wasnt using any references at all, that was completely on me, i am so sorry T.T

(repost bcz i made a mistake in the previous version)

i finally finished

after like- nearly a month of drawing these goobers, im finally done :D i love them so much <333

One thing that makes me sad to see in the communities of people with disorders that cause highly volatile, intense or irrational emotions is the common sentiment that such emotions cannot be safely expressed to the person that they are about without hurting them.

People seem to feel trapped in not speaking to others about their feelings, making them stew in them alone while the feelings get worse and worse, or letting them explode out at the person in a hurtful fashion.

I wanted to share what works for me. This may not work in every relationship that you have, but it will at least be a way for you to communicate your emotions and know that you are not doing anything wrong by doing do.

The core of this is basically I statements. It sounds very simple and like it should not work, but it is very helpful. It is a bit more complicated than that and I will get into it but tldr; is just make sure you are phrasing things like 'i felt x' or 'i have urges to y' rather than to just say x or y.

For example, I have told my partner that I felt like I hated them and I have urges to cut them off. By phrasing it in this way, they can see that I am having a split, am recognizing that I am having a split, and am trying to communicate with them in a healthy way. Even if I am having negative thoughts about them, by phrasing it as an I statement I am indicating my desire to work through it. This would land very differently if I just said 'I hate you, I am cutting you off' which is a statement of fact and a life altering decision. They would not attempt to comfort me in this situation, they would instead say 'okay bye i guess. fuck you also'

It can feel like it would be terrible to tell them I even felt like I hated them because I worry they would take it as a statement of fact. But by phrasing it as a feeling, they are able to recognize it for what it is and approach me with compassion. It helps if, before you have a split on a person, you explain this to them, especially if they are unfamiliar with disorders that cause splitting. This can help prepare them to read what you are saying correctly as an attempt to communicate rather than a statement of fact.

Doing this can be difficult when you are gripped by a very strong emotion. What I like to do is to write it all down, exactly as it feels. Write in the notes of your phone or in a journal 'I hate you' and whatever else you are feeling without censoring yourself or trying to make an I statement. Then, you can go back over what you wrote and pick out what things you need to talk about, and rephrase it in a constructive manner. Or, if you are close enough to a person that you are both okay with this, you can ask them if it is okay to show them the raw emotions you wrote, with the important disclaimer of you telling them this is how you feel in the moment, and not objective fact.

You do not have to be alone with your emotions. It is okay to talk about your big emotions, even irrational ones, even ones that feel mean. It is just important that when you do, you say it in a way that acknowledges them as emotions and not fact, because presenting it as fact will hurt. Presenting it as the emotions that they are can help the other person to help you, and hopefully you will both be closer at the end, even if the conversation is a difficult one to have.