You Quite Literally Do Not Have Fucking Time To Screw Up And Binge.. If You Want To Be Hot And Skinny

it’s worth it in the end for me,

idc abt being pretty and skinny for people to like me anymore,

But for me to not hate myself as much, to not avoid mirrors and cameras, where oversized clothes, miss out on moments because I can’t bear for people to see what my body has become,

For me it’s worth it in the end

To hate myself a little less

I usually get addicted to literally anything that distracts me from the fact that I exist

tw meanspø bc I really need it

you want to loose weight yet you still manage to go over your calorie limit. you say you’ll start again tomorrow as if you even believe in yourself. Just as you started getting told you’re loosing weight you gain it all back in one binge. What’s wrong with you? Do you want to stay fat and ugly forever? The choice is yours to be thin and beautiful or to be fat and ugly and slowly kill yourself you fat monster. Remember thin is beautiful.

I’m so fucking stressed abt the math test which led to the bad fight yesterday after the program

I saw this skinny girl at the airport and it literally made me wanna die like if I had self control that would’ve already been me

Meanspo (Personal)

Oh, yeah. Cause that’s attractive. Stuffing your face like a fucking pig. That’s definitely going to get them to like you. Why don’t you try, I don’t know, not eating?! You know you’d be so much skinnier if you’d stop eating all that crap. Put down the fucking junk food. It does nothing for you except make you fatter.

“But it tastes good,” you cry. Well you know what else tastes good? The taste of victory, of being thin. Of being able to stretch out your hand and feel like a fairy as you look at your long, slender fingers. Right now, don’t you feel like a pig? Who the hell is going to love you like that? You might as well just throw out all of those cute clothes you’ve been saving for the day you reach your goal weight. Might as well go stock up on baggy hoodies and clothes even larger than what you’ve already got. Because if you keep this up, all you’re going to do is gain and gain and gain.

I thought you said this time was going to be different. I thought you said you were actually going to do it this time. That you were going to be pretty. You can get there, I know it. But first you have to put down the food and try.

We need to start frantically and obsessively reading books in less than 24 hours again

Idk how I’m gonna get through this why is everything resurfacing I want to forget I want to forget nothing bad has happened nothing bad has happened stop

when I’m restricting, I am cleaner

I dress better

I walk taller

I eat on pretty dishes

I take care of my hair

I do my nails

I keep my house tidy

I’m more patient

more kind

I feel as if I’m glowing

floating

Ever get the sudden realization that you are real? That the entity that's been drifting through life is actually a real person who interacts with the real world?

For just how long has it all been passing by like this? At what point did I get left behind? No. It's too late to come back to this place. Too late to connect.

It's time to close your eyes again.