I Hate You Majority Of The Bates Motel Fandom. Said With No Love

actually so sad that there are no analyses on jerma dollhouse …. aside from the 2 on youtube i saw but they talk more about the general themes of the story / bringing theater to twitch in a creative and successful way. haven’t seen anything on the characters and i’m kinda starved for that rn! i think i’m too stupid to try my hand at an analysis, but a character study on jerma or emilia or even someone like jebediah would be so fun methinks. whether that would be ignoring chat’s involvement in the whole thing or making it a part of the analysis … would be fun to throw that out the window though and treat the characters ( mainly jerma ) as their own people who act on things themselves rather than being told or forced to. like why is jerma so flirty. is this learned behavior? a defense mechanism?? why is he like that??? it puts him in the most awkward, uncomfortable situations and i wanna know WHY !! again shoving chat to the back of my mind here, just pretending jerma has complete self-control and acts on his own whims … why does he act like that.

obviously i’m taking this stream / story way too seriously but i don’t care it’s what i do!! treating comedy and crack as seriously as possible is what i find the most fun in life. and jerma’s story here is a mixture of hilarious and tragic, something i desperately want to analyze, but again, not sure if i necessarily have the capabilities to. though there would be certain things i’d want to comment on, such as : jerma and emilia’s relationship, dying and escaping death ( then ruining your life by adding on some extra years ), jerma’s friendships and interactions with others, and the crushing weight jerma always seems to carry on his shoulders while hiding it all from the world at the very same time. just a few things i really enjoyed during the stream and would love to talk about if possible. hell, maybe i will sometime, if i can actually get my act together and analyze these characters, plots, and themes. not saying it’ll all be correct or canon, but it would be fun! bringing a bit of reality in.

anyway there’s some of my thoughts on jerma dollhouse and how much it already means to me …

HELLO XPHILESBLR i have returned!!!!!!!!!!!

experimented a lot with this one and i hope u guys like it :)

This is how my brain chooses a favorite character in literally any media

somehow my ass managed to figure out a very precise detail from the diane perry tape... was listening through and realized it's a fucking radio session! so i did some digging trying to figure out when and where this was broadcasted, but as usual, couldn't find jack. then i came across this moment in the video where the host and anton are talking about a live bjm show that's being played at the dna lounge with spike 1000 as the opener "on tuesday." so i was like, hm, what's the dna lounge? looked it up and it's this night club in san francisco with live music, which is obvs where bjm was based out of, so it's a hit. searched up dna lounge and brian jonestown massacre together and found this calendar page on their website, with all of the past shows from 1985-1999... turns out bjm DID play with spike 1000 as the opener on august 30, 1994 which was a tuesday! i was so happy when i found this, i could've fucking kissed the person who made this page and compiled all of the past shows, this is why archiving is so damn important. so jwz from san francisco, you're my fucking guy. anyway, so basically the diane perry tape was recorded at MOST a week before that show at the dna lounge, i just don't know exactly what date and i'll probably keep digging and see if i can figure out what the radio station was or who the host was. i'm gonna figure this shit out.

also i did uncover some new evidence concerning "fade" from pol-pot's pleasure penthouse... randomly stumbled upon this chinese website that listed the length of every song on the album and fade was there! coming in at 3:19, so my theory is that this song is more akin to the cures (which have singing and are more so actual songs) rather than the other fades (which are purely instrumental). i couldn't figure out how to create an account though, unfortunately. so fade is still lost and seems to exist nowhere else on the internet except this random chinese website. what the fuck even is my life.

anyway so yeah!! more bjm things i uncovered and i'm proud of my detective work. it's always something when it comes to this band

you guys think you like bjm but you don’t 🤍 not like me. i just needed you guys to know that for your own sake. do not even attempt to love them like i do, for you will only fail in the end

THIS IS NOT A DRILL !!!! a new season of wwyd is coming out on feb 18. suddenly life is worth living again

BJM MONTH BEGINS TOMORROW!!! what is bjm month you may ask? well for the past two years i have listened to the brian jonestown massacre the most in july so i've dubbed it bjm month. i am still heavily obsessed with this band and listen to them all the time, there's not a day that goes by i don't think about them. may have to talk about my top songs or albums or something, i just need to make sure to do something special for this month! show my appreciation for this band and how much they've changed my life. hard to believe it's been 2 years... actually my 2 year anniversary of listening to them was YESTERDAY. didn't even realize until now. june 29, 2021... wow. first laid ears on anemone, then pish, then drained. what a way to start off my bjm era. clearly my interest was most caught by fingertips and vad hande med dem, and so it all began. still thanking the spotify gods and my own interest for this, who would i even be now without bjm.

but! yeah, considering i'm their biggest fan ( don't even bother arguing with me on this <3 ) i think i owe bjm some rants and raves so look forward to that. and i am going to talk about my very precise detective work when it comes to this band. there are new things i have discovered. they will be shared.

Playing with my hyper realistic Jerma doll

ugh i miss my bjm era. so much.