And What If I Dropped My Hyperfixation-induced Ethan Hunt Character Study From Last Year….? What Then?

mr. eko, may you protect us from the smoke. amen

i have achieved my nanowrimo goal! 20k words !!!! cannot believe it

16k/20k words for nanowrimo <3 cannot believe this actually. am i going to achieve a writing goal ?!?

Do you really think all this is an accident – that we, a group of strangers survived, many of us with just superficial injuries? Do you think we crashed on this place by coincidence – especially, this place? We were brought here for a purpose, for a reason, all of us. Each one of us was brought here for a reason.

21, 22, 29, 31, & 39 for the music meme ... yes i sent you a buttload of them it's my god given right

this took me a second to get to but uh, hi <3 THANKS FOR THE QUESTIONS

21. what’s the weirdest song title you can think of right now

it’s gotta be smth bjm related … lots of random ass song names thanks to anton. #1 lucky kitty. when i was yesterday. servo. nailing honey to the bee. pish. before and afterland. weird stuff! i love it

22. tell me one song you’d blast on a motorcycle while driving one

ummm probably anemone by bjm<3 that song is such a vibe no matter WHAT

29. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MUSICAL)?????

hamilton!!! i still have a soft spot for this musical and i absolutely love the music. esp non-stop, yorktown, and satisfied. what fuckin great songs

31. are you a lyric analyzer or do you just listen for fun 🫣

it’s always a process for me! i never analyze lyrics at first, i simply listen for fun and because i like the song’s music. if i get into the song then i’ll look up the lyrics, but usually i just learn lyrics naturally by listening to the song over and over again lol. and then i’ll think about the lyrics i’ve memorized and i’m like…. oh. THAT’S what the song is about. soooo that’s usually how it goes for me

i don’t have any good pics for 39 so just know that i love music more than life itself 🤍

THANKS AGAIN FOR THE QUESTIONS

Bates Motel   ↳ “The Cord” (5.10) | April 24, 2017

This is how it ends, isn’t it?

gonna play mouthwashing with some friends … could be my new fandom… this could cure me

reading all of this umbrella academy s4 hate and criticism is so surreal … what happened to this show.. s1 stays one of my fav seasons of a show of all time but it got this bad ??? really?? i watched most of s2 and did NOT vibe so stopped watching long ago. now i just want to know wtf happened

ao3 wrapped 2022 ( questions not by me, just some i found but wanted to answer bc why not! )

1. how many words have you written this year?

not all of this is on ao3, but calculating it up, i’ve written about 67,000 words this year! specifically: 2k from the haunting of sunshine girl, about 10k from born in blue, 20k for a wip band story, 10k from russian roulette, 7k combined for some unrelated brian stuff, 2k for a lost story, 3k for a hannibal/prodigal son crossover, 7k combined for bates motel stuff, 3k for another lost post-canon story, 2k for a scooby doo story, 1k for a there will be blood fic, aaaand…i think that’s it! a lot more than i thought, that’s for sure lol.

2. how many works did you publish this year?

in total, i published 12 works! in order of date, they are: russian roulette, the new and improved security system, born in blue, my 6 shoegaze fics, change (in the house of flies), broken by bloodied hands, and end song. most of these were published on my side ao3 account rather than my main.

3. what work are you most proud of?

out of fics i’ve written this year, i think i’ve got to say russian roulette. it was a really fun story to write and i’m proud of some of the research i did into it, as well as my motivation and pushing myself to complete it! i rarely complete fics, so it’s a welcome change and makes me really proud of the fic and myself!

4. what work of yours has the most hits?

i’ve got a secret harry potter fic from 2020 that has 17,000 hits as of now!

5. what work of yours got more feedback than expected?

definitely my there will be blood fic. i wasn’t expecting a whole lot of feedback but i got a good amount of praise for it, so that made me really happy!

6. favorite title you’ve used

oooo, this is a hard one…i’d have to say “shoegaze,” only because it fits with the story’s themes so well and has a double meaning! it’s the title of my original band story, and i’ll go ahead and explain the meaning. shoegaze is a genre of music that’s prominent in the story as well as an inspiration for it; this is the genre of music the band plays in the book. the double meaning is that the main character is often gazing at his shoes / looking down because of the abuse he’s suffering at the hands of another character. i came up with this on a whim but loved the idea!

7. if you used song lyrics, which artists’s songs did you pull from the most?

ha, this is an easy one. not song lyrics necessarily, but all of the work titles from my series “shoegaze” are song titles from a band called the brian jonestown massacre. they’re my favorite band and the main inspiration for the story, so i had to do them some justice of course! besides them, i’d say for song lyrics, probably alex g!

8. pairing you wrote the most for this year?

i don’t usually write romance, usually focusing on gen stories so that the audience can interpret it any way they want, but a pairing i wrote the most is probably neil mccormick & brian lackey! again, gen pairing, can be seen as pre-slash or romantic though. i also wrote about the same amount of words for john watson & sherlock holmes, so either one really. as for original stuff, definitely my characters knox ford/silas lowell.

9. favorite pairing you wrote for this year?

gonna have to say neil mccormick & brian lackey. those two are just so fun and i can’t get enough of their relationship, and i think i’ve got a pretty good grasp on them as characters.

10. what work was the quickest to write?

the quickest work i finished was my there will be blood fic; i wrote it in about an hour. my quickest, longest finished work is russian roulette ; it took me about a week and a half to finish! as i started it around new years 2021 and finished it on january 10, 2022. my quickest, longest work that isn’t completed is born in blue - i wrote the first 20k words in 5 days.

11. what work took you the longest to write?

most of them. my longest-running current fic is between the haunting of sunshine girl (started in 2019, has 187k words) and bound to stars (started in 2016, has around 90k words).

12. how many wips do you have in your docs for next year?

oh god, this question pains me. i’ve got about 24 wips in my docs that need to be completed / worked on…

13. what’s your longest work of the year?

shoegaze! coming out to about 20k words written. my longest completed work is russian roulette, at 10k words.

14. what’s your shortest work of the year?

my there will be blood story, coming out to around 1k words.

15. what wip are you taking into next year with you?

like, all of them.

16. what’s your most common “additional tags” tag?

unsurprisingly, this would be ‘angst.’

17. your favorite character to write this year?

that’s a tough call between brian lackey and my original character, knox ford. both are super fun to write and have a lot of angst behind them…i honestly don’t think i can choose!

18. the character that gave you the most trouble writing this year?

definitely will graham. trying to beat him into submission with my words doesn’t work - he’s a hard character to get down. his complexities make him nearly impossible for me to truly say, “yeah, that’s what he’d do.” so, will graham, i love you, but you suck to write.

19. what’s one pairing you want to explore next year?

oooo…another difficult question. i definitely want to keep exploring brian lackey & neil mccormick, probably the most, only because i love them so much. but knox ford/silas lowell is also a really interesting one to explore, so maybe them as well!

20. which work of yours have you reread the most?

without a doubt, russian roulette.

21. how many kudos in total did you get this year?

adding it all up, i got 321 kudos this year!

22. which work has the most comments?

russian roulette! coming out to 9 comments in total.

23. did you do any collaborative works this year?

unfortunately not, but i’ve really wanted to! maybe someday i can do a collab with another writer, it’s just a matter of finding someone who wants to lol. and shares a fandom with me, of course.

24. did you write any gifts this year?

no, i didn’t.

25. did you receive any gifts this year?

nope!

26. what’s your most common category?

gen! like i said earlier, i don’t write a whole lot of pairings mainly because i either have a hard time fully shipping the characters, like them in a more platonic way, and/or want the audience to be able to make their own choice about the characters’ relationship. that doesn’t mean i haven’t written romance, though!

27. what do you listen to while writing?

i either have playlists for the characters i’m writing, or i have one of my own playlists i’m listening to that i feel fits the vibe of the story. i’ve listened to the brian jonestown massacre a lot, and also the mysterious skin soundtrack. maybe a little too much.

28. favorite work you wrote this year?

as i’m so proud of it, it would have to be russian roulette! that’s a bit of a hard choice though.

29. most bookmarked fandom?

i replaced this question because the original one, “what line/passage is your favorite this year”, was too difficult. so! my most bookmarked fandom is the avengers/mcu, actually. merlin is a close second, and daredevil comes in third!

30. biggest surprise while writing this year?

probably how much i can write when angst is involved. it didn’t take me that long to finish 20k words for my shoegaze book, and that was all angst / outsider pov stuff. which is my favorite. so i think that!

well, there’s my ao3 2022 wrapped! kind of nostalgic looking back on everything i’ve written this year ; i’ll have to try my hand at this again in 2023!

i love bjm. i love bjm. i love bjm. i love bjm. i love them so much like in ways i cannot even explain or describe, my heart is so full of love for them and i’m afraid nothing will ever compare. in fact i just looked and the first time i ever listened to bjm was june 29 of 2021. NINE DAYS …. in nine days i will have had this hyperfixation for three years. goddamn.