Its The Soulmate Thing

bouta meet ppl the old fashioned way via the library

WHISPER OF THE HEART (1995)

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(insp.)

In WoS, Kim Namwoon is a character created for and based indirectly off of Kim Dokja. All characters of WoS are, of course part of this category in some shape or form, but Kim Namwoon most of all. He is, to the child Dokja, a source of inspiration, and what KidJa considers to be cool.

knw is chuuni because kidja is chuuni (a middle schooler through and through). knw doesn't care about adults or social status. he's not bullied. he has dyed hair and piercings and doesn't give a shit about anything. he's brash, unafraid to speak his mind, and confident. self-assured. he looks out for himself. he doesn't need to depend on anyone.

To a young Dokja, Yoo Joonghyuk was a father and older brother figure. He's strong and charismatic and the protagonist. Kim Dokja knew, better than anyone, that yjh was a character, that he could never truly be like yjh. Saying, "I'm Yoo Joonghyuk," is escapism. It's a refusal of reality. But Kim Namwoon? Kim Namwoon was someone that he could be; the sidekick in the shadows of the protagonist's light.

Of course, as Kim Dokja grew older, he began to feel ashamed of what was, essentially, an idealistic self-insert of what his younger self thought to be cool. In the fight against the Delusional Demon, kdj reveals that he resents Kim Namwoon for being a reflection of his past self.

Now, who else does KDJ resent? Who does he refuse to acknowledge?

Jang Hayoung.

Jang Hayoung is the second protagonist of WoS. She's cool and strong and enthusiastic and good at talking to people and better looking than yjh and and and—

And. She's a character that kdj actively asked tls123 to create. Possibly, the only character that he asked hsy to create. kdj says it himself—he's not comfortable being anything other than a reader. He has Opinions, sure, but he very rarely says how he wanted WoS to go (aside from, in the midst of yjh's suffering, asking whether yjh could have a happy ending). JHY is another ideal, the person the older Kim Dokja wishes he could be. Except for one thing. She's a girl.

JHY is, I would argue, a reflection of KDJ's own Internalised transphobia. He refused to perceive JHY as female because to do so would open up a can of worms that he's too repressed to deal with. If he accepts that JHY is female, then what does that mean for his own perception of what an ideal is? This is also mirrored by his own refusal to acknowledge that the Punisher is YJH right up until YJH transforms in front of him, despite everyone else pointing out that....it was kind of obvious.

Despite knowing that JHY would be a strong addition to KDC, she isn't part of KDJ's inner circle. JHY is sidelined for much of the novel, and she mentions that she's often excluded. Why? BC kdj tries his best to avoid her. Because he doesn't want to acknowledge her. Becauseeeeee she's a reflection of his past self's ideals.

qed.

You can, of course, choose to read kdj's transphobia as purely surface level, but you know. It's cooler my way 😎

freud

i swear to god if i ever hear someone call someone daddy, I will shove you into Freuds grave

Can asexuals feel lust for life? What about bloodlust? Lust for power? Lust to run wild? Or does nothing have power over you?

I can't speak for other aces but personally I constantly experience bloodlust

now i can join kakashi from accounting class

“I have all these OCs! But no story…”

bruh

make a fighting game

PLS 

im trying to go to sleep but i cannotttttt stop thinking about this and laughing

Spider-Verse fanfiction idea I’ll never get around to writing:

Teacher: Congratulations, Miles. Your paper on multi-dimensional physics has attracted a TON of interest from our Science Mentorship partners. We’ve found you a really wonderful Science Mentor who’s going to be helping you prepare your Youth Science Innovators presentation this week.

Miles: Oh, wow, my parents are gonna be so proud.

Teacher: So, let me introduce you to Dr. Olivia Octavius. Thank you, doctor, for being part of this mentorship program.

Liv: It’s my pleasure, I’m just happy I can help inspire the science community of tomorrow.

Miles: … D:

Important additions:

- Liv is 100% legitimately invested in being a good Science Mentor. After all, today’s young scientists are tomorrow’s reality-warping coworkers.

- Miles’s paper was an edited version of his research on small, stable inter-dimensional portals, so he can hang out with Gwen/get multiverse help against major threats.

- Sometimes, Miles forgets to be scared or angry at Doc Ock and starts actually learning from her, except she inevitably proposes something super unethical and then unconvincingly adds “…theoretically, of course” and Miles starts planning how to counter whatever doom-bot she’s just come up with as Spider-Man.

- May Parker has been helping Miles with spider-gadgets and general science stuff after school. At some point, she and Liv have an angry shouting match over who gets science-custody of their science-nephew.

- Miles has to figure out how to turn down a very plush internship offer from Octavius at the end of the week. His parents insist he take it, he fails to come up with a good reason not to that doesn’t involve Spider-Man knowledge. His parents have Liv over for dinner, she speaks highly of their son and his bright future. The family loves her.

- When Liv eventually figures out his secret identity, she goes full punch-clock villain and keeps mentoring Miles while fighting Spider-Man’s attempts to stop her Bad Idea Science.

one of my fics is FINALLY done!

Turnabout Dishwasher is COMPLETE!

author: zuzsenpai (detectivegumshoepals on tumblr)

32 chapters; 422,600 words (AO3 word count not accurate b/c of the images)

main pairings: narumitsu, klapollo, blackmadhi

summary: Trucy is leaving on a post-graduation trip around the world, leaving Phoenix more alone than he’s been in a long time. Before she leaves, Trucy asks her Uncle Miles to keep her father company while she’s gone. And Edgeworth takes his job very seriously. Meanwhile, Ray Shields reminisces on Miles’ growth over the many years they’ve known each other. On the other side of the world, Apollo and Nahyuta will be working with some new, but very familiar prosecutors in Khura’in.

This fic is special! It’s very dialogue-heavy, and uses Ace Attorney game style text boxes in place of dialogue. Check it out for yourself now that it’s done! I’m so proud of it and I’m so grateful for everyone who followed it along the way! I hope any new readers enjoy it!!

Note: occasionally the text box images temporarily don’t load, and you might see broken images or giant white spaces. If this happens, never fear! Go HERE for PDF backups with fully loaded images, and go HERE if you would rather read text only (no images).

enemy to lovers but this time they are still enemies but in the nuisance kind of way