From-winded-to-wellness - A Winning Loser

I know this post isn’t going to go with the usual vibe I want for my blog, but I don’t have anywhere else to say this. So my apologies if it’s a bit of a downer. Just keep scrolling. We’ll be back to our regularly scheduled programming later. This is mostly for me. But anyway…

I’ve been feeling so incredibly lonely lately.

I can’t talk about these feelings with anyone anymore. It’s pointless. I’ve realized that people just don’t want to hear it. Which I totally understand. If you’re experiencing all of these happy milestones (career, love, health, family, etc), the last thing you’d probably want to listen to is an unhappy person who is struggling with the very things you’re thriving in. It probably brings you down. But I really don’t have anyone left at this point to talk to and who would understand. I’m so fucking unhappy. And I feel so fucking unloveable.

I know I’m not a terrible person but sometimes it feels like I am. Otherwise, why is my life like this?

Maybe it’s karma from a previous life that I don’t even remember. Maybe I, unknowingly, crossed a voodoo witch or something. I don’t really know. All I know is, I really want this feeling to go away.

No amount of therapy, self love, going outside and “touching grass,” etc seems to help. I feel like such a shell of a human being right now. I’m so tired and lost.

For any mutuals who see this, if you’ve ever felt this way, has it gotten better? What helped you? Because despite doing everything you’re “supposed to,” I don’t feel any better and things haven’t changed at all for me.

Some days I fear things will never get better for me.

I keep holding onto hope but it’s hard.

It’s even harder when you have to go through something like this alone, because you don’t want to bother anyone anymore.

That’s all I guess…

Until later.

I’m not kidding

You deserve it too, you know? Determined ghost believes it! ❤

Chibird store | Positive pin club | Webtoon

If you want to truly succeed, stop chasing other people’s version of success. In fact, stop “chasing” success at all.

Start aligning into yourself and take the inspired action from there, remembering that resting and healing is often what we need most. From there, true abundance, freedom and fulfillment will emerge with time.

it is! x

I belong in Wealthy places and Wealthy spaces

I deserve to have financial security

It feels so right to be secure in my abundance

I am living the life I have always desired

I am full of gratitude that I am a divine feminine Goddess walking this earth

Everything flows for me in perfect timing and in the most beautiful ways

I am meant for ease, softness, power, and greatness all in one

As a highly sensitive person, I deserve comfort and peace as my lifestyle

Everything that I want, wants me