Adulthood Is Realising No One Cares About You And The Show Must Go On

I’m so alone all of time I don’t have anyone. Maybe it’s me this time. Maybe it is my fault. I’m trying not to think of the worst thing but I am. I miss twisting the pipe. I miss the dope in my rig. It’s hard to go back to the life I left behind bc I’m the only one left every one else left. They were tired of waiting on me. I get it now.

i said a swear once and next thing you know i was doing meth

Tumblr is the place where I get to cry and be a bitch so with that being said I am in SO MUCH fucking pain I hate my hep c I’m crying everyday it’s killing me and I’m throwing up everyday it’s torture and I’m only 20 years old. I can barely do my shifts at work. I’m so weak I can’t barely eat I can’t keep anything down. I have been throwing up everyday for over a year now and man it’s wearing on me now. I can’t take this I feel another relapse I don’t want to I know it will make it worse but I’m doing all of the right things but still sick everyday. I am skin and bones and it’s effevtnmy me mentally so bad as well. I just feel so empty literally... I know drugs put me here but I still want them. I want to inform people on harm reduction and safe use so someone else won’t go through the pain I’m going through. Maybe if this doesn’t kill me I’ll start a blog about that... any ways bye now. No one is going to read this lol

I’m built like the Geico lizard

“Some walks you have to take alone.”

— Suzanne Collins, Mockingjay

push me onto the bed and climb on top of me

Older pic but better pic lol