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i said a swear once and next thing you know i was doing meth

Miss collecting these pipes I broke this one tho

I’m so alone all of time I don’t have anyone. Maybe it’s me this time. Maybe it is my fault. I’m trying not to think of the worst thing but I am. I miss twisting the pipe. I miss the dope in my rig. It’s hard to go back to the life I left behind bc I’m the only one left every one else left. They were tired of waiting on me. I get it now.

Percs and xansss

note to everyone

push me onto the bed and climb on top of me

Things my addiction took from me

• The ability to say “no”

• Willingness to let another person help me

• Basic every day things; eating, bathing, brushing my teeth, sleeping

• Countless positive opportunities

• People- only the good ones though

• Self awareness

• Self control

• Self respect

• Financial stability

• My positivity

• Willingness to live and to try

• Any sense of safety or security

• Trust- I lost people’s trust and I stopped trusting people

• Healthy relationships

• The ability to express my emotions

• Daily routine

• Quality of life

• Other people’s respect for me

• A clear mind

• A healthy body

• My sanity

• My willingness to do anything unless I am under the influence

• The ability to recognize myself

• The ability to recognize who’s healthy for me and who isn’t.