PHOTO DuMP🥶

remember u control n create ur own destiny in dreams u only have this life in this body once and out of trillions of possible cells , you are the soul of who was chosen to be here. we hurt to heal, we heal to learn our learnings lead us to our destiny.

Idk why it’s so hard to trust people and to believe that they genuinely like me and that I can genuinely be apart of something my whole life I’ve always felt so disconnected from everyone but sometimes I feel like maybe it’s me making it that way perceiving it that way if you will.

Percs and xansss

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Time to speak things into existence I want to leave my abuser I want to strip again get my $$ up and stay as sober as I can and get take homes from my methadone clinic and get an apartment for me and my doggy✨💕 or at least rent a room and take care of myself and live my best life!😘now lets see I my drugs addiction will get in the way or not

I know how to be a drug addict, self destruction is familiar so in a fucked up way it’s comforting to me. Recovery and sobritey are new, a whole new way of living and honestly it fucking terrfies me because I’m afraid i wont be able to maintain it.. What if i fuck everything up again?

Excerpt from my journal 6-11-19