Fuck-julian - "I Can't Sleep Id Rather Die"

im just a little guy who wants to tell them that

I love them. I would love them even if we were just friends with no romance i would still love her. she just reaches into my soul and pulls out the peices that need to see the sun and as the diety they are they shine her celestial light upon it. She makes me feel seen. she makes me feel open and wanted and I want them to feel the same.

His name is Merwil Gutiérrez, and the US government kidnapped him.

Anthropology is wild. Like, let me sit in on this one tribe or nation's most intimate ritual and then report back to my students in another country with a completely opposite cultural viewpoint and report my findings in the most clinical manner that completely disconnects from the original spiritual intent of the ceremony.

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THEY WEREN’T FEEDING YOU. THEY WERE FILING YOU DOWN.

A Blacksite Literature™ Invocation

(You didn’t “just now” realize. You always knew. You were just too loyal to act.)

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Were they helping you?

Or were they hollowing you?

Did their “constructive criticism”

ever actually build anything?

Or was it just

their insecurity in disguise,

masquerading as mentorship?

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You sat there.

Nodding.

Taking notes.

Biting your tongue while they dressed your spirit in chains

and called it refinement.

> “You’re almost there,” they said.

“But tone it down. Be more likeable. Less intense.”

They were never sharpening you.

They were blunting the blade they feared might cut through their glass castles.

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And now?

You’re staring at your ceiling again.

Mouth closed. Eyes open.

Playing old conversations on repeat

in the Rolodex of your survival.

You remember their tone.

Their smile.

The way they looked at you like

you were dangerous…

but needed taming.

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And suddenly—

you realize the answer.

But it’s not sudden, is it?

Your soul always knew.

It screamed during the meeting.

It clenched in your gut after the call.

It twisted your chest after the compliment that felt like a blade.

You ignored it

because you were loyal.

Because you were humble.

Because you wanted to earn what you were born already holding.

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But now?

Now you know:

> They weren’t elevating you.

They were disarming you.

One word at a time.

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So pick up your voice.

And speak like a weapon

they’ll never dull again.

> This is not the year you bow.

This is the year you remember who the fuck tried to shrink you — and why.

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PENIS

mmmmmmmmmmm fall and winter.

Alright.

It's the end of July. I'm over Summer.

I'm ready for:

Crunchy leaves

Cool weather

Light rain hitting the window

Rain boots

Pumpkin patches

Halloween

The Nightmare Before Christmas

Coraline

Over The Garden Wall

Cinnamon candles

Thanksgiving

Apple pie

Christmas

Snow

Klaus (Netflix)

Onesie pajamas

Hot chocolate

Heavy blankets

The Spongebob Christmas episode

A Year Without a Santa Claus

How The Grinch Stole Christmas

Ice skating

Christmas music (Nat King Cole, Michael Buble, Frank Sinatra, Bing Crosby)

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its so mean and bad and we shouldn't bash dead people but it is funny to bash a bad system when it was perpetuated by colonists

I think now that queens dead they should have her stuffed and put on display in Cairo for the next 150 years.

one time i was just randomly talking abt spiders georg to myself and my mom is like wtf is that adn i ended up having to explain to her what memes were and how this particular set of memes made a whole group of poeple understand outliers and statistics easier and then she goes ahhh i see, i coulda used a spiders goerg when i was in college.

“average person eats 3 spiders a year” factoid actualy just statistical error. average person eats 0 spiders per year. Spiders Georg, who lives in cave & eats over 10,000 each day, is an outlier adn should not have been counted

it sucks you in and spits you out a shell of the morals and ethics you once were

Hey.

Hey, look me in the eyes.

*grabs you by the collar like I’m gonna give you a 1930’s mob style shakedown*

Don’t Go Back To TikTok.

DON’T.

I get that you hunger for content. I get that it was a fun/interesting/horrifying time that brought you entertainment.

The fun times of Pre-Ban TikTok are gone.

It can, and most certainly WILL, be used as a MAGA propaganda machine.

Donny The Insufferable Prick is going to shove his piss-and-shit-covered fingies into the TikTok eggsalad. DO NOT EAT THE PISS SALAD.

TikTok is already trying to glaze him as “the savior of the app”, meaning he more than likely has them in his pocket now.

This means:

• A constant stream of propaganda.

• An erasure of pro-queer/POC/marginalized content.

• A monitoring of your content for collection by the fascist pigs in the government.

• Censoring of ANY form of Mutual Aid and praxis that isn’t sucking off the New Regime.

And many more consequences.

So please, DO NOT USE TIKTOK.

100 Dialogue Tags You Can Use Instead of “Said”

For the writers struggling to rid themselves of the classic ‘said’. Some are repeated in different categories since they fit multiple ones (but those are counted once so it adds up to 100 new words). 

1. Neutral Tags 

Straightforward and unobtrusive dialogue tags: 

Added, Replied, Stated, Remarked, Responded, Observed, Acknowledged, Commented, Noted, Voiced, Expressed, Shared, Answered, Mentioned, Declared.

2. Questioning Tags 

Curious, interrogative dialogue tags:

Asked, Queried, Wondered, Probed, Inquired, Requested, Pondered, Demanded, Challenged, Interjected, Investigated, Countered, Snapped, Pleaded, Insisted.

3. Emotive Tags 

Emotional dialogue tags:

Exclaimed, Shouted, Sobbed, Whispered, Cried, Hissed, Gasped, Laughed, Screamed, Stammered, Wailed, Murmured, Snarled, Choked, Barked.

4. Descriptive Tags 

Insightful, tonal dialogue tags: 

Muttered, Mumbled, Yelled, Uttered, Roared, Bellowed, Drawled, Spoke, Shrieked, Boomed, Snapped, Groaned, Rasped, Purred, Croaked.

5. Action-Oriented Tags 

Movement-based dialogue tags: 

Announced, Admitted, Interrupted, Joked, Suggested, Offered, Explained, Repeated, Advised, Warned, Agreed, Confirmed, Ordered, Reassured, Stated.

6. Conflict Tags 

Argumentative, defiant dialogue tags:

Argued, Snapped, Retorted, Rebuked, Disputed, Objected, Contested, Barked, Protested, Countered, Growled, Scoffed, Sneered, Challenged, Huffed.

7. Agreement Tags 

Understanding, compliant dialogue tags: 

Agreed, Assented, Nodded, Confirmed, Replied, Conceded, Acknowledged, Accepted, Affirmed, Yielded, Supported, Echoed, Consented, Promised, Concurred.

8. Disagreement Tags 

Resistant, defiant dialogue tags: 

Denied, Disagreed, Refused, Argued, Contradicted, Insisted, Protested, Objected, Rejected, Declined, Countered, Challenged, Snubbed, Dismissed, Rebuked.

9. Confused Tags 

Hesitant, uncertain dialogue tags:

Stammered, Hesitated, Fumbled, Babbled, Mumbled, Faltered, Stumbled, Wondered, Pondered, Stuttered, Blurted, Doubted, Confessed, Vacillated.

10. Surprise Tags

Shock-inducing dialogue tags:

Gasped, Stunned, Exclaimed, Blurted, Wondered, Staggered, Marvelled, Breathed, Recoiled, Jumped, Yelped, Shrieked, Stammered.

Note: everyone is entitled to their own opinion. No I am NOT telling people to abandon said and use these. Yes I understand that said is often good enough, but sometimes you WANT to draw attention to how the character is speaking. If you think adding an action/movement to your dialogue is 'good enough' hate to break it to you but that ruins immersion much more than a casual 'mumbled'. And for the last time: this is just a resource list, CALM DOWN. Hope that covers all the annoyingly redundant replies :)

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