Idk If This Makes Sense To Me Or Not

stab everyone, stab the whole cast at this point, I feel like they should all experience getting a puncture wound at some point in time

ok don't think about it just vote

keeping it appropriately vague to not spoil anything, it is aftg related, so just roll with it :]

one of the best things about having aftg books on kindle is when it comes to writing oc lore I can just grab the kindle go to the books and quickly scan through for the information I need (I say this as I need fo get the kindle without having my mum be mad that I'm stealing it again, I also have to read ad or listen to tsc so woooo reasons) but yeah elio lore will drop with his character desgin soon probably later tonight, or later tomorrow or on Friday idk yet his lore has changed alot to what it used to be so like neil may or may not be trans and may or may not be the parent who cares at this point (its my I'm who cares so me trying to figure out a way to actively have it make sense that elio does have a legal birth certificate where his surename is wesninski)

PREACH BAMBAM

like I can get how the line can get taken out of context but like it was the 2000s from what I remember from cousins I've had tell me it wasn't all that great for lgbtq+ people, plus what Kevin said does make sense from the state of it being a sport team and a college 1 thingy at that as well as the fact that they'd be in the public eye and under scrutiny for things like ik we don't fully know how the exy fans reacted to Neil going for riko but like we can just tell that from what the raven fans did kost likely no one liked him.

and like "it's easier to remain heterosexual" the whole wording of that is like to me he doesn't care what you do with other people about your personal relationships however going I the public eye it would be easy to play off being straight like going with paparazzi today they are invasive with what they do to people in the public eye like imagine the backlash from homophobic people if they find out one of their favourite footballers/soccer players are gay it wouldn't go down well, so Kevin was being very caring on suggesting it he wasn't demanding that neil remain straight Kevin couldn't really care less about Neil's swing situation he wasn't really raised to care relationships anyway If I remember correctly so yeah.

Kevin was being a good teammate and giving a suggestion that he believes/believed (irk if it changed) would help neil in the long run plus he says this like before finding out who neil is (if I recall correctly) so he was saying it while also having hopes that neil would go pro

biggest pet peeve rn is people taking "it's easier to remain heterosexual" entirely out of context. no, Kevin was not on his high horse about the fact that he's straight. no, he was not telling Neil that being gay is wrong. i am holding you so gently by the shoulders.

"you know better than anyone how prejudiced people can be" (to nicky) literally said not 2 seconds after the first line

he's just looking out for him cuz he knows that his career is gonna be that much harder if he dates a man like i don't-

First why remind me of this

second it's not fucking wrong which sucks and hurts a lot more, but it was most likely another full week yk.

I'm sorry for that

Friendly reminder that when Andrew got fucking assaulted, he didn't care what was done to him but instead his first thought was to pull Aaron in closer and make sure he wasn't harmed in any form or another and I just—

ight guys it's time for me to continue my reread of the foxhole court I left off on page 12 because I already know what's gonna happen and shit but along of it from the first two books I've forgotten cuz haven't listened to em since 2018-2019 but you lot bet I listened to the last one multiple times, so what I've read so far the first meet hit scene where Andrew slams a racket into Neil's gut like ugh love the violence also can we talk about Kevin's intro scene cuz "I'm not good enough to play with a champion" and Kevin just like hell yeah you ain't bitch byut he gotta act cool so "true but irrelevant" like he knows he's the shit love him for that will update when I finish chapter one and or finish or get halfway through chapter 2

deciding to just edit this one as I doubt anyone has seen it just but just finished chapter one and my god Neil repeating I'm sorry fucked me uup a bit but Andrews line "too good to play with us, too good to ride with us?" like I adore this fucker and his remarks it's just pure gold.

to add to this the fact that neil most likely had the lingering knowledge that he wouldn't make it to twenty like even if he never met the foxes or Andrew, also to add onto the andrew thing he and aaron never would have started to fix their relationship, jean wouldn't have ever left the nest and would have most likely committed (don't quote men on this next part I haven't read tsc) because he promised Kevin he wouldn't try but Kevin's dead so.

also just think about how wymack would never find out that Kevin was his son, he would never know the son he should have raised

Do you ever think about the fact, that if Riko had actually killed Kevin instead of just breaking his hand that Neil would never have met Andrew. and that Neil would fade from the world without a soul to remember him, and Andrew would forever be a monster to everyone who knew him. Or are you normal??

my nickname by my close friends is ghost (I get called it more than my name) and I do random things (i got rid of the h because it sounds more like how I say if)

what made u guys pick ur url's !

see I agree I need to see this played out in person like get me on a court with 8 other people to play a fake sport that's just took up my life

If I ever meet 8+ people who have read AFTG and are just as obsessed with it, I'm gonna find an abandoned basketball court and we're going to play mini Exy with whatever we can, okay? I want to see how it would function in real life. I want to see how much skill these people have. I mean, I need to know how good Andrew is that he blocks almost every goal and Kevin can play with a bad hand and scores like it's no one's business and Neil just gets past his marks and scores like. How. I gotta know.

I'm a hands on learner what can I say?

the hate I have for achilles like do I have tsoa yes have I read it yes do I like it yes its a good read do I like achilles out of that book and in it no because I read to much mythology before the book I just can't see him the way so many fans of the book do like he isn't someone ro idolised I feel so much for troilus he went somewhere he knew to be safe and was killed in his father's own temple NO WONDER APOLLO WANTED ACHILLES DEAD I WOULD TO achilles deserved to die a worse death then what he got and I'm not sorry for saying it

Greek Mythology PSA

As much as I love Achilles and Patroclus from TSOA: Achilles is NOT someone to idolize.

The story of Troilus was an extreme reason: when he turned 20, he would supposedly touch the wall of Troy and it would save this. Athena told Achilles this and he went to ambushed Troilus by the well, in fact pulling him by the hair off his horse.

But Troilus was extremely beautiful- so much so that he was said to be the child of Apollo. Achilles was overcome with lust and tried to make advances.

Troilus escaped his grasp and ran to his fathers temple for shelter. There Achilles caught him again, had his way, and beheaded him.

ACHILLES WAS A GROWN MAN AND TROILUS WAS SAID TO BE A CHILD, MOST SPECULATED TO BE AROUND 12.

Was he a great warrior? Yeah. Was he a murder, r**ist, and p3do? Also yes.

Why are there so little stories about Apollo and Hyacinthus?

this makes it so much more funnier like abby there like be sure to take breaks for using your binder neil just confused

I saw someone posting how Transmasc Neil makes sense to read, cause he is not taking his shirt of in front of people and has a different name now and he is terrified of people finding out his „real“ name. But you know what would be even funnier, that all the foxes suspect Neil being Transmasc and drop hints that they support him and Neil is just terrified that he is found out or just really confused.

Neil: Has anyone seen my Binder?

Matt:*internally screaming: Neil trusts me with his secret* No.. sorry but i can help searching for it.

Neil: Thanks i really really need to find it and— why are you looking in th closet?

Matt: *a few hours later* I’m sorry L I can’t find it. But we could order a new one online no fret.

Neil; *confused* I am not sad that my binder is gone. I need the stuff in the binder.

Matt:…

Neil:…

Renee: I changed my name after I was adopted by my Foster Mom, I built myself a new identity.

Neil: *Oh God, does she know about my Past?*

Renee: I mean our situations aren’t really comparable, but, I understand to some degree.

Neil: *Holy, she definitely knows*

Renee; Neil, is a handsome name, you picked good.

Neil: *ready to bolt*

Allison: Neil. I can’t stand seeing you in the same clothes anymore. I understand that those clothes are comfortable and help you hide—

Neil: *screaming internally, oh god she knows.*

Allison: but you are going shopping with me. I managed to make Seth look like a prince. I can help you too.

Neil:.. what?

Nicky: Neil, handsome you are so manly. One of the manliest person I know.

Neil: Okay… *takes a step backwards*

Nicky: You don’t have to feel uncomfortable changing with us. No one will judge you.

Neil: *Does he know about my scars*

Nicky: but don’t worry if you’re not ready. I understand, really i do. I wont out you.

Neil: *out me? But i am not in anything*

Some of the foxes are talking:

Neil: What’s going on?

Andrew: Oh they are talking how you Identify as a Unicorn.

Neil:… are you on your meds again? What.

Andrew: *looks Neil in the eyes* You can be a Unicorn even without a horn.

Neil: *confused*

Andrew: *walking away* *nailed it*