Wow That's Deep... And I Agree With You... I Guess That's Why People Create So Many AUs... So They Can

Wow that's deep... and I agree with you... I guess that's why people create so many AUs... So they can create their own version of the story and keep the fun in their own way...

I'm always afraid of what D.eltarune would change or add the canon of everything in UT.

Even if my theory turned out to be canon, (sans is from Deltarune) I would still feel dissapointed.

We fear the unknown, but we are enticed to it. I prefer his story to be consisted of multiple choices.

Because, when it's all revealed. Well.. that's it. No more discussions, no more arguing. You can't imagine anything else other than the truth. (Well you can, but you'd have to really block canon out in your head)

There's a character in Bojack Horseman a cartoon series, named Diane.

She always dreamed about a belle styled library in her house. It's a place in her mind that kept her in peace.

One day her husband (now eggs husband), decided to give her a giant library as a big surprise, and she became upset.

"Why would you do this? It's too much. I didn't want it like this"

"Like, what?"

"I don't know-- I'm sorry this is great- I'm sorry-- Why would you think I would like this?"

"You've told me that this was what you always dreamed of?"

"This was my fantasy, something that belonged to me."

..

I never truly relate to her. I can somewhat understand that it was frustrating, especially when she told her husband that she hated big gestures.

Until, I got older.

You know FNAF? Five nights at freddys? You probably never heard of it. It was a small indie game made by Scott Cawthon.

Since 12 years old, I've always wanted to know all the secrets of Five nights at Freddys. I wanted to know what had happened to the children. I always thought whatever is going on in Scott's head, must be more entertaining than mine.. right?

There is now 5+ games and a lot of books that covered the story of FNAF.

The story became convoluted, and at this point the whole game is just a puzzle for theorist, instead of a horror game. (That's where the fun is at anyways)

I always thought it was probably the writing. That it was awful and lack any consistent narrative, and well.. it kinda is- but even then..

I just like how simple, and to the point it was, back in the day.

I became aware.. the most fun I ever had with the FNAF story.. was just, theory craft, it was me filling in the gaps, of whatever Scott Cawthon made.

It's the same with Undertale, wondering if Sans is truly Ness, what he was like outside the interractions with Frisk, what Papyrus backstory even was. I just.. wanted to know more, I want to consume more.

....

A mistake I made is that I held Scott to such a high standard. I mean, (I guess it was because I was 12 years old and don't know any better, and he's an adult.)

If he had made such a masterpiece as fnaf 1, then he's definitely a genius, right?

Bottom line, it was all a projection from the very beginning. He, and Toby Fox was just 'myself' in a way. (I'll get to that in a bit.)

In my opinion it's a mistake to think other people that they are 'geniuses'. Maybe they're clever, sure. But 'genius', would meant that they know something 'more', and well- that is technically true for 12 year old me, (because what do children know?) Now that I'm older, I guess I realised all of us are not so.. different. They just have more experience than I do.

While you can praise an artist for their work, their art is still human, still flawed. No matter how polished it was, the extra care and attention to it, there is going to be spots they've missed. I mean Toby apparently wanted to add Undyne breaking her armor when she fell off to save MK, but he just.. forgot. He can't just update the game with it, when tons of people had already seen it.

And as much as UT was a masterpiece, there's going to be people who thinks undertale sucks, because, well.. both parties are human.

So back onto the topic of theory crafting.

I wanted more of FNAF. I want to consume more. More more more. Until I realised. It was better off left alone. Maybe at fnaf 2.

After my experience of FNAF, the simple fact that it was.. well simple, had my imagination create much more scarier things than anyone could come up with.

I realise the "fear of the unknown" can also be manipulated to be "the enticing mystery of the unknown".

The reason why its so fun, is because well.. there is no answer to it.

Because the answer can be personalised.

...

I realised, I never actually really wanted to know more of the story. I never wanted for my theory to be canon.

No. What I really wanted was.. someone to validate what I had thought.

I wanted to 'know' the creator. So it felt like I "get them" that I "understood" their work, that I am interpertint them in the right way. Oh how close I am to the canon.

Because for some reason, it "validated" my thoughts.

Admitting this had meant, I have a parasocial relationship with creators.

I guess everyone does.

Can you know a person by what they create?

In a way, every work of art is somewhat parasocial, since it is a one way conversation, sure, it's still conversation, you are technically hearing what they had to say, but you could never reply back, instead, you can only discuss with people who have experienced it. While the author moved on.

Whatever games they have made. Is just an echo of the creators voice. Unfortunately, their voice can get distorted, misinterpret or polished by themselves.

(I told you I'm going to get back to this.) What we see in these games is sort of them, but a distorted version that we create in our minds. If the creator had touch my souls with their work.. they must be like me, right?

I mean take a look at you, for example, yes you.

What do you know about me? I mean I could be lying about my own story to fit my narrative. I could be faking my voice. You would never know. You can never check. Are you sure I am really 'me'?

The simple answer is: you can't know anyone. It's a lonely thought. But, it's true. What you see right now. Is only an interpertation of me.

That interpertation is coming from you.

This topic is covered in such great detail by the beginners guide the game, Trust me this game really broke me. Every time I try to tell what this game is about. It felt like I didn't actually the message of this game. It's just so- paradoxical...

"can you really know a person from their creation?" That's what the game is trying to answer.

And the answer that I interpret from them is.. You can't. Because there is a barrier.

But its not all parasocial, is it? You get something out of it after all.

They are still talking to you in a linear script.

You get the experience. You get to feel something they want you to feel. You get a community, or maybe you don't feel alone in that moment.

Maybe thats whats more important in art. Just the experience itself..

As a creator.. everytime I comment on something on what I made, it feels super weird.

Because.. Whatever you all have imagined is much more entertaining, and scarier FOR YOU, and specifically for YOU. I've seen messages of your theories and it was amazing. I can't tell if its true or canon or not canon, but it's amazing, because I had made you feel something. I made you take action to type those words on how you felt. You poured your heart out to me. You commented on what you had felt. Its just, very very interesting.

I don't want you to "get" me. I don't want you to "understand". (It does feel validating when you try to or do.) But that's not the point of art.

I want you to have a personal experience.

It's just like whatever I come up on the spot will end up more entertaining, scary, heartbreaking in that moment. Sometimes I also like when fic became discontinued, because I can write my own ending in my head.

Not because Toby, you, others, and I are not capable of something amazing.

It was just the fact it was personalised.

Art is breakable.

My story is not "my" story anymore when its out there. It's everyone elses.

....

Though, I am ready to accept that Toby would have a canon backstory for Sans.

Sure I'll be dissapointed. I'd be happy its canon too i guess.. It's his IP after all.

Deep down I know.. I know it would end all the theories. It would end all the fun. It would mean I have to re-think of everything in the series.

I can't just- remove canon out of my head. If i were selfish, (forgive me) I'd probably only give clues but.. just enough that it is considered canon, but also not enough that it isn't.

But, everything has an END. It's a part of change. So.. I'll accept whatever is going to happen. I just prefer it to have multiple choices.