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sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.
i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.
so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.
today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.
and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.
so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.
@moth-fanatic all I see is moths now
[Day 91]
-Clown Face Moth-
Idalus herois
-Boisduval’s Urania Moth-
Urania boisduvalii
-Mother Of Pearl Moth-
Patania ruralis
cannot stop thinking about that tweet that's like "elliot page is a terrible actor, I hoped he might get better now that he's living his truth but unfortunately he still sucks." just a really funny sentiment overall. they can accept a dude transing his gender but draw the line at bad acting. trans inclusive radical haterism.
Ruminating this dick
He who holds the orb holds it
Autistic people sometimes struggle with apologizing, because they're never taught how to do it the right way.
When autistic people are taught how to apologize, they're often taught that the sincerity of the apology is determined by how well they can hide their disability.
Not enough eye contact = insincere apology
Struggling to phrase it = insincere apology
Wrong tone = insincere apology
Asking questions to figure out how to prevent doing it again = insincere apology (and "arguing" or "making excuses")
Meanwhile, neurotypical people can continue their patterns while still being considered sincere by these standards.
I’m stra- WRONG! Faggot bomb!! 💥💥🏳️🌈💥🏳️🌈🚬🏳️🌈🏳️🌈💥🫃🏳️🌈👨❤️👨🚬🚬🏳️🌈💥
ADHD pro tip: Use psychological warfare on yourself.
For example, in order to do long tasks, like folding laundry, I put on the Mario Hat:
The main feature of the Mario hat is that my headset does not fit over it, so when The Bees™ try to put me back in front of the screen, the headset issue forces me to remember why I put the Mario hat on, and back to the task I go
As a bonus, the Mario hat is also a very clear indicator to my housemates that business is getting done, and they have learned not to distract me when I'm wearing the "goofy-ass cosplay hat"
It's not stupid if it works.