"Tell Me, What Is It You Plan To Do / With Your One Wild And Precious Life?"

I wanna write. I really don't know why it's hard for me to write these days, it's just that I read so many great works and I tend to subconsciously compare myself then I start thinking 'this isn't good enough' and I get demotivated like a fragile little bitch

Problem is, if I don't write, there's no way it's gonna get any better. I'm better off writing shit then writing nothing at all. Writing the most amateurish poor sentence ever will get me closer to being good at writing than not doing anything ever will, so why am I so afraid to try?

I need to learn to be okay with writing 'bad' writing. I need to be okay with not being automatically great at something, because that's not how masterful writers are made.

Skilled writers, good writers come to be that way because they continue without stopping. They write, scratch, write, write some more and scratch some more and give up and do it over and over again.

They're good not because they haven't written anything bad. They're good because writing something bad did not stop them.

Not because they haven't fail. But because they pushed through despite failure.

Me, trying to write some sweet, fluff story with a happy ending to heal my soul: and then they hugged and-

My brain:

Forget characters who would die for their loves ones, I need characters who would live for their loves ones. Characters who are so deep in shit mentally yet they try to be better for them, can't look good but tries for them, yearns death now chases it away from them and think 'maybe life is worth living because of them'.

Characters who once couldn't even get out of bed, claws their way out of the brink of death just to live another day and see their loved ones. They think living is a pain in the ass but just the scent of their loved ones make it worth it.

To go on and try to live. A kind of love that sparks life. To say 'I live for you'

"I won't leave you in the dark" and "I'll find my way to light. To you."

That's insane

get out of a depressive rut and get into a depressive slut

Ahem-

"how foolish..."

the best thing about creating is you get to create :) unfortunately the worst thing about creating is that you have to.. create