“fuck You, My Child Is Fine-”

Yeah having infinite alternative universes where the same two people love each other no matter the world no matter the time is nice but have you considered dedicating your entire existence to find the only universe where your loved one is happy, even if they're going to hate you in that universe, even if you yourself have to die in that universe, because their happiness always came before everything else? Because you never mattered as long as they were happy? Have you considered it??????

“why would you write fics for small, unpopular fandoms? you’re not gonna reach that many hits in fandoms not many people know about” ?? because I’m not writing fics for hits or kudos, I’m writing them for me because these characters are my blorbos and I have so many ideas, so much thoughts about them that my brain might explode if I don’t write them out.

Dazai Osamu and the Dark Era - Light Novel vs Anime Discrepancies

As enjoyable as the anime adaptation may be, I urge everyone to read the light novel itself!! The anime glossed over many, many important scenes which are plenty enjoyable, but one thing I feel the novel captures a lot better are Oda’s thoughts, which definitely help you understand his (slightly odd) way of thinking. Here’s just a few of the many scenes you’d have missed out on if you only watch the anime:

Prologue + Chapter 1

How Dazai injured himself on tofu.

Dazai’s cooking and his miraculous soups.

Oda’s extremely detailed breakfast routine.

Dazai’s interaction with Hirotsu.

Dazai making an order for coffee and his highly sweet tooth.

The shooter was around three meters away from Dazai, compared to the anime which was near point blank (even I could have shot Dazai at that distance without training, please.) Also, Odasaku’s thoughts about Dazai’s expression. In comparison, he’s a lot more vocal about asking Dazai to stop talking after having his hand forced.

Chapter 2

The fight with the kids.

Odasaku’s vacuum cleaner passage about Dazai. Well worth the read.

Ango commenting that Dazai and Oda stink of rotten tsukudani.

Chapter 3

At one point, Akutagawa had Gide tied up. Also, he punched him.

Oda and Gide’s first meeting, in which Oda describes Gide as handsome.

Gide has grey eyes.

Dazai proposes to arrange Gide and Odasaku’s wedding.

Odasaku’s inner thoughts when the Buraiha trio break up are also well worth a read.

Chapter 4

The chase scene when Odasaku goes for the orphans. This was moved to episode 15, but keeping this would have been more dramatic imo.

The utter resignation in Odasaku’s thoughts are much, much grimmer in the novel. Also, Odasaku picks up smoking again.

His fight with the Mimic soldiers was cut short. Just a little, though.

Odasaku smiles when he fights Gide.

Their pose is described as miraculous.

The singularity of abilities is better explained in the novel.

Odasaku’s past is slightly less glossed over/implied.

Gide tells Odasaku to say hello to the children for him.

The cigarettes. Also, Odasaku’s last words were about his true love, curry rice.

Epilogue

Only one scene was animated. Everything else is pretty important imo.

Some of my favorite words and phrases to describe a character in pain

coiling (up in a ball, in on themselves, against something, etc)

panting (there’s a slew of adjectives you can put after this, my favorites are shakily, weakly, etc)

keeling over (synonyms are words like collapsing, which is equally as good but overused in media)

trembling/shivering (additional adjectives could be violently, uncontrollably, etc)

sobbing (weeping is a synonym but i’ve never liked that word. also love using sob by itself, as a noun, like “he let out a quiet sob”)

whimpering (love hitting the wips with this word when a character is weak, especially when the pain is subsiding. also love using it for nightmares/attacks and things like that)

clinging (to someone or something, maybe even to themselves or their own clothes)

writhing/thrashing (maybe someone’s holding them down, or maybe they’re in bed alone)

crying (not actual tears. cry as in a shrill, sudden shout)

dazed (usually after the pain has subsided, or when adrenaline is still flowing)

wincing (probably overused but i love this word. synonym could be grimacing)

doubling-over (kinda close to keeling over but they don’t actually hit the ground, just kinda fold in on themselves)

heaving (i like to use it for describing the way someone’s breathing, ex. “heaving breaths” but can also be used for the nasty stuff like dry heaving or vomiting)

gasping/sucking/drawing in a breath (or any other words and phrases that mean a sharp intake of breath, that shite is gold)

murmuring/muttering/whispering (or other quiet forms of speaking after enduring intense pain)

hiccuping/spluttering/sniffling (words that generally imply crying without saying crying. the word crying is used so much it kinda loses its appeal, that’s why i like to mix other words like these in)

stuttering (or other general terms that show an impaired ability to speak — when someone’s in intense pain, it gets hard to talk)

staggering/stumbling (there is a difference between pain that makes you not want to stand, and pain that makes it impossible to stand. explore that!)

recoiling/shrinking away (from either the threat or someone trying to help)

pleading/begging (again, to the threat, someone trying to help, or just begging the pain to stop)

Feel free to add your favorites or most used in the comments/reblogs!

Death obsessed autistic faggots are our only hope for a cultural renaissance

Hhhhhh. That feeling when you know you're still improving and haven't gotten fully skilled yet but the only way for you to improve is to keep making the Bad Stuff first before being able to make the Good Stuff.

Virginia Woolf, from a letter to Lady Robert Cecil written c. January 1907

be cringe about your interests!! be embarrassing about the things that matter to you!! be unashamedly annoying with regards to the things that make your world go round!! the world is a better place because of it!!